*hugs Mark* Heyyy. Nice to see you again! I'm sure the fuzziness will fade eventually, so it's okay. I'm sorry your day was so stressful.

I just bought a christmas present plus something for me... yay!!!!!!!!!!

*walks in and stretches and yawns*
Morning everyone!
*hugs each and every wardie in all their hiding spots*

*Hugs Felicia* What did you buy ? For them and yourself? I have been splurging on ebay (Within semi sensible limits) heh!

*Hugs Crimson* Morning to you too :)

*Spots and hugs Jill*

I bought my best friend and I matching sorority shirts. It's pretty awesome.

curls up.

*Hugs Jill* You okay hun?

hugs mark, nope not really.

*hugs everyone*

Whats happened Jill ? *Hugs*

*Hugs Nicole* How are you tonight? Did you buy your mate a presant?

*hugs mark* i dunno how i am really :/ i feel happy, but at the same time i'm very triggerd, and having some weird thoughts/ideas which i don't think i should be having :(
and no i didnt :/ i spent my tenner on getting my cartliage pierced instead XD whoops.

erm having really stuiped thoughts right now,feel very panicky. only got a week left of being signed off. and that feels me with dread. mum and dad think i should hand my notice in, but even doing that is making me panic. ***** not sure i can do this, want to give in to these thoughts. sorry

*Hugs Jill* You don't have to give in to those thoughts Jill , You are strong and you can fight through them .

*Hugs Nicole*

*hugs mark* how're you tonight?

I'm .........drained. I don't think I have the energy to sort out my meds issues tomorrow , why can't they just get them right , They must do hundreds every day why do they mess mine up so often ? I NEEEEEEEED this increased dose of Lithium, They only gave me my previous dose , I was suicidal on that dose :(

*huggles mark* aaw, i'm sorry they keep messing up your meds, if you havent got the energy to sort it by yourself is there anyone else that could help you with getting it sorted? this is something you really need and cant avoid really. :( *extra big hugs*

I don't know who could do it on my behalf Nicole , I have quite a few people in my support network but my social worker is only just back to work since hurting his leg and I haven't heard from him since August 29th . Can you do it ? heh :P

lol, i would if i could hun! hmm. live to far apart i think!

Hi.

Appaza 'hi' is too short and I must lengthen my message.

Heee , yeah Probably Nicole :)

*Hugs Lia* Heeeeeeeeey you :)

lol, where abouts do you live anyways mark? not sure i've ever heard you say it (or saw you post it, whatever)
LIIIAAAAAA! *hugs* how're you?

<<<<<<<I live in South Wales Nicole , Origionally from Swindon though

Hmmmmmmmmmm I'm heading to bed
*Hugs wardies goodnight*

lol, definatley too far away then! but swindon is quite near oxford(ish)

*hugs Mark* have a good night and sleep well... Just a thought for when you wake up though... Have you tried switching pharmacies? or is it the doctor sending it to them wrong that's the problem?

*hugts crimson* how're you tonight?

Not bad. Might make a fort out of the empty boxes in my office :D

*hugs all*

*feels dense*
well not only have people from my office seen stars from this movie eating lunch near the office (like 1 block away literally) but you can see the set from some people in my office's windows.
totally didn't realize till someone told me today...
but the only star I know is in it that I wanna meet is Drew Barrymore and she is the most seldome person from the cast seen around town. *pouts* ok maybe Kristen Bell too... but no one in my office has seen her.

*cuddles wardies* Seeing specialist was pointless, they didn't even examine me... Utterly depressing knowing I'm now back at square one and I really can't afford to pay for a private consultation. So unbelievably triggered about all this. Just feels so hopeless being so ill and not being able to do anything about it :( Sorry guys. I'm going to have to head off, try to sleep or something. x

*hugs crimson* ooooh i love forts! i might make one around my bed, if it will fit, my rooms tiny!

*Hugs all* Sorry about my apparent vanishment.

I'm much happier than I was when I posted the last measage. I have wonderful friends :)

x

forts are indeed awesome nicole!

that's great lia! go somewhere fun or just hanging out?

sarah - can you make a payment plan with a private consultant? or request a new specialist and complain about the last one?

*huggles lia* i'm glad you're feeling better now, and i'm glad that you have wonderful friends, i love my friends too.

omg. i am such an IDIOT! i have such a sick mind :/

*hugs lia* i'm glad that you are feeling better and that you have great friends! :-)

*hugs crimson* yay forts!! lol and thats kinda awesome that you could potentially see celebrities outside your window. I was in downtown Chicago, IL a few months ago when they were filming the new Transformers movie that is coming out. All these fake car accidents and things everywhere made the city look like a mess lol.. didn't see any celebrities though.

*hugs sarah* yeah i was going to say what crimson said about putting in a complaint... her idea about payment plans is also good. I'm sorry your appt was such crap.

*hugs mark* i wish i had advice about your meds. I'm sorry they keep messing them up. Can you talk to your doctor about the issues or the pharmacist?

*hugs nicole* how r u this evening any better than earlier? hope you are enjoying your new piercing!

*hugs wasteofspace* I'm sorry, i forgot your name. How r u doing?

*hugs felicia* i missed you! hope that the fuzziness from the meds gets better soon. Those shirts sound awesome. :-)

*hugs everyone else*

Yeah I haven't seen any celebrities but my coworkers have taken phone cam pics in the restaurants lol there isn't snow on the ground yet up here so the set is a huge mound of fake snow to make a crater looking thing with a hole they've been putting fake whales in lol it looks so odd sitting next to the port and having no snow around it

laura :) how ish you?

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Crimson* I think it's the Dr *sigh*

*Hugs Lia* I'm glad you have great friends :)

*Hugs Heather* How are you?

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Sarah*

*huggles everyone*

*huggles all*

Not sure if I've been on since I was diagnosed but, I've got pneumonia. :-(
Sorry if I'm not around much.

*Huggles Nicole*How are you ?

*Huggles Kahlia* I'm sorry you have pneumonia , Don't worry if you're not on here a lot , you have to look after yourself .

Hmmm slow day and no one's here... *sits and waits*

We (My befriending lady Becky and I) went to the pharmacy to try and get some more 200mg Lithium to make it up to my correct dose only to find that my perscription has been set to my previous dose , but they DID have some Diazepam from August WOW that would make it a total of 600mg of Diazepam they would have given me in 3 days! I asked then to dispose of this one , it's okay to have a few spare but 3 months supply in one month is ridiculous !!

*Hugs Crimson*

i got 2 hours sleep, my hand hurtsss from writing too much on silly exam and i have another class at 3 and then i hafta babysit from 5-like 8... and bet my aunt wont pay me cuz its 'helping out the family' ><

how're you lot

hugs everyone

Someone last night tried to get the attention of my downstairs neighbor by ringringringing the doorbell and banging on the window below my bedroom window at like 2.38am this morning ,It woke me up , was not a happy bunny :(

I feel okayish thanks Heather , sorry your arm hurts :(

*Hugs Louise*

*huggles everyone*
not feeling up to much today...sorry.

*hugs mark* How are you?

*hugs nicole* Here if you need to talk.