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nicole94 03-08-2010 07:30 PM

april-OMG i get an eye twitch! it does my head in!

MammaMia 03-08-2010 07:41 PM

*cuddles all*

April, eye twitching is usually your body's way of waking you up if a part of your body is falling asleep. It's ANNOYING AS HELL though =[ But it continues, maybe speak to your doctor???

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 07:51 PM

No part of my body's falling asleep though, and this is the second day it's been happening (off & on)... damn, it's just started again. :( I hate it, ****ing annoying, doing my head in as Nicole said!! :'( Feel awful about it too, am scared that it's TD even though it's unlikely... need to research it more. Ugh. Will probably text my NP about it if it's still around tomorrow... :-S

How're you doing now, Hels? *cuddles*

MammaMia 03-08-2010 07:55 PM

Yeah, you may not notice it falling asleep, but sometimes it tries to without you realising. Well that's what I've been told....but I also read this


It is believed that muscle spasms in the eyelid causes eye twitches. Because of this, it is believed that it is related to the nervous system. Most think that these muscle twitches can be related to emotional stress or physical eye strain. For example, staring at the computer all day can cause it to twitch. This type of eye twitch is not considered serious and is usually transitory.
I'm still really low, sore (my jaw locking hasn't helped) and exhausted. Still got suicide thoughts. Fun times.

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 08:06 PM

Thanks for the info, Hels. *cuddles* I'm sorry you're still not feeling great... anything I can do to help?? :(

I wonder if it is spending a lot of time in front of the comp. But the thing is, I've spent this much time in front of the PC before and never had this problem... argh... I don't know. It's really frustrating though... sorry to keep saying that, it's just that here's the only place that I can really vent about it. :( Jarrod just wonders if it's a side effect of going off of Tegretol (which I'm not supposed to be doing >_<)... and that's "end of story" with him. And I wonder if it's TD, because I'm stupid that way. :(

*glomps Nicole & Mark* :D

MammaMia 03-08-2010 08:13 PM

It could just suddenly appear. How long you been on your new med? I ask because I know from my best friend changing meds etc, that some side effects from changing meds can last upto two weeks and then go away.

If it's been around two weeks, I'd definitely speak to your doctor just incase it's a side effect that needs looking into or something?? *cuddles*

Nothing anyone can do. I just want to die to be honest. But at same time, I don't want to leave my best friend. Just want it all to **** off and take the past away with it. I can't deal with any of this :'(

Doikers 03-08-2010 08:16 PM

Sorry I'm being all quiet tonight , Numb Numb Numb .*sigh* I kinda tired but am forcing myself to stay up until a "reasonable" bedtime .
I'm triggered :( I don't even know why :S

MammaMia 03-08-2010 08:18 PM

Stay safe Mark x

Doikers 03-08-2010 08:20 PM

Thanks Helen , That means a lot :) you stay stay safe too now ya hear :) *Hugs*

MammaMia 03-08-2010 08:29 PM

I'm trying, I have to anyway, me and bestie promise each other every night (sometimes in the day too) to be 'good'. *hugs*

frenchhorn 03-08-2010 08:38 PM

*hugs all*

sorry its not more, I'm just so exhausted, been so sleepy all day

Doikers 03-08-2010 08:41 PM

Helen , It's good that you can make that promise with your bestie :)

*Hugs Oliver* *Hands over a pillow for you to rest on*

MammaMia 03-08-2010 08:43 PM

I don't have much choice :P But yeah.

*hugs Oliver too*

SoMuchMore 03-08-2010 08:53 PM

*hugs april* i'm sorry about your eye twitch.. That sounds pretty annoying. Hope that it goes away or that you figure out what is causing it at least.

*hugs nicole* Hope you are staying distracted.

*hugs helen* Stay strong hun. I'm glad that you have your bestie to make that promise too. Sorry that you are feeling so badly today.

*hugs mark* Its okay that you are quiet, we understand. Sorry that you are triggered. Try to fight any urges you have. I know you can do it.

*hugs oliver* you okay?

I love how everything when i am home is always my fault and that I always get put down by my younger sister. It was apparently my fault that she was late to her dentist appointment b/c I took a shower first and only left her 45 minutes to get ready when she is used to an hour and half... and if she tells me one more time that my computer is pathetic b/c it is so ugly (it was her computer first but she didn't like it so my dad gave it to me) I'm going to flip sh*t... its not like thats a hugely hurtful thing but the repetition is getting to me... I'm so sick of everything. I cannot handle being at home for another week and half. So f*ck it. Its all my damn fault. I take full responsibility for everything that could possibly go wrong.

MammaMia 03-08-2010 08:57 PM

*hugs Laura* It's not your fault sweetheart. None of that is. Try not to let it get to you?? Know it's easier said than done.

Doikers 03-08-2010 09:18 PM

*Hugs Laura* Like Laura said try not to let it get to you :S It's really not your fault .

MammaMia 03-08-2010 09:28 PM

My name's Laura too is it now Mark? :P

*spies Nicole & April too*

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 09:33 PM

Laura, sweetie, as Mark & Hels have said, none of that's your fault. Your little sister sounds like a bully... and a spoiled one at that (not liking a computer's looks so you get it?! wtf?!...). Sorry if that is out of turn, but couldn't help it, that's what it seems like to me. *gentle cuddles* And 45 minutes should be plenty of time to get ready - for anyone. I mean, sure, you could be USED to a longer time than that to get ready (but for the dentist's?! again, wtf??)... but 45 minutes is plenty.

Anyway. Sorry. I just hate seeing my friends being mistreated. :(

Am doing a little better. Eye twitch has only lasted 2 days, off and on, so I'm not going to worry about it for now. I guess. I'm really good at worrying though, hah. :-/

Jarrod's home now. Yey. :)

I got told to "%$*$ off" by someone on WoW so I reported them for spamming and now I'm scared that my account's gonna be suspended. :( I didn't say anything bad to them though or do anything against the rules, so I don't know why I'm worried. Guess just 'cause I'm good at it, as I said. Hah.

*hides in the warren and cries softly* :(

MammaMia 03-08-2010 09:38 PM

I'm sure your account won't be affected, hopefully their's will be :) *cuddles tight*

Doikers 03-08-2010 09:51 PM

Heh sorry Helen I didn't even spot that until you pointed to out to me :P

April Don't worry about that WoW person , I'm pretty sure your account will be fine .

It's (Finally) Bedtime, almost 10pm Goodnight Ward Mates :)

Oh and I got through the whole day without S.I. despite being triggered , little victory :)

nicole94 03-08-2010 10:08 PM

thats it. i made it one week self harm free :D

MammaMia 03-08-2010 10:21 PM

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY for Mark & Nicole - am proud of you both.
Night Mark xxx

nicole94 03-08-2010 10:33 PM

:) thanks helen. *hugs* and i've met a girl online and im very attracted to her right now..... lol

MammaMia 03-08-2010 10:40 PM

*hugs Nicole* Oh check you out, get to know her etc first though won't you? :)

nicole94 03-08-2010 11:03 PM

yeah i will, weve had a long chat, she knows about all my self harm and stuff, i know about all her alcohol issues, and we are getting on really well :D

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 11:26 PM

Oooh congrats, Nicole. XD That's awesome. :) Speaking of which, tomorrow will be a month SI free for me. :D And NO URGES!!! thank God. I really do think that this is the time to quit. The "right time." I really hope so. Sorry, Nicole, sweet, if it seemed like I took over your victory... one week is awesome, and often the first week is the toughest.

Also, congrats, Mark!!! XD That's awesome as well. <3 One day maybe can turn into two days if you fight really hard, and then perhaps before you know it you'll be at a week. The longer you go without it, the more the urges lessen (if that made sense, hah)... so keep fighting, love.

*cuddles all*

Oh & Hels, are you feeling any better now that it's a bit later??

I really hope that my account won't be suspended as I really didn't do anything wrong... my guildies have told me that it won't and I believe them, also hope that they're right, ahaha. And that you all are right too. I really didn't say anything nasty. The guy that say that is now on my ignore list on WoW, hah... :)

I'm really quite tired. Ugh. And it's only not yet 6:30pm. >_< Why is the day going by sooo slowly?? :P But I got through it without a nap today, which is a small victory too... so hopefully - maybe? - no dreams tonight. No nightmares. Now wouldn't that be ducky? :)

Am feeling a bit weird mentally. Sorry if I come across strangely at the moment, I think it's the withdrawal from the Tegretol that's making me feel weird. Guhhh. They - the meds - didn't come in the mail today, I'm assuming. :-/ Not goooood. My NP will not be happy with me!!! :-S

*hides in the warren*

nicole94 03-08-2010 11:31 PM

*hugs april* well done, a month is brilliant, and it didnt seem like you were stealing my victory at all, you deserverd it a lot more than me because you have gone longer and also i have just self harmed so i've sorta ruined it. :(

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 11:37 PM

Aw hon, that's not ruining it. It's just that you slipped up. :) You did make a week, which is awesome. *cuddles* Keep fighting, chickie. You can do it. :) What's up, that caused you to harm, if you don't mind me asking??

nicole94 03-08-2010 11:39 PM

*hugs* thanks, im not really sure to be honest, im just having a down day. anyways, im gonna go to bed now. will probs be on tomorrow. night. *hugs*

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 11:49 PM

G'night, sweetie. *tucks you up into your ward bed* :)

I'm getting tiiiired now. Off my hypomanic high from earlier that came from having company (and sugar, hah). Ugh.

Am dreading tomorrow without Tegretol as I've been taking the dosage at night... hopefully it goes okay. :-S

*cuddles all*

Scarletdreamer 03-08-2010 11:55 PM


Sorry, just had to get that out. :( I wish I knew how I felt. I am so confused right now. I don't know how I feel or what I want. While I haven't self injured in nearly a month or even had urges, that doesn't mean I'm completely better!!!

I really need to update my r/v. :(

Scarletdreamer 04-08-2010 12:01 AM

There. Updated r/v. :(

MammaMia 04-08-2010 12:16 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Glad about that Nicole. Goodnight xxx
April, try not to worry about your WoW account babe, sure it'll be fine. I could ask my bestie if her hubby had to report anyone????? Well done on one month :D

hidingme 04-08-2010 12:57 AM

way too much to catch up on from the past 4 days so forgive me for not having the patience to read it all.
just letting yall know im back from the hospital and the real version of this thread..ugh.. not too fun.

Scarletdreamer 04-08-2010 01:06 AM

Hiding, welcome back... sorry you had to spend time in the hospital... I remember those days pretty well. :( *hugs gently* How are you and Sadie and Sarah all doing now??

Is there anyone here that I can talk with that is:
1) female, 2) doesn't mind talking about girly/adulty stuff, and 3) has had a serious relationship? Oh, and is close to my age (22) or older. :) Sorry, I know that rules out some people, but I really need to talk to someone about something and I trust you guys here... ahaha probably tomorrow I will have forgotten what I wanted to talk about, but hey, at least the offer may be there. >_<

Am feeling in a mixed state and am very frustrated with certain things right now and just want to go to bed. :( Probably will very shortly as it's just past 8pm and Jarrod has work tomorrow. Maybe I will manage to get my lazy-arse slobbishness up and at 'em early tomorrow to do more cleaning. Doubt it though. Am suppose to play with a guildie tomorrow morning on our "baby" (level 58) death knights... heh. :) If she's on when I'm on that is. Anyway.

*cuddles all*

hidingme 04-08-2010 01:16 AM

thanks scarlet- we are doing ok.. sadie is not mad at me right now she is glad that is over with and hoping i wont wrry and doubt myself or them anymore. sarah is just happy to be home again and that the dr didnt make her disappear. and i am happy to be home..still having a bit of physical panic symptoms but am ok.

as for your question you are welcome to pm me if you need to talk..ok?

frenchhorn 04-08-2010 01:21 AM

*hugs April, Hiding, Hels, Mark and Nicole*

well done on a month April, proud of you, hope your WoW account is ok, I'm sure it will be. hope you can find someone here you can talk to abut whatever it is you need to, I'm sure someone will be willing.

Hiding, glad your back home and that your glad to be home, glad Sadie and Sarah are also ok.

misskitty112 04-08-2010 03:41 AM

April, PMed ya.
Hiding, I'm glad you're back home =)
Oliver, How are ya?
*hugs everyone*

hidingme 04-08-2010 03:54 AM

Oliver and miss Kitty~

thank you =) Instead of just getting one dx ( to explain sadie and sarah) I got two dxs to go along with my GAD.
1- major depression w/o psychosis
2- dissociative disorder -NOS

sounds fun huh?
I am glad to be home just really wish I didnt have to work tomorrow ugh,,

SoMuchMore 04-08-2010 05:03 AM

*hugs helen* i'm trying to ignore her. Its just hard when its repeated all day long. Thanks for replying though. I was so pissed off earlier. How are you doing now? Hope you are as ok as you can be.

*hugs mark* haha there are 2 of me now in the ward?! scary thought.. just kidding :-P Anyway, congrats on making it the whole day! That is great!

*hugs nicole* a week is great! even if you slipped up, its still a week... which is quite a victory! Hope you sleep well.

*hugs april* Yay for 1 month! Good job hun! I'm sure your WoW account will be okay. I read your r/v... waiting can be so hard sometimes :-/ Also, you can PM me if you want about whatever you wanted to talk about... I'm 21 so not 22 or older but I fit the other criteria okay, heh.

*hugs oliver and felicia* how are you?

*hugs hiding* glad to hear that you are back from the hospital. Hope that work isn't too bad tomorrow.

Sorry about my outburst earlier.... I was so frustrated. I hate dealing with stuff like that everyday. I know its stupid, but it gets to me. My sister isn't always so "shallow" or "selfish" but she is definitely has her moments. Now everyone is asleep so hopefully i get to relax some if my head will let me.

EDIT: New writing in r/v if anyone is interested (http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...d.php?t=106265)

shadowedsoul 04-08-2010 08:54 AM

Curls up in a ball, feel very numb just want to curl up and die. Don't think I can do This much longer.

Doikers 04-08-2010 10:17 AM

Congrats To Nicole!! 1 Week is really good , and don't worry about your slip-up you still went a whole week :)

Congrats April !! , A Whole month is awsome , and YEY for you for no urges :)

Doikers 04-08-2010 10:41 AM

OOh I have to go post a Movie I sold on ebay .
The Post office makes me anxious, it's often so crowded and is inside a super-market which is making it all the more crowded :S

EDIT:- I've been to the Post Office , not too crowded thankfully . :)

Has anyone ever read Depression for Dummies ? I was thinking about buying it but just wondered if it was worth it .

Doikers 04-08-2010 11:56 AM

Laura I read your R/V thread , Quite poetic but I'm not sure I understand but I quite like it . *Hugs*

*Hugs April* I read your R/V thread too , You are not any of those "lesses" you say about yourself .

Scarletdreamer 04-08-2010 12:33 PM

Wow Laura, you write really well!! <3 *cuddles* I love your phrases... and how you just string the words together into poetic phrases. It's fine that it's untitled, and I am so very glad that you are writing - again, for now, whatever - just glad that you're writing. :) And it's fine about the mini-rant a bit ago, you had to let it out somewhere and I'm glad that it was here, where there are a lot of loving, lovely, kind people. *extra cuddles*

Thanks for reading my r/v, those who did... I know I don't write too well, at least in there, because it's mostly just that - a ranting place. But maybe I will try being more poetic - Laura, you have inspired me :D - because I used to love writing like that. I'll see what I can do. :)

*cuddles Mark* Did you make it to the post office?? Hope so, without being too anxious... I can see why it would make you anxious though. Ugh. Inside a supermarket? that's kind of odd... :-/ How else are you doing today? did you sleep okay?

Felicia, thanks for the PM!! I'll try & get back to you shortly. :) And Laura, may PM you as well. Thanks for the offers, both of you. (Oh, and I do remember what I was going to talk about... lol. So that's good.) Just warning you though - it'll be about girly/adulty stuff so might be a little TMI... heh. >_< So you can back out if you want. :P

I'm really quite tired... ugh. Got up a little before 6am, and have NO PLANS for today. >_< Not very good. I have no idea what I'm going to do other than practice cello, play WoW, maybe do a bit of cleaning (vacuuming??), and reading/journaling/online time. Heh. Lazy-arse slob... :(

I'm actually hungry. Huh. Whaddya know about that... haven't been hungry in the morning for quite some time. :)

*cuddles all & apologizes to those I didn't respond to*

Doikers 04-08-2010 12:41 PM

I didn't get to sleep for a while April, but was asleep when I was sleeping . I realise that makes no sense heh.
Hmm today is in the balance , I'm meeting my housing support worker in 21 minutes , I thought it was at 3pm but checked my calender and it's at 1pm , good job I checked . I'm at a bit of a loose end today but I'm so glad this week isn't crammed with stressful appointments like last week seemed to be .

Scarletdreamer 04-08-2010 01:13 PM

I hope your housing support worker shows up, seems like your "support people" can be a bit flaky as to when they come or don't come, or if they let you know or not. >_< *cuddles* I'm also glad that your week isn't filled with stressful appts... very good to hear. Perhaps that will make it so you don't feel as though you have to SI as much? just a thought. :)

MammaMia 04-08-2010 01:18 PM


Scarletdreamer 04-08-2010 01:28 PM

*glomps Hels and Jess* :D

Sorry, Hels, you do exist. :P How're you doing this morning?? *cuddles*

Jess, how are you, hon?? *hugs*

I'm really exhausted. Thinking about updating my r/v in a bit. See if I can creatively write anything. :)

*cuddles all*

wolfos3d 04-08-2010 01:43 PM

I'm jealous Hels. I wish I didn't exist. *huggles*

*hugs April* I'm okay. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning. I finally have to part with my blades. Joy. :/

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