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PoisonedApple 01-12-2010 12:13 AM

*sits and cries*
anyone ever feel like you're drowning and the more you try to swim the deeper under water you get?

MammaMia 01-12-2010 12:17 AM

Yeah, think all of us will have felt like that at least once :( -hugs-

Cazki 01-12-2010 12:23 AM

Yeah it has been a crap year. I hate this bloody snow to :crazy:

PoisonedApple 01-12-2010 12:24 AM

*hugs hels back*
if only this was just once or once in a while it wouldn't be so bad... i just can't seem to get on solid ground... today its gotten to the point i'm just sat here at my desk at work in tears. and the saddest part is, i think that it has nothing to do with my work.
i want to give up and just be wiped off the map.

PoisonedApple 01-12-2010 01:25 AM

time to go home... at least I've managed to stop crying. feel on the verge of it still but at least its something... working on figuring a way not to drown... and a way to get rid of all the excess baggage and bullshit too...
*hugs everyone*
i love you guys *faint smile*

Doikers 01-12-2010 09:29 AM

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Crimson* I've felt that way for sure :( I hope you feel better when you wake up this morning :)

nicole94 01-12-2010 11:37 AM

*hugs everyone*

youngatheart 01-12-2010 01:33 PM

hi everyonexx

Doikers 01-12-2010 01:56 PM

*Hugs Nicole* How are you today?

*Hugs youngatheart if hugs are okay?*

one_step_closer 01-12-2010 02:04 PM

*hugs everyone*

Louise 01-12-2010 02:05 PM

how is everyone

one_step_closer 01-12-2010 02:10 PM

I'm cold and sick of the snow. How are you, Louise?

Doikers 01-12-2010 02:20 PM

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Louise* How are you?

My Mum and I Picked up my Grandmas Ashes today and when we got back to my parents there was a Christmas card for My Grandma from an old neighbour *Sigh*

MammaMia 01-12-2010 03:22 PM

*hugs everyone*

one_step_closer 01-12-2010 03:35 PM

*hugs Mark and Helen*

Mark, I hate when things like that happen. How are you feeling? What are you going to do with your Grandma's ashes? I still have my Dad's. I'm going to get a pendant made out of some of them.

risenfromperdition 01-12-2010 03:38 PM

*hugs mark tight*
*curls up and yawns*

Doikers 01-12-2010 04:31 PM

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Lindsay* My parents are going to scatter My Grandma's ashes where my Grandpa's were scattered all that time ago. Grandma had no specific wishes that were recorded.

*Hugs Heather*

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 04:43 PM

*HUgs everyone*

*Extra tight hugs for Helen, Crimson and Mark*

Today was pretty good again. Not as epic yesterday, but it was cool. There was one moment where I just randomly asked my friends in our free period 'guys, can I be a bitch?' Because I'm paranoid that I am a massive cow and they all just turned around and chorued "Yes!" All the the same time. I won't deny that that hurt. A lot. But trust me before you say anything, I am not the same person IRL as I am here. I'm the one that sits there all 'Couldn't care less, **** off or I will zap you with my ice maiden stare'. I'm friendly enough, but not exactly bursting with warmth or dying to become close to people. Anyway, minor moan over.

How's everyone else?

Doikers 01-12-2010 05:14 PM

*Hugs Lia* Speaking strictley from my perspective , I don't find you a bitch AT ALL . I like you tons :)

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 05:30 PM

Thanks Mark :) Although I can't blame them. I am one. IRL at any rate. Mainly so people will leave me alone.

You alright?

Doikers 01-12-2010 05:31 PM

I had a pretty VIVID half awake dream this morning about my legs bleeding and I could hear my Mum on the phone and I thought that she was going to come in and find me bleeding :S then Mum woke me . I don't usually have S.I. dreams hmmmmmmmm.....

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 05:45 PM

*Hugs* I've had those before Mark, they're not plesent. Although I did manage to have a light hearted dream with added humour last night. I dreamt that my sociology teacher's fiance (she's a woman) was the music teacher (she is also a woman) and I found this out when I walked in on them kissing. Only in the dream, they made a really cute couple, so now I am actually shipping them in real life...and I still haven't been able to shake the image. FML.

Louise 01-12-2010 05:48 PM

Hugs mark and lia

I am really sore today my leg hurts like anything

Doikers 01-12-2010 05:51 PM

*Hugs Lia* Heeee that sounds a neat dream

*Hugs Louise* What has happened to your legs? Lots of walking?

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 05:56 PM

*Hugs Louise* S'up?

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 06:33 PM

Oh my Rowling...my mum, I just don't know how to describe her. At dinner just now, I was eating in small bites like I normally do and she (again) started having a massive go at me, calling me a freak and suggesting I have psychological problems from the way I eat. Correct me if I'm wrong, my knowledge of psychology is not vast, but I am pretty sure psychologists are yet to find a mental illness which comes under the description of 'eats in small bites'. She was being really nasty about it, and my brother joined in, but my sister and I just couldn't stop laughing. She was being so ridiculous.

misskitty112 01-12-2010 06:40 PM

Trying to write a Sestina... then a news story.... before tomorrow.

*hugs ward*

Doikers 01-12-2010 07:24 PM

*Hugs Felicia* Good luck!!

*Hugs Lia* That does sound ridiculous yes :S "Oh My Rowling"<<Made me smile

misskitty112 01-12-2010 07:35 PM

My Sestina is done. It's called Time Moves Too Fast, and it's probably one of the most suicidal/depressing poems I've ever written.

On that note, can I say something that may sound bad? Somedays, I'm afraid to get better, because I'm afraid I'll lose my writing ability, since all of my writing comes out of these intense emotions; and writing is the career I want. *Sigh*

Doikers 01-12-2010 07:47 PM

*Hugs Felicia* Some days I'm afraid of getting better too , like , how on earth will I cope without my support network ? or benefits? Sorry that isn't the same as you but I just wanted to point out that I can empathise about being afraid to get better .

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 08:18 PM

I'm scared too. If I am happy again, what happens then?

Doikers 01-12-2010 08:47 PM

Who's about ?
I'm tired , still at my parents until I go back to my flat when my Dad goe's to work tomorrow morning.
I Have a one to one with Kat at12.30pm then group at 2pm and one of the people who developed the group is going to be there .
Sorry I'm rambling :S

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 08:51 PM

I'm here. How do you feel about the group and one on one?

Doikers 01-12-2010 08:58 PM

I get something out of it , it's helping me and I like Kat I do , she's lovely , I'm nervous that the inventor Dr will be there and I'm worried that I won't be able to get into my town from my parents village because of the weather, we are pretty rural here and it a 25 minute drive maybe 30-35 in the cold weather.

*Hugs Lia* How are you ?

misskitty112 01-12-2010 09:23 PM

It's snowing!
And it's frigid =(
I hate cold weather.

So, I decided to do my news story on self injury, so if you guys feel so inclined, could you answer the question: what do you regret the most about SI, if anything?
If ya don't want to answer, it's cool. I've got quite a few answers, so it's all good.

Doikers 01-12-2010 09:29 PM

*Hugs Felicia* I pm'd you an answer to you question , PM me back so I know you got my PM please :)

misskitty112 01-12-2010 09:41 PM

Thanks, Mark.
Now I gotta go find my stats from a credible source... fun fun.

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 10:13 PM

I shouldn't have watched that. I really shouldn't.
I feel...well, I don't really know.
Sick. I feel sick. My stomach hurts. It's tight, like someone's squeezing it from the inside and things are just running through my head and...I don't know. Evidently, no, I am not alright with it now.

misskitty112 01-12-2010 10:16 PM

*Hugs Lia* I'm around if you need to talk.

SoMuchMore 01-12-2010 10:38 PM

*hugs lia* you alright hun?

*hugs mark, felicia, crimson, helen, louise, ian, and everyone else that has posted lately*

Sorry I'm being so bad with individuals the past few days, i am an extreme form of busy... and i have to go argue with my professor tonight so im a tad overwhelmed with anxiety. O well, such is life.

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 10:39 PM

*Hugs Laura* Good luck with the argument.

*Hugs Felicia* Thanks :) But I don't wanna bother you when you're struggling and I might upset you.

I don't know. I'll be alright I suppose. My stomach's not so tight now, but I am shaking and it's taking me many attmepts to type things.

SoMuchMore 01-12-2010 10:42 PM

*cuddles lia* I'm sorry :-/ you can PM me if you want/need to talk. I'll be around on and off for about an hour or so..

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 10:54 PM

Thanks Laura, but it's alright. I'm slightly calmer now. :)

Cazki 01-12-2010 11:06 PM

*Hugs everyone* Its awful outside. I hate snow yet iv been out most of the day :laugh: im mad. I just hate staying in.

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 11:14 PM

Woo, school's shut tomorrow!

Hey Ian. How are you? *Hugs*

Cazki 01-12-2010 11:16 PM

Yeah im ok thanks :) how are you?

MammaMia 01-12-2010 11:27 PM

I feel really low woo :D *hugs everybody* It's been snowing on/off all day here. We didn't have our heavy snow storms as predicted last night.

Lia, Mark & Felicia, I can relate on worrying about getting better. It IS scary. It's not all plain sailing. I should know, I'm on that journey. Nobody's obviously okay all the time, no matter how much they seem it at times.

Mark, you'll never lose your support network. You may have less professional support, but you'll always have it. Plus you'll always have us and your family and your friend I'm sure :D

Felicia, getting better doesn't mean you'll losing your writing ability. If it's really good, as it sounds, then it'll still come to you, maybe intense emotions won't be where it comes from, or it still will but you won't need to feel them, if that makes sense? :S

Cazki 01-12-2010 11:42 PM

Hey Helen *hugs* im sorry that your low. Where abouts do you live Helen? I live in Kent and we have had quite a lot of snow.

MammaMia 01-12-2010 11:50 PM

I live near Birmingham :D *hugs Ian*

FlyingNy 01-12-2010 11:52 PM

I live in Kent too Ian :)

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