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Kahlia1981 21-05-2010 12:49 AM

Saying that we are "fine" when we're obviously not is a normal reaction. We all say we are fine when we aren't. It's the "keeping up appearances". And it's normal to get sick of it. Even when we know that we do it ourselves. Maybe we just need to cut ourselves and each other a little slack and make a pledge to be honest in the here-and-now. You know, in this safe place we say how we really are? I don't know, just a thought. I'm not trying to criticise anyone - really I'm not. But it's hard to support when someone can't or won't tell you how they really are doing. Any suggestions or ideas anyone?

MammaMia 21-05-2010 12:51 AM

I quite agree with you Kahlia, I think we are all guilty of doing this, particularly at the moment & it can get frustrating. I think we should all pledge to stop saying it, or at least in this thread :(

Scarletdreamer 21-05-2010 12:54 AM

i'm sorry... :(

i can't organize it. we don't have the money. i live in pennsylvania, she lives in indiana, and he and his family live in texas. they're probably paying for her flight tickets or whatever. i can't organize it. the u.s. is much too big. and we're too poor. especially when jarrod forgets to collect his unemployment. >:(

sorry. i'm bitching about things i shouldn't be bitching about. it shouldn't matter. none of this should matter.

i just updated r/v if anyone cares to read.

sorry. :(

MammaMia 21-05-2010 01:06 AM

If it's upsetting you or affecting you emotionally then you have every right to moan or whatever. It's still important to you..

Scarletdreamer 21-05-2010 01:35 AM

thanks hels... :(

*hides in a deep, deep hole* :'(

MammaMia 21-05-2010 01:43 AM

*cuddles tight*

I spy Kahlia too

taz35 21-05-2010 02:23 AM

On following Kahlia's note (and Helen's agreeance)... I don't know how I feel. I'm not okay. I'm not fine.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : Ranty & somewhat triggering SI/OD
I skipped out on a chance to go to the movies and hang out with one of my best friends because of my mood. I'm getting angry over the little things. I've had the house to myself for the past 3 hours and can't seem to escape my own mind. And I realized that my mom took away my blades, probably during the day while I was at work... couldn't find them when I needed them. The joys of having a car though, I can drive over to the hardware store tomorrow morning and get new ones. Leaving for camp tomorrow with my family, a whole 3 days with them. Yippee. I just want to curl up under my blankets and drift away to nothingness. It's taken all my willpower to not OD tonight and have them come home and find me dead. I don't know how to tell this to my counselor or my doctor without them thinking I'm crazy.

*hugs Kat, Hannah, Hels, Kahlia & April*
*leaves spare hugs on the table for anyone else who needs them*

MammaMia 21-05-2010 02:44 AM

*cuddles Taz lots & lots*

taz35 21-05-2010 04:31 AM

*hugs Hels* Thanks :(

risenfromperdition 21-05-2010 05:18 AM

*curls up*
i patheticcc

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 07:59 AM

*sits* any one here

wildly insane 21-05-2010 08:20 AM

*hugs Julie* how are you?
*hugs Heather* i think that's right? you're not pathetic at all, what's up?
*hugs Taz* sorry your feeling so **** right now *cuddles gently* well done on not ODing. I couldn't work out if yippee was sarcastic and you didn't want to go camping with your family or whether you were actually looking forward to it - sorry, I'm tending on the former but not 100%
*hugs Kahlia* I'll sign the pledge. So how are you?
*hugs April* I'm sorry hun, that sounds really tough. is there anyway you can save a little each month and make a decision to make the trip/invite them to stay next year (or when you have enough) and then you have that to look forward to as well? I know money may have other priorities, it's just a thought.

Soooo...I'm running uber late and I haven't made my lunch yet :P am in quite an anxious and panicky mood today, but I'll get through it.

Take care guys and leaving a bucket of hugs on the table for you to pick any of your choosing, there's plenty for everyone, that and some pancakes with blueberries (hope you like blueberries) and maple syrup mmmm... calorie free of course

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 08:30 AM

*Cuddles everyone*
Such a lot has happened since I slept - Sorry I haven't been around for you guys. It's horrible that you beautiful people are feeling so shitty.

I'm feeling a bit stressed myself and it's way too hot outside. I feel disgusting.

anyone can pm me if they feel like talking xx

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 08:41 AM

*curls up*

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 08:45 AM

*offer julie hugs*
Are you okay honey? xx

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 08:49 AM

*nods* i fine
how r u

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 08:50 AM

Hot and flustered and stressed and tired.
Really want to cut as well ... not good.

What are you up to sweetie?

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 08:57 AM

i be back soon

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 09:04 AM

i'm back..

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 09:05 AM

Welcome back!

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 09:05 AM

i'm just mucking around on the net

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 09:11 AM

*sits and worries*

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 09:33 AM

What are you worried about honey?

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 09:42 AM

i just checked my phone bill...
it's gong to be $70
like holy ****

Doikers 21-05-2010 10:54 AM

Wildly Insane ( Forgot your name , SO Sorry!!) I don't know if it's like a bromelia , I've never had my own garden space before ,this is my first summer living alone , I helped with my parents garden but this is a big deal for me as it's all my own :)
* Hugs Ward*

I know I already mentioned this but from late this afternoon until Monday I'm at my parents house so won't be online so much so sorry for not keeping up in advance :S

frenchhorn 21-05-2010 12:03 PM

there are new people in the ward who i havn't met yet *waves at all the new people* Hi I'm Oliver.

*offers cuddles to all*
Life is strange and one chance meeting and you have met someone great. Yeah I sort of met this person, properly in uni the other day, apparently they had liked me for ages and wanted to know we for ages and now we're sort of going out, its really bizarre to feel this way about someone, I miss them so much when they are not here, but its a good bizarre feeling.
although last night I had a mini break down involving body issues and I ended up cutting a lot. feel stupid about it now

Doikers 21-05-2010 12:23 PM

I'm sorry to hear to cut yourself last night Oliver *Hugs* I'm glad however that you have that good bizarre feeling of meeting someone new Happy for you :)

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 12:34 PM

-rubs eyes-

Doikers 21-05-2010 12:43 PM

*Waves to Owen* How are you Owen?

MammaMia 21-05-2010 12:45 PM

*offers hugs to all*

Doikers 21-05-2010 12:51 PM

Hey Helen:) * HUGS YA*

MammaMia 21-05-2010 12:52 PM

Hey Mark *cuddles you too lots*

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 12:52 PM

we tired should sleep soon have to be up in about 5 and 1/2 hours for work at 7 am

Doikers 21-05-2010 12:58 PM

Try and get some sleep Owen , sounds like you will need it ok?

xxjuliexx 21-05-2010 01:03 PM

-nods-:snoozle: :snoozle: :snoozle: :snoozle: :snoozle: :snoozle: :snoozle: :snoozle: :waving: :waving: :waving: :waving: :waving: :rose: :rose: :rose: night night

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 01:05 PM

Hi Helen and Mark *hugs*

Sorry btw I'm no good with names so I'll probably have to be reminded several times xx

Scarletdreamer 21-05-2010 01:07 PM

Heya Hels, Emma, Mark... *cuddles the lot of you* :)

I'm feeling a bit better tonight - Hels, thanks so much for the PM, it meant a lot to me. Although hard to believe some of the nice things you said in it about me... :(

Feel so effing lonely. As I said on Facebook, the only real support network I have is online, and I'm spending my summer doing an internship and seeing if I can get into res treatment of some sort... and if I can't, then I'll have to find a job in this **** economy of ours. :( Only have 2 friends IRL - including Jarrod - and then of course my parents, but I don't really count them as friends, as we don't really talk about deep issues.

I am just so damn sick of being lonely. :'(

*hides in a hole* :'(

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 01:15 PM

*cuddles April close*

Sounds like a really difficult place to be. I can relate so much to the feelings of loneliness.

*pulls you out of hole and offers you a hot chocolate with lot's of marshmellows and some nice hugs*

MammaMia 21-05-2010 01:15 PM

Hope you sleep well Owen :)

Hi again Emma :D *cuddles*

April *cuddles* You're welcome for PM, thought you might struggle to believe me but I meant every single word in it =) *cuddles lots*

Scarletdreamer 21-05-2010 01:18 PM

*hugs Emma back and thanks her for the chocolate & marshmallows - calorie-free, right? :)* How are you doing today? Hope okayish... I'm sorry you can relate, seems like a lot of people here can. I wish that they couldn't, in one sense, because that means they have been through similar. :( Loneliness sucks, to put it mildly.

Gonna be going to my parents' today to do laundry and so Jarrod can finish sighting in the .22 rifle we just bought. I might take my camera... we'll see. Dunno what I'd get pictures of, though... maybe just scenery. So yeah, it's gonna be like you, Mark, not so much communication this afternoon. Although I will be online to enter in those surveys. We'll see how that goes!! >_< Brain frying indeed, methinks. :(

*hides in her hole again after sending cuddles Oliver's direction*

Pnuemonia[Blue] 21-05-2010 01:26 PM

Calorie free of course!! I'm doing okay thank you honey just ridiculously hot! oh by the way Jocelyn sends her love and a big squishy cuddle! xx

one_step_closer 21-05-2010 04:23 PM

I don't know what to say. I feel so confused about everything, about life. I just wish that I could die without hurting my brother. If this is my illness talking then i'd like some time in hospital but no one will let me know because they say it doesn't help me.

taz35 21-05-2010 04:29 PM

*big hugs & cuddles for everyone*
Sorry, wanted to do individual replies but I haven't packed yet and my mom's yelling at me to hurry up =/ I'll reply to you all once I'm back on Sunday.
Take care of yourselves <3

*hangs head and drags bag behind her out the door*

Doikers 21-05-2010 04:29 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* Is there someone you can talk too about how you're feeling , a CPN or SW?
Sorry I have to go now because I'm being picked up , I'll try and get online as much as I can this weekend :)

*Spots Taz and Hugs*

PoisonedApple 21-05-2010 04:58 PM

Ok. I'm sorry I couldn't make it through all the pages of posts... I did get through the first couple though.
April~I play Runetotem more often than not usually but I've been playing silvermoon only the last week or so to level my new alt.
KitKat~ How are you now?
All~ My sister in law was wrong... not one kit. 3. I'll post pics when I get back from the front desk :D They're adorable but we've been hand feeding the littlest goat milk to try and make sure he doesn't die. Anyhow... Be back soon. :)

PoisonedApple 21-05-2010 05:49 PM

5 Attachment(s)
Ok, there's the runt of the litter (Houdini), Then the darker larger baby (Thor), The lighter baby (still arguing over her name, suggestions have been: Loki, Freya, Morrigna, Banana and Telephone), A pic of mom and babies, and dad (he wouldn't come out... he's mopey cuz I took mom and babies out of the bigger cage)

PoisonedApple 21-05-2010 05:57 PM

3 Attachment(s)
Here's Mama (Xochitl, and the dad's name is Sorley) being held (she's the biggest and she's about 2 yrs old), There's Dagda (our other young chinchilla he's about 8 months old and is small for his age because he was a runt too) and just for fun a pic of my daughter's rabbit (his name is Switchblade - made more sense when his sister Symphony was still alive, they were named for the band). The rabbit is about 8 yrs old, he's a rex.

SoMuchMore 21-05-2010 06:20 PM

crimson- awww so cute!

*hugs april* You are such a good person hun. I'm sorry that you are having such a rough time lately. How r u today?

*waves to owen* hope that you managed to sleep well and that julie is well rested for work.

*hugs taz* sorry if i just missed this (ive been trying to keep up reading but i'm starting to get ppl confused lol) but where r u packing for?

*hugs lindsay*

*hugs mark* hope that you have a good weekend at your parents place!

*hugs oliver* I'm sorry to hear that you cut a lot.. but thats great about the person you like! Those good bizarre feelings are wonderful.

*hugs helen, hannah, kat, and everyone else*

I'm back in my hometown now. Its always strange being back here, I feel distinctly different. Hopefully buying a new dress today for my sisters graduation next weekend. Ugh, i always like the idea of shopping for nice things, but i always look bad anyway.

Have a good day/evening everyone! I dont know if i'll be on until later tonight when most of you are sleeping!

PoisonedApple 21-05-2010 06:24 PM

Oh and I forgot to say... G MOVED OUT YESTERDAY!!! *does happy dance*

SoMuchMore 21-05-2010 06:28 PM

*hugs crimson* yay! Im glad that your happy about that!

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