to me it feels like i'm watching my life happening rather than being a part of it. it doesn't feel real at all. :(

hugs all. curls up in the corner and hides

seems like a lot of us are hiding in corners today... good thingthe ward has lots of them ;)

*hugs shadowedsoul* hiding sounds good to me too.

Kelly, we sure do have an unlimited amount of corners, just for that reason ;) After all, it's magical in here yay ^_^ We also have a denial tent but nobody's used it in months, got forgotten about again lol!

*cuddles everybody lots*

denial sounds like a good place to be right now... sadly I can't be that delusional about my reality o.O

*dissappears into the shadows of the darkest corner* i hate feeling like this... it scares me... :(

*cuddles Kelly* Want to talk sweetheart?

<3 :).

not really sure... honestly i'm just kinda blah... i'm just scared cuz this feeling of being disconnected is how it started last time things got really bad for me...

i used to black out and si and not even remember doing it... i'm scared of that happening again....

*cries*

HI Heather

Kelly, have you ever spoken to anyone about that? Sounds quite worrying x

dang it... i have to take off long enough to fix dinner... the kids are getting hungry... i'll be back on in a bit :(

not since i quit going to therapy 6 yrs ago... i haven't talked to anyone since i relapsed... no one will take me w/out insurance ...

Try enjoy cooking their food. That sucks nobody will take you without insurance :( America sounds sucky when it comes to healthcare =/ Least we can have ours free :|

*Hugs Nicole* You can do this. You've hung on this long.

*Hugs Jill.* I've missed you :) You alright?

*Hugs Helen, Heather and Kelly*

In that case, I am a permenent resident of the denial tent. I think I will move in.

hugs everbody.
hi lia, i missed you too. erm not great at the sec. =[

Liiiiia, I've missed you my love. I remember attempting to revise for my psychology exams when I did it at AS level. I hardly did any & failed ha. Sadly had to have that result on my 18th birthday & try not to get upset :/ *cuddles*

*Hugs Helen* Hey :) Sorry I've not been in. I do that sometimes. Just don't wanna talk to anyone.

*HUgs Jill tight* What's the matter?

erm really want to hurt myself. everthing is really screwed up right now. and i think im about to get screwed over again. trying to distract myself on facebook and talking on here. really want my mind to stop screaming at me to hurt myself.
hey solo and ljmeep welcome,im jill. sorry for not saying before mind has been all over the place.

That's okay honey :) Sometimes we all just want to be alone.

i'm back... on the plus side I'm not disconneted anymore... on the negative i'm pissed!

my 3 yr old just ruined a brand new bottle of nail polish, a new lip stick and spilt it all over in the bag with the rest of my new makeup in it.

I was able to save most of it, but ugh! that's frustrating!

Argh My ****ing Laptop Is Doing My ****ing Head In Grrrrrrr