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effervescence 14-04-2008 11:35 PM

no, ally, hun, you have to stay with us.

alexx, are you moving? did i read that right?

hey hunni, are you ok? what has happened?

emma? jeremy? callie? are u there?

i seem to be using a lot of question marks today.

argh i get to FINALLY see my therapist today. yay for me. i dont actually know what i want to talk about. its always like this. i see her, we talk, i leave after having all my emotions brought to the surface, i want to see her again, but then by the time i do get to see her i am numb again.

~*forever_broken*~ 14-04-2008 11:42 PM

*snuggles Cloe*
I hope it goes well luv... Good luck

*curls up in her corner and cries*

I just want it to stop...

effervescence 14-04-2008 11:53 PM

what exactly do you want to stop hun? or is it just Everything? have u talked to people about your cat?

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 04:26 AM

Yeah, it's just Everything... Especially just feeling awful all the time :crying:

*curls up in her corner to sleep*

Jetforce 15-04-2008 06:35 AM

My bad Alexx *hugs u back and sends u a some white roses* xx

Yeah, i'm okies here :-) Just lazy and sleeping in a lot..ooops, but i gotta get up early tomorrow, for a change :P

I think i just missed u Chloe.....oh well, u have a good day there and PM/email if u need to chat :P

*hugs ally* thx's for that cute msg....hope ur keeping safe there ally, and no...u can't die on us! we need u need, as ur a special person xx

effervescence 15-04-2008 08:28 AM

thanks jeremy :)

my therapist wants me to either write a letter to or draw a picture of myself how i see myself in 2 years time. the thing is, she made some big assumptions. no. 1 being i'll still be alive. i dunno, it sounds really hard, i think there are lots of different versions of how i might be in 2 years :s help?!

Jetforce 15-04-2008 09:30 AM

Just do ur best chloe and try to predict where u r going to be in 2 yrs time. Hopefully things will be better....i know it took me over 1 yr to get out of the spirals of clinical depression and i'm still partially unwell

*hugs chloe*

effervescence 15-04-2008 10:45 AM

*hugs jeremy*

it's been 6 years. i don't know how much longer i can do this. i only do it because i know there will be about 5 people who would miss me.

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 10:53 AM

*hugs Jeremy and Cloe*

Cloe, there are more than five people that would miss you... All of us here for example *snuggles*... But I understand what you mean.

Jeremy, any time :-D I hope you get your energy back *massive hugs*

Hmmm. Remind me I want to talk about how lousy my session was yestarday... But is 03:00 here and I'm gonna try and sleep some more :sleeping:

Jetforce 15-04-2008 10:56 AM

Wise idea ally...head back to bed hon..u need the sleep ;-)

Hmm...u could say that the treatment currently ain't working well Chloe? It took me alot to get out of the hole i was in tbh, and i really hope u get out of it soon chloe *cuddles u*

effervescence 15-04-2008 11:07 AM

thanks jeremy. my treatment....yeah....i just had to get a new counselloe cos i moved away to go to uni....so we dont know each other very well yet.
thanks ally - i'd miss u too if anything happened to u :) have a good sleep.

Jetforce 15-04-2008 11:17 AM

yeah...having new things kinda of suck coz u gotta start all over again and building up that friendship etc etc. But i hope things goes well 4 u chloe :-)

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 11:34 AM

*checks in feeling nervous and anti-social. depressed. cries.*

hi. I feel stupid...its like...everyone in here knows each other. I feel like an outcast. I can come in here right? coz I can jsut leave if you want...

youngatheart 15-04-2008 11:36 AM

Hello everyone, how are you all?

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 11:37 AM

Argh! I can't sleep! I'm not even tired any more :-( and I only got about 5 hours of broken sleep to begin with... Not to mention I was so tired yesterday afternoon that I had to leave my last lecture early because I couldn't keep my eyes open... And then I was a zombie at work :pinch:

So, I'll gripe about my session instead.

It was my fault (mostly) that it went poorly(although I don't think he interpreted the signs I was showing correctly... Didn't feel to me like he was tuning into the fact that I was miserable). I am feeling SO awful atm :crying: and yesterday was no different. I had to fight the impulse to scoot over into the arm rest multiple times and I clutched my book bag to my chest basically the entire session. I probably looked really closed off but I was just so miserable I needed to feel that *shrug* Weird, I know.

Anyway the poor guy was thwarted at just about every turn. I couldn't respond well to anything he asked... I couldn't elaborate or anything... I just felt miserable.

When we finally got around to the fact that I was feeling awful things went a bit better... He was really understanding about the cat situation and about the first thing he said was he had half a mind to write a letter on my behalf saying something like I need the cat for my mental health (*sigh* that's right... Keep forgetting I'm a mental patient:pinch:).

But... I don't think much got accomplished yesterday... I kind of think it was a wasted session, and I hate that :-(

To make things 'better'..? I over dosed about an hour later :pinch: and now I've got to fess up to it next week...

Good lord, I'm an idiot:crying:

Hmmm. Sorry, long post :eyeroll:

youngatheart 15-04-2008 11:38 AM

Hi Darkark, Im new in here too but everyone has been really welcome..come on in.

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 11:40 AM

Good lord I really did write a book didn't I? :pinch:

Hi David :-D Don't feel stupid we only know each other because we all wandered in here on day just like you did.

Sounds like you're not doing so well *hugs* sorry to hear it

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 11:41 AM

=] thank you.

I've just been feeling pretty **** for the last few days and needed somewhere to come and hide...*wraps up in a blanket and stares into space*

*hands out cookiez*

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 11:45 AM

has anyone seen my teddy...?

youngatheart 15-04-2008 11:48 AM

Forever lost, Im sorry to hear the session went so bad. He didnt seem like he really knew what he was doing...it was totally now your fault!
You are definatly not an idiot! It may be good to talk about it next week but dont feel bad about it today love, these thigns happen.
how are you feeling? are you feeling ill?

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 11:49 AM

Well this is an excellent place to hide what with the denial tent and all ;-)
*hands around a tea tray then snuggles into her blanket in her nice, safe, cozy corner*

youngatheart 15-04-2008 11:51 AM

Thanks for the tea:-D I was just thinking I was thirsty but too lazy to move!:pinch:

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 11:52 AM

ally, you may have written a book but I bet it felt good. sounds like he's an idiot and didn't know what he was doing as crystalheart said...thanks for the tea, even though I dont like tea lol...*smiles to self* <-- omg, a smile?!?!

youngatheart 15-04-2008 11:54 AM

Darkark, you just made me smile too!

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 11:57 AM

yeyyyyyyyyy =D *feels special*

I dont often make people smile, being such a miserable poo.

not literally a poo...wow...imagine if poo could type...

effervescence 15-04-2008 11:57 AM

see guys you're smiling already! lol :)
ally i'm sorry it didn't go very well (i tend to thwart my therapist at every turn too, like telling her was making a big assumption that i'd still be alive in 2yrs time when i supposed to be looking at myself in 2 yrs time.....) but i think u should take him up on his offer of writing a letter about your cat. whats the point of being a mental patient if you don't get special cat priveledges?!

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 11:59 AM

*hugs crystalheart and David*

What?! Don't like tea?! I think I might faint ;-) lol

Thanks guys(and you're right David, it did feel kind of good). Actually he's usually very good at reading me. Guess he kind of dropped the ball yesterday. And I definitely want to talk about it next week (hmmm, should make some notes so I don't forget)...

Hope all goes better for y'all

effervescence 15-04-2008 12:00 PM

and shouldn't you be asleep young lady? i am off to curl up in bed and pretend i don't have to get up tomorrow.
night night ally xxx
p.s. hello all you englanders just getting up (well u should already be up you lazy buggers) - callie? emma? helen? alexx? i read your poems btw alexx - left u a comment :)
night all

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:00 PM

lol!!! be pretty messy darkart!! ewww!!! :tongue2:

effervescence 15-04-2008 12:01 PM

i don't like tea either :p
or coffee.
give me hot chocolate any day.
or any form of chocolate.....
ok shutting up now

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:04 PM

see, I'm not the only one who doesn't like tea...but I do like coffee...and hot chocolate...and I'm just gonna leave the whole living poo thing behind =\ lol.

I'm up, i'm up! as in, i'm awake...nothing else...yeahhhhh.
damn right, its lunch time already...bbbrrrrrrrbbbbbbbbbbb

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:05 PM

good idea about the notes Ally, if your anything like me I forget anything not written down..im suprised I remember to take all my kids with me when I go out!!!
Hmmm..hot chocolate, I had a mint one last night it was lush!

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:06 PM

arghhhh my CD player just ate my sleeve!

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 12:06 PM

ROTFL :-D y'all made me smile too

Hey Cloe good to see you again *hugs*

Hmmm. As to the 'cat letter' I think he and I both let it drop. lol though you're right, there are some 'perks' that come with being mental... Then again, the whole wanting to die at just about every turn isn't really worth those 'perks' :pinch: *sigh* goodness I'm depressing

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:07 PM

oh no darkark..hope your arm isnt still in it..how will you make your lunch? lol

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:10 PM

it was, it was! but I fought it off *nods proudly* (it took me three goes to spell proudly lol)

and then I'll wash my hair coz its icky today...and then I have to go to..THE DENTIST

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:10 PM

Youre not depressing Ally. Im glad you were in here, or i would have had to watch another episode of the tweenies!

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:11 PM

wow thats great! I have yet to win a fight with a CD player!!
yuk the dentist! I have to go next week..he always wants to talk when my mouth is wide open and ive got dribble everywhere!

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:13 PM

ha ha! that genuinely made me laugh, thank you =]

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 12:13 PM

*hugs* Night Cloe
*thinks longingly of sleep*

Lol OK ok, so not everyone likes tea... I still think y'all are a few french fries short of a Happy Meal ;-)... Wait a minute... So am I lol :eye roll: forgot for a second there

Mmmm, hot chocolate. I'm gonna have to make some of that and take it to lecture with me... In about 4 hours lol.

Hehehe, crystalheart, good to know I'm not the only one whod lose their head if it wasn't attached to their body ;-)

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:17 PM

I cant find anything for lunch =[ my house is rubbish, there's never any food. *makes imaginary sandwich*

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 12:18 PM

lol glad to hear you tamed the wild beast that is your CD player David :-D

Ugh, the dentist :pinch: sorry to hear that.

crystalheart... The tweenies??

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:21 PM

I hope you manage to get a little sleep Ally, whats your lecture on?
yeah my kids would watch the tweenies all day if I let them.. although its great when I want to do nothing and put it on. :pinch:
sorry theres no food darkart, although at least you wont have to worry about any caught in your teeth for the dentists!!!!:tongue2:

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 12:21 PM

David you're making me hungry lol and it's only 04:22 here... Too early to be eating yet :-(

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:23 PM

you probably need the energy! 9good excuse as any to eat!)

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:25 PM

lol sorry, and yeah, good point...I probably shouldn't ahve too much to eat before I see the dentist.

seriously, my CD player has a mind of its own. Its terrifying.

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 12:26 PM

Ahhh, I see :-) how old are your kids crystalheart?

Yeah, I hope I can sleep too lol. First lecture is on history and systems in psychology, second one is learning and behavior in psychology, and the last one of the day is on sexual behavior... Ironically, I'm a psychology major lol

*passes David an imaginary bag of crisps to go with his sandwich*

flymetothemoon 15-04-2008 12:28 PM

ah thank you =]

*eats noisily* sorry <--with mouth full

yeah I'm disgusting =[

*curls up in corner with teddy and book*

~*forever_broken*~ 15-04-2008 12:30 PM

*pokes Davids CD player with a stick* lol

youngatheart 15-04-2008 12:30 PM

I hope you didnt think it was me that watches tweenies?? lol things havent gotten quite that bad yet:tongue2:
My kids are 6, 3 and 2.. 2 of them have Autism but all 3 are just fab! (well I would say that wouldnt I?Lol)
I am currentyl doing a Child psychology course! Thats great what you are doing! If you want to write me an essay about attachment please feel free:tongue2:

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