*hugs all who have posted*

Sorry, my back has been really sore for the past 4 days so sitting here at the computer typing up all the individuals would only make it worse :( I'll swing by later and hopefully reply to each of you.

Take care xxx

*Hugs Taz's back*

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Nicole* Is it therapy you don't want to go to ?

*hugs mark* yeah it was therapy, but i went, have just got back. i saw my old therapist while i was there, its really made me think about how i was then compared to how i am now....its strange

*hugs everyone that cares for one*
*sits and cries*
There isn't a point anymore.

*Hugs Crimson* Whats the matter ? I hope it's ok to ask

*curls up*

*Scoots up next to the curled up Nicole*

i hate living here. stupid family theyre always being nasty to me.

*hugs Nicole*

I think... I got most everything done, except stuff for the organization fair, but I have to wait for my best friend/la presidenta of our organization to come pick me up to do the stuff. I'm kinda excited about this... I missed her in the oh, I don't know, 3 days we haven't seen each other.

I think I may put my fair pictures on facebook while I wait.

I'll PM you.

*cuddles crimson* There is a point hun. Here if you need to talk.

*hugs steph* welcome back! I'm sorry to hear things got so bad for you and that you wound up in the hospital. I hope that the volunteering goes well though! Its good to have some sort of distraction like that.

*hugs mark* How r u doing today?

*hugs nicole* Did therapy go okay? I'm sorry that you hate living at home. I wish your family would be nicer to you :-/

*hugs taz* I'm sorry that your back hurts. Dont worry about individuals if it is hurting too badly. Hope that it feels better soon.

*hugs april* How r u doing hun? Good luck with the application for that job.

*hugs helen* You haven't really posted lately. You okay hun?

*hugs oliver* Nice to see you! Looking forward to an update from you later. Hope things are okay.

*hugs heather* Oh hun, you are NOT a failure, no matter what you family is telling you. I hate that they make you feel like this. I hope the dinners go well though despite everything. You can find some really healthy alternative meals, and some of kahlia's options sounded really yummy.

*hugs kahlia* glad that your dinner went well and that you scored a kiss from your niece lol. Hope that you got your book today, what's the book for? sounds like its quite a big one since it needs it own coffee table :-P

*hugs felicia* I'm sorry to hear that you cut, good job on getting things done though. I hope that you have a good time with your friend!

*hugs englishrose* hi! I'm Laura!

*hugs everyone else that I may have missed*

So Wednesday i'm going to have to take my graduate school exam. I'm getting really nervous about it, then uni starts and I have to start applications and work and was asked to make 2 websites for clubs on campus... It just hit me how crazy my life is going to get.
I messed up last night too... nothing horrible... but yeah. I don't know. I just wanted to get out of my head for awhile. I tried to put off for like 6 hours of horrible shaking urges, but then just gave in... i guess i failed.

*hugs laura.* you didnt fail, we all slip up, just try again. i feel really bad about moaning about my family, because some people have worse than mine, but the emotional abuse is just messing with my head :(

*Hugs Laura* Sorry you cut but that doesen't make you a failure, it makes you human :)

*cuddles everyone*

Laura, you're not a failure sweetheart, I promise. Loving all the individuals. I'm not doing so well but I'm still fighting on..

*Hugs Helen* oooh you changed your signature pic !

Laura , I'm doing strangley okay today hmmm, I have made many trips to get groceries to put in a box for my gift to my Sister and Brother in law and their baby as a housewarming gift and I've wrapped it up in a wide dark purple ribbon and Gold Bows . It's got tins of veg , pasta , rice , cereal etc in it , stuff you need when you are starting from nothing :)

Also today marks the 1 week S.I. free milestone for me which isn't VERY long granted but it's big for me , it's just sort of happened heh .

That sounds like an awesome gift basket. And one week is big and after a while it just turns into two, then three, and so on. :D Good job. *hugs*

*cuddles everyone*

Heee Thankyou Crimson *Huggles*

Congrats Mark!!! *glomps* :D One week is amazing, especially since you've been struggling so much lately. <3 Oh, and that does sound like a lovely gift basket. :)

Hels, glad to hear that you're still fighting on. Loved what you said on FB the other day, too, on your status. How you'll never give up. Even if you don't FEEL like that now I hope that you will still ACT on what you said. :) *cuddles*

Laura, PM me if you need, 'kay, hon?? The same goes for you, Crimson... wish I could help make it better. There still is a point to many things... I don't know what you're struggling with right now so I can't help you really, but as I said, feel free to PM me as well. <3 to both of you.

Nicole, glad that therapy went okay. :) Is the change that you see a good one? I hope so. *cuddles*

Felicia, I hope that the transition back to uni isn't too bad for you. We're here if you ever need to vent/rant, as you know!! <3 How are you doing tonight? Hopefully you & your bestie have a good time. :) *huggles*

Sorry for those I missed, 'cause I know I missed some... just wanted to get at least a few individuals out there. :-/

GRRRR I am so tired... and kind of pissed off at med side effects. Just want to go punch something, which is rather uncharacteristic of me. Also didn't get a lot done as far as the job app goes, which is another reason why I'm p.o.'d. :'( Feel so damn useless.

In other news, Jarrod & I are going to be going on a date tonight... I think. I hope. It's been awhile since we've been out, together, just us... or at least, a bit, lol. Feels like longer than it actually has been, I guess; I'm not sure why.

I need to update my r/v soon. :(

*hugs helen* im glad to hear that you are fighting despite everything. thats really really good. Very proud of you for that. And thanks, i thought some individuals should get thrown in the mix again, especially since everyone seems to be struggling right now and we all need and deserve support :)

*hugs nicole* nobody should have to deal with any type of abuse though... especially from family. try not to compare situations though, its all relative really.

*hugs mark* great job on 1 week! and that present sounds great. glad that you are doing okay right now.

*hugs april* have you talked to your np or anyone about your med side effects? Im sorry that they are so bad. Hope that your date with jarrod goes well! You are NOT useless in the least though hun.

*hugs crimson* hope you are okay/okay as can be right now.

I know cognitively that slipping up doesnt make me a failure... Its just that I cant seem to stop myself from slipping up ever. I just felt so damn destructive. Wish I wasn't like this sometimes. O well though, can't change it i suppose.
Now im just procrastinating work *tells self to get going*