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MammaMia 26-10-2009 07:14 PM

Yesterday was amazing :)

Went to my appointment at mh clinic. I trusted her far too much. Thought she was a good 'un. She's decided counselling will help me. Which is does. Til I get suicidial. They then write/phone my gp. Who sends me back there. Who sends me to counselling or whatever. Goes around and around and around in circles.

I have well and truely given up. Maybe I should go ahead with my suicide plans, after all, my two best friends are the only ones who are REALLY trying to ****ing helpp...

youonlyliveonce 26-10-2009 09:22 PM

people keep asking me wat help i want and i really dont know. i dont deserve the help that ppl give me i just dunno sorry i know its abit pointless just wanted to know if neone else feels this way or how to decide wat help i do want
goes bk to cornor and hides under the blanket

Sleepless123 26-10-2009 10:20 PM


im sorry i dont know what to suggest but i wanted you to know i read and your not alone.

i often feel like this especially right now.

i think sometimes it can be hard to know exactly what it is we need but i really hope you do find something which helps you.


Kahlia1981 26-10-2009 10:44 PM

*hugs everyone*

I'm just going to go and hide in the smoking shelter until I become part of the woodwork.

~KemicalRain~ 27-10-2009 01:58 AM

*runs in and cries* this wasnt how i wanted to come back but i just need to take care right now

Kahlia1981 27-10-2009 02:34 AM

*offers Darian hugs and tissues*

I feel drained right now. Today is my second day of the seroquel trial and it means that i'm only taking two zyprexa and the hallucinations are having a field day. Oh well. I'll survive ... I always do.

~KemicalRain~ 27-10-2009 02:51 AM

*offers Kahlia a warm drink* hey you need it more than me :) thanks for the hugs btw i need them :)

Kahlia1981 27-10-2009 03:01 AM

*takes drink from Damian* You are welcome by the way here's some more hugs to keep you going *hugs you*

SoMuchMore 27-10-2009 03:37 AM

*walks around aimlessly*

Can I have some hugs? i could really use them.... sorry.

Kahlia1981 27-10-2009 03:39 AM

*hugs Laura* Have as many hugs as you need hon.

~KemicalRain~ 27-10-2009 03:49 AM

thank you Kahlia, *hands out hugs for everyone* sorry folks i am so tired but i will be back *builds a fluffly den and crawls in to ssleep* night folks and sweet dreams :)

SoMuchMore 27-10-2009 04:54 AM

*hugs kahlia* thanks. hope you are alright
*hugs handswithoutshadows* sleep well!

i dont even have a reason to feel so horrible right now, I just do. i'm stupid

Kahlia1981 27-10-2009 10:44 AM

*hugs Damian and Laura*
*hugs everyone else*

Voices are bad .... The drug changeover is so slow. Have to make it through till Monday when I see the doc again. Getting hard not to believe the voices ....

Accidentally Abstract 27-10-2009 03:24 PM

^ Hang on in there hon. You can do it. *hugs*

Kahlia1981 27-10-2009 09:34 PM

*hugs Lucy* Thanks
*hugs everyone*

Jetforce 28-10-2009 12:29 PM

*pops in for a bit and leaves some banana cake for ppl*

Hope everyone is keeping well there!!! :-)

SoMuchMore 28-10-2009 04:57 PM

*hugs kahlia* hope the voices are quieter. Keep fighting!
*hugs jetforce and takes a piece of cake*
*hugs everyone else*

I slept so much last night! It was sooo nice. Although I'm officially running late now this morning.. O well, it's just class right? lol

MammaMia 28-10-2009 05:37 PM

*curls up and cries a little*

justmeuk 28-10-2009 05:47 PM

*makes a cup of tea for everyone then goes to hide in the corner*

hope everyone is doing ok x

Kahlia1981 28-10-2009 10:01 PM

*hugs everyone*

~*forever_broken*~ 29-10-2009 12:24 AM

*hugs Hellen and everyone else then heads to her corner and sits, staring vacantly into the room*

Pomegranate 29-10-2009 12:30 AM

Allie!!! How are you doing? *big hugs*

~*forever_broken*~ 29-10-2009 12:43 AM

Really rather shitty as you've since read, Emma. *massive hugs* But I've missed you :-)

Kahlia1981 29-10-2009 04:44 AM

*hugs everyone* - hmmm maybe I should wait before hugging everyone since I'm drenched in sweat.

Think we've finally got my subjects organised for next year. And I got a bunch of credits if they get approved.

Kahlia1981 29-10-2009 12:41 PM

*hugs everyone then disappears into a corner crying*

Pomegranate 29-10-2009 04:44 PM

*passes you a tissue Kahlia and sits with you*

Kahlia1981 29-10-2009 11:20 PM

*hugs Emma tightly and continues crying*

~*forever_broken*~ 30-10-2009 12:22 AM

*bursts in to tears*

I lost my job today... and I'm really not sure why :crying:

Kahlia1981 30-10-2009 04:47 AM

*hugs Alyssa and offers tissues*

SoMuchMore 30-10-2009 07:04 AM

*hugs kahlia*

I slipped up.. although i dont even know if u can call it a slip up, i mean, i've only been free like 10 days. I don't feel like that is long enough to call it just a slip up. I used to always be able to go like a month or 2...
anyway, Its 2 in the morning, I'm ranting... I wish i could sleep. I had such a good nights sleep the other day, i made myself jealous of myself heh. Good thing i dont have to get up too early i guess.

MammaMia 30-10-2009 08:21 AM

*gives everyone cuddles*

Kahlia1981 30-10-2009 11:11 AM

*cuddles everyone then goes back to her corner and cries*

Kahlia1981 30-10-2009 02:48 PM

I want to cut so bad.
I want to od so bad.
All because he says he doesn't think he could feel true love again and wants me to move on.
I feel like *****.
It's 12:48 in the morning and I can't sleep.
Can I just find somewhere to scream??

Accidentally Abstract 30-10-2009 11:21 PM



Strawberry.Bananas 31-10-2009 10:02 PM

*Finds spare corner in empty room*

SoMuchMore 31-10-2009 10:47 PM

*hugs everyone and offers some halloween cookies*

Kahlia1981 01-11-2009 02:50 AM

*hugs everyone*

Kahlia1981 01-11-2009 10:12 AM

Can I just go into some padded room somewhere and cry until I cry my heart out?

one_step_closer 01-11-2009 04:41 PM

*hugs Kahlia* What's wrong?

I've never been so mentally unwell in my life. I'm scared that i'll never get back to who I was. I wish I was in a real psych ward so that they could guide me in the right direction.

MammaMia 01-11-2009 06:26 PM

*curls up*

I wish I could cry and cry and cry my heart out :/ :(

SoMuchMore 01-11-2009 07:02 PM

*hugs kahlia, one_step_closer, and helen* Sorry you guys are having a such a hard time. Wish I could say something that would help. Stay safe.

Feeling very unmotivated and a little hung over. Halloween was pretty good though. Except for one or two incidents.. but o well.

one_step_closer 01-11-2009 07:48 PM

I hope you feel better soon Laura.

Kahlia1981 01-11-2009 09:35 PM

*hugs Lindsay back* I don't know what's wrong. For the last two weeks I've felt a deep, deep sadness and activities that used to bring joy, solace and comfort no longer do.

*hugs Helen* I hear you hun

*hugs everyone*

I leave in about an hour to talk to my GP about the Seroquel trial. Fun .... not. But it has to be done. *sigh* I'm not looking forward to the bike ride there and back .... but I suppose at least I'll be exercising. I'm going to do some (much needed) shopping while I'm out and get out my rent. So I have to go ... I just don't feel up to it. Oh well.

Kahlia1981 02-11-2009 12:34 AM

*hugs everyone*

My Seroquel has been upped but the pharmacy didn't have the 300mg tablets and have ordered them in for me. They won't arrive until tomorrow but I'm not riding all that way and trying to find a park for my bike just to pick up meds so I'll use 3 of my 100 mg tablets until wednesday night because I have to go over that way on wednesday anyway. It's a royal pain in the neck ... but meh.

Kahlia1981 03-11-2009 03:19 AM

*hugs everyone then finds a corner, curls up and starts crying*

one_step_closer 03-11-2009 08:55 PM

*holds Kahlia* I'm here for you, you are not alone. Please PM if you need to.

MammaMia 04-11-2009 12:20 AM

Cuddles everyone

Kahlia1981 04-11-2009 03:18 AM

*hugs everyone*

I have to leave shortly for my first session with a new psychologist. I'm terrified....

MammaMia 04-11-2009 03:22 AM

Good luck Kahlia

I'm in sooo much pain. Can't sleep as a result. Getting bit grumpy now lol :(

Kahlia1981 04-11-2009 03:23 AM

Thanks Helen, and sorry to hear you are in pain. *hugs you*

*hugs everyone*

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