I love you daddy Jeff!!!
thanks Blondie

f*ck :\
im a brilliant one arent i :s

*hugs Heather*
what's up hun?

hah heather thought it'd be a wise idea to be dumb without checking her bathroom first O.o
*applauds self*

Please note, As much as i have wanted to, i have not SI'd! Yay me!

Yay Blondie!!!
*hugs*

well. it's the end of the weekend (near enough) and i am still alive.
was that planned?
i don't know.

I dont want to be ill. Can I hide here?

Of course you can!

Well done on not harming Susan! *hugs*

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I have the worst cold I've had in a while and have to go to work :(
Can I have some hugs please?

*hugs*


*sneaks in and hides in a corner*

*waves at emma and hugs katie*

:( my back of my shoulder hurts like hell..ugh...

and yay to chloe and susan...u both stayed safe!!!!!! xxx

*hugs emma*
*hugs aimless*

Starts to accept that part of being old is that I will no longer wake up easily.

something to perk me up perhaps? not mentally, ~ physically.....meds have whacked me....urgh.

Want to cut. . . Have to ask my dad for my blades back, which is going to be awkward.

*hugs everyone*

I feel rubbish. and I don't know why. Stupid, much? I mean, I should have a reason for feeling like I do.

Got angry at a mate earlier, and I don't know why. All she did was sign off MSN, and it made me angry. God's sake what's wrong with me? People have lives apart from MSN and yet apparently I don't realise that.

****. Want to cut. Won't let myself. I don't think anyways.

I want to not hurt for a while. Isn't going to happen. I have a big soft heart and can't help but care. The best thing I can do is distract myself.

I work alone tomorrow so I will see if Philip can record a couple of cd's of aa speakers. The work i'm doing is straightforward, so i can listen to what the speakers say and get out of my own nonsense. Otherwise, i have a couple of favorites already.

*love for all*
Auburn i get like that too, mines usualy with texts though.
Blondie i am so happy you didn't SI you are so strong! I wish i was stronger.

Very confused with myself at the moment.

stupid thing is she's phoned several times since then. I've told everyone I need a break from contact for a while. get myself together again. causeI'm going to self destruct soon if im not careful, it's like walkinbg on a knife-edge (sorry, couldn't think of a better way to put it) and being close to falling off the wrong side.
Too much is happening to too many people and I need to help myself first and foremost, but they don't understand that. at all.

Good on you for being brave enough to take action.
I had another screaming in my head moment to talk today but didnt. I wish i wasnt so weak, any ideas on how to get stronger?

It feels almost like the wrong thing to do though, there's too much going on up there for me to withdraw completely, but... I can't keep going like this. I'm worried about too many people at the moment and I can't keep helping them. It's something almost trivial that they're arguing about anyways and they seem to think I can help them from 4 hours' drive away.

I wish I had advice for you but... I'm almost exactly the same.