I am so so really tired :(

*Squishes Louise*

Are you not sleeping well, Louise?

* hugs* thanks mark ..i just feel if am old enough to buy drink am old enough to deal with the after effects of it as well ...my husband dont drink and he hates having any of it in the house ..but i just wish he would see if from my point of view ...Am just so ****ing pissed that he wont come with me to get some ( i have social anxiety and there are dogs that am scared of were we live ) because he feels he is enabling me to drink

*cries in a corner*

* hugs oliver * what wrong hun ?

i'm scared, really scared of myself and others, people want to kill me and i has to go out of the flat in about 15mins, I shaking and really anxious and I dont know why. i have to go swimming tonight, and i harmed badly yesterday and i only has a short sleeve t shirt for swimming *hugs*

* hugs* aww hun am sorry you are scared is there anyone you know going to be there ?
Can you stay with them while you are there ?

I is going with my friend, but I still really scared. I sorry I has to go now.

*Hugs Oliver* I've had someone try to kill me *Listens*

*Hugs Serenity* How be you?

I have decided that am not going to the AA meeting tonight but am not having a drink either though

Way to go Serenity! I'm failing drink wise and I still am fantasising about injury , I've written the word on my belly , now should I trace it with a blade???? **** sorry , I'm whiney

*Cuddles everyone*

I cut , I hte myself , a word FFS, right across My Fat belly I wrote FAT , I looked in the mirror and I'm proud , I am ****ed up, I was "this"close to
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Running the blade across my neck, :( am I beyone saving ? 16 years I've been at this ****.....:S
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* hugs mark * please dont ... please talk to me whats triggered you whats happened ?

*Hugs Mark*
Can you get to a hospital? I think you should go, we don't want anything to happen to you :(

*hugs mark* please make sure that you are safe. If it means that you have to go to hospital then go.

*hugs everyone else*

*hugs serenity*
you are not the only one.
what triggered you? if you want to talk..

Really not doing well... they won't shut up. Sigh. I have tried to open up before, but they brush me off or don't want to listen... I don't know what to do

*sits in the corner and cries softly, rocking back and forth*