*hugs you both*

Newlife, can you not get any help? =(

im meant to be going back to doctors next week

but im not going cos im not being insulted

im sorry

i shouldnt say anything

Why do you think they insult you? Or should it be how?

doctor said that as my parents dont know it suggests i dont love them

also basically looked down on me and says i shouldnt feel how i do and made me feel worse

I'm sure you do love them. I've got an appointment coming up to see if I have depression but I haven't told my parents. I rarely tell my parents anything because they never give the response I want, most of the time it's ignore them, or shouldn't you apolgise or whatever. It's ruddy stuipd, sometimes they even tell me off (usually not needed to). And stuff. I love them & all my family but can't talk to them. I just don't want them to know and I don't want them to know I feel like this or anything. I'll probs get meds and will have to hide them. Fun. It's like when I wasn't self harming this year, they've accused me when I was either not doing it or when it was my really bad exzema but my mum don't believe me. :( I hate them for not trusting me. So why should I trust them in telling them stuff whhen I know they'll give me the wrong reaction....

I dreampt about him again, I cant do this. I'm trying to get over him for the sake of our friendship which is going to hell in the hand basket any how. I want him and need him and 2 months without seeing him, without his hugs Im going more strange that I usually am. New phone yay, whats the first thing I did, I transfered all the photos of him from my old one across the ones I said I took off my phone but couldnt because I cant get through my day without him. I can sms him without swamping him and when he sms's me I never know how to reply. He is my best friend and its all falling apart *cries*

*checking in...again...drunk and bleeding*
Don't want to give up my knife...keeping it...am I still allowed in?
*finds corner and collapses*

I hate my life *cries and tries not to drink or bleed. Keeps Ally company in corner*

Do you guys have room for one more? ... I feel like this is a good place for me right now...

*grabs blanket and goes searching for a lonely corner*

Yep, there's plenty of room.

I'm still in my sound-proofed room. It feels lonely, but safer. I'm so scared. I don't feel safe, and everything and everyone is scaring me.
And I feel so alone.

*comes in and curls up to cry*

i want to harm

only way to feel better

too much in my head

xxx

sorry

xx

how is everyone

i hurt myself tonight and i dont feel so good about it
can i stay over here for a lil while please,if yous have room?

*stumbles in* i am so immature and insecure why do i have to feel like this arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh h

*offers round a strong pot of tea and some biscuts*
Take care all
*grabs blanket and her stuffed lamb and rejoins Johanna in the corner*

hey ally do you want to talk to someone who wont remember the convo (basically do ya wanna vent) cos i am here

Hey steve,
Eh, I'm kind of in a blank state right now...nothing much to say.
Appreciate it though. Do you have anything you want to talk aboyt? How you doing?

*hugs everyone who needs hugs*

Hands over the blade and finds a teddy and radio

*checks back in*
not that i ever checked out.....
i would like the tranquilizing gun now please....it might finally put me to sleep..

We are having a really cozy corner here now. Lets be like sardienes, suporting sardines!

I wish I was drunk then I wouldnt have to remember how **** I am feeling, like daggers through my heart and its not even like I matter any more