I am trying to Lindsay, just chilling in bed going to try sleeping soon, butjust feel so ill that sleep seems impossible.

It's good that you're at least resting, I hope you feel better soon.

thanks Lindsay *hugs*

I've been ill, Yuck , I have drank Ginger and Lime tea , It's horrible and I don't know what I'll do if I can't keep my night meds down.... I need Hugging (Yes I know I blatently asked :P)

*huggles Mark* sorry you've been ill, I hope you get better soon

*huggles mark extra hard*
could you take an anti-emetic?

*hugs Mark*

I've just stupidly told someone from a dating site about my mental health problems. I can't keep my idiotic mouth shut. My OT keeps telling me that I tell people about my issues too quickly but I didn't believe her.

*Hugs Lindsay Hard*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Crimson* I took Tums type things.

*hides in garden*

*hugs mark :)*
you two better skypeeeee me :P

*hugs all*

*goes to hide in bed*

*Hugs Heather* we'll try :)

*Hugs Laura* what's up hun?

*Hugs Oliver*

*jumps on bed* I want to be a child again. Everything was so simple then. Maybe I could go about acting my shoe size.

I wish I could be a child too Lindsay, I often look at little kids and think how little they have to worry about yet, which I could go back to that.
I have one of the hardest decisions to make in less than a few months and I don't want to make it.

Do you want to talk about it, Oliver?

*hugs Mark* I hope they're helping.

*hugs Lindsay* I just blab about everything else instead of letting people know about that... it's not much better. Hmmmmmmmmm... to be 8.5 again... *throws pillows at everyone and runs*

*hugs Laura*

*hugs Heather*

*hugs Oliver* Which decision?

I have to decide whether or not I'm going to go back to music college in sept or take another year out.
Basically I started my 3rd year last sept, but my mental health problems got really bad that I wasn't turning up for lectures or rehearsals and in the end I had a meeting with some staff and they said I either take the rest of the year out or continue and fail, so I had to take the rest of the year out, which everyone thought would help me and I would be back feeling better this sept. Unfortunatly I'm really not well, this last 3 weeks I have taken 4 overdoses and I'm hardly leaving the house. My GP spoke to me about it today and she said that she would deem me medically unfit to go back and she has tried to contact a psych I have seen to get her to assess me. The thing is I agree with them that I am medically unfit to go back, but and this is a massive, massive but my mum (plus a lot of other people including uni staff, friends, family) all expect me to go back and they think I am well enough.
This is the thing my loyalty to my mum is so great that I can not let her down by not going back, she is so happy I am going back (even agreeing to walk Kinder Scout in the peak district, which for her is a big thing with her MS) she is telling everyone I am going back and I do not want to let her down by failing her. She has done so much for me over the years and put up with a lot from me that I should at least try for her, but at the back of my mind I know I'm very unwell.
My GP is talking about me getting an assessment and them saying I am medically unfit and essentially taking it out of my hands, but even so I would still have to tell my mum.

really sorry that is so long and for some reason the hide button isnt working so I can't hide it, sorry guys.

*hugs all*

Could you have your doc talk to her? Then you wouldn't have to and they could probably answer a good deal of questions she may have. Might be less stressful. *squishes*

*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Crimson*

I'm ill. I hate being ill.

*makes soup for ill wardies*