its alright dont worry about it =]

*huggles all*

Had a bad night last night. Woke up twice with panic attacks. Feeling quite fragile this morning. Meh. Also still extremely tired because the sleep quality was so poor. :-(

Oh well.

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry, I don't know what to say right now. But I hope you can get better sleep tonight. I'm thinking of you.

I'm glad we didn't get on your nerves Josh :)

*Hugs Solo* Thanks :) I find it really hard to put myself first though.

*cuddles ward* my counsellor saw what I've been like over the past 2 weeks, my fiance kept it well documented and had me fill out a questionnare and she looked at it all and she's worried and my goal for this week is to get my gp to give me a refferal to the mental health team in my area :( I'm so worn out, sorry for the lack of individuals today, I'm thinking of you all x

I understand Lia. It sounds good, but I can't do it either. Seems to be the common theme with all of us!

We'll need to work on that Solo. All of you guys matter to me, no matter how long your stay here.

*Hugs Sarah* It's alright my dear, not everyone can always support others. It's enough to know you care :) I hope all goes well for you and you can get things sorted. I really admire your courage you know.

*hugs ward* I so wanted to be super on top of things with individuals and such, then life hit me... again.

I can't keep doing this.

*cuddles everyone* you're all amazing, I know you can do this. I know you'll beat it, because you're all truly wonderful. <3

It's ok Felicia! Life happens hun.

*cuddles everyone*

Two hours until my online meeting. Nervous as hell. Taken 1/2mg of xanax because I need to stay sharp. Hopefully it will kick in and be just enough. *sigh* Why am I such a stress-bucket? It would be so much easier to do this group assignment if I was studying on-campus. :-(

*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Josh*
*Hugs Kahlia* Good Luck with your meeting hun :)
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Felicia*

Yet again I struggle to get up *Sigh* I'm sorry so many of you struggled last night/yesterday , How are you guys doing today?

Last night the Office for national statistics rang and wanted to come over but I said can we poll me by phone and they said yes , so they asked all these questions like , Why aren't you working? and when do you expect to work? and what illness causes you too not work? ! Man , Awkward on the phone I would have hated it in person. :S

Oh My Days! I looked in my drwer of T-shirts in my Pile of T-shirt and in the washing machine looking for my black t-shirt only for now, about an hour later to realise I'm WEARING it hah!

*Hugs everyone*
lol Mark, I do that a lot. :P

*cuddles all*

The meeting is all over and done with (thank goodness)!!!! Now I can settle down again. AND that makes me half-way with my assessments - 4 down and 4 to go!!

Well done, Kahlia.

Yay Kahlia :) well done.

*Hugs Kahlia* Well done you Little Sis!

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mark* How are you?

Hello wardies... just wanted to stop in... I know it's been a while. Things have been ... interesting to say the least.

I went out w/ my bff on Sun. and hubby called about half way through the night and asked if we could talk when I got back home... this worried me a great deal and my stomach was in knots for the rest of the night.

We did end up talking and for once he actually listened and didn't get all defensive or brush my feelings aside. He now knows about my relapse into SI and is being much more attentive to my needs and really trying to spend more time with me and the kids. He's not disappearing down to the neighbors as often and is watching what and how he says things.

We've started to connect in a way we haven't for years now. It's nice and I really hope it last. So far I have gone 5 days (today will be 6) without SIing. I am caustiously optimistic right now.

Just want to thank all of my wardies for helping me over the past few weeks. I am so grateful for all of you. *hugs*

*Hugs Kelly#* That sounds like really good news :)

That's brilliant, Kelly.

I've been prayin for ya (Sis). I've been worried cause you haven't been here for a while. I'm so happy for you! I'll keep prayin for progress!

hugs all, curls up

*cuddles everyone* wards been slow. I'm at the doctors friday. Eep. :( Sorry I can't help much :( x

Edit - Requested another username change to SparkleKitten - don't want to be tracked down.

*Hugs Jill* You alright hun?

*Hugs Sarah* Good luck with the Dr's.

I'm on my Desktop with my brand new Laptop over there>>> It's like Neo's room from the matrix in here lol.

New laptops are great fun :)

Hope my user name gets changed, removing all traces of me from the net right now lol

That sounds like a cool new user name Sarah .

My laptop keyboard is so unfamiliar , I keep poking the wrong keys as they are slightly different :S

hugs mark back, hmm feeling really low. cant do this

What can't you do Jill Hun?

You okay Jill? *cuddles*

Heh the girl that bullied me after my last piercing was just on snog, marry avoid on bbc3 - hilarious. classed as a "mission impossible" and kinda looked like a fumbling idiot when talking about piercings, and she's working as a piercer!

cant do life, this anymore.

*Hugs Jill* I'm sorry you're struggling so much .

I've not watched that show Sarah But played it in hospital with some friends I made lol *Hugs*

thanks mark.

*hugs ward*
I'm back at uni. Who wants to come help me unpack all my stuff? haha.

*Lends Felicia a hand*

Thanks, Mark :) You can unpack my books :) lol.

*cuddles Felicia* I hate unpacking after a weekend away o.O

*cuddles Mark* it was rather amusing after she bullied me to see her get mocked for her attitude.

*snuggles Jill* I wish I could help x

*Hugs Felicia* Books! but they are heavy! I'll unpck this box *Snaffles a box* Clothes , not too heavy :P

*Hugs my wardies goodnight*
I hope you all have a good night , afternoon , morning , time difference taken into account.

*cuddles Mark* Nighty night :)

*Hugs Jill, Mark, Sarah and Felicia*

hugs everybody. curls up

*huggles everybody*

Psychiatrist appointment this morning. Bit nervous about it, but it has to happen. *sigh*

Hiya everyone only a quick visit as im leaving the ward for now. *Hugs for everyone that wants hugs* I'm sorry to hear that alot of you are struggling.

~Hugs~for anyone who needs one!

i'll helps you if it mean getta sees you *pout* :P

*sigh*

Checking in for the night.

*curls up*

hi guys *hugs ward* hope you guys are doing okay. cookies for all who are not *hands out cookies*

~hugs Felicia n Josh~

Oooh! What kinda cookies ya got Josh?

*huggles everybody*

I told my psychiatrist about the almost suicide attempt ... he took it really well. He lifted the dose of one of my meds. (Full details in my thread - link in my signature.) Now I'm absolutely exhausted. :-(