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Kahlia1981 01-08-2009 04:09 AM

Nicole is settling in at the hospital. She wants to thank everyone for the support and hugs. They are looking at her medication and so forth. We don't know how long she'll be in hospital for.

*hugs all*

PapaBear 01-08-2009 07:52 AM

glad to hear she's settling in.

Still in hospital, on oxygen and a bunch of antibiotics and other medications trying to kill this infection. Luckily I have my own room (have to in order to avoid infecting me with something else) and am allowed to have my laptop. they just had to clean/disinfect it.

I know i should be focusing on getting better, but i can't stop worrying about my horses. i've never been away from them for more than a night. =(

hope everyone's doing okay, i love you <3

realflifefaerie 01-08-2009 10:47 AM

Sorry I haven't been around much, have been really really busy.

Hope everyone's ok.

Leaves hugs and shortbread biscuits. xxx

shadowedseraph 01-08-2009 05:23 PM

*hugs to all on the ward be they in the smoking area or the denial tent or just lurking* I feel a bit better today :) still shi**y but better how is everyone else doing? *steals a shortbread*

youonlyliveonce 01-08-2009 07:34 PM

hi from portugal struggling being over here with no support and having to spend so much time with mum etc. my scars ahve burnt over and people habve been noticing argh.
hugs to all cud do with sum myself and sum ways to cope im bk on tuesday. but been managing to access most days. byexx

MammaMia 01-08-2009 08:27 PM

Struggling. So much.
Need my best friends and neither are online.
One's struggling badly :( and the other is ill.
I'm so lost when I can't have either of them.
Got a badddddddddddd headache aswell.

zowie 01-08-2009 08:45 PM

*Hugs Helen*
I'm here if you need me sweetie. Just let me know if you want to talk soon or I'll sign off.

SoMuchMore 01-08-2009 09:58 PM

*hugs Cheryl* You can talk here if you need hugs or support.
*hugs MammaMia* I'm sorry your struggling and hope your headache goes away
*hugs Zowie*

Been SI-ing a lot the last few days... reached my limit of trying i guess.

Kahlia1981 01-08-2009 10:32 PM

*hugs all*

It's fricking freezing here today. And I'm the only one awake with the possible exception of the cat. Not a good start to the day.

zowie 02-08-2009 01:30 AM

It's 1:30am here. And I'm sure I'll be awake much longer...drinking, of course.

MammaMia 02-08-2009 03:50 AM

<hugs all>

Just wrote a really long post on another support forum I go on. Left out stuff. But it was good.

Still struggling but managing to cope tonight. Should go to sleep really. It is like 3.50am already and although I will get a lie in. I will have to get up at some point to get washed/dressed for lunch which we're having late afternoon (don't ask!) with my sister and my brother. (Well one of each..)

zowie 02-08-2009 04:16 AM

I think it's about time for me to go to bed xx

Kahlia1981 02-08-2009 10:27 AM

*leaves hugs for all*

I'm feeling tired but not feeling tired if that makes sense.

MammaMia 02-08-2009 12:52 PM

Makes perfect sense to me xxx

Kahlia1981 02-08-2009 12:58 PM

Thanks Helen

realflifefaerie 02-08-2009 08:10 PM

*leaves hugs for all* Im sorry everyone seems to be struggling.

*wanders off to the denial tent*

Damnation. 02-08-2009 08:42 PM

I wish people would stop congratulating me for coping so 'well' while my housemate's in hospital. Because it's all lies. I feel the urge to take another OD.

I'm starving myself today. I don't want to eat. Two big bottles of beer as well in the fridge, so tht + empty stomach = hopefully drunk. Woo

zowie 02-08-2009 08:51 PM

I have nothing to do tonight. And I want something to do.
My sister invited me to a party at her place, but because it's her flatmate throwing it I'm worried *he* will be there with his new girlfriend...

Detour. Derail 03-08-2009 01:49 AM

I'm backkkkkkk.
*crawls in and collapses and cries*

Pomegranate 03-08-2009 02:21 AM

Hi Alexx honey.

*leaves hugs for Kahlia and almost everyone who remembers her and cookies and hugs for everyone who doesn't*

Can't believe I am back here. I just need somebody to recognise I exist because right now...I am really hurting. I told the doctors at a+e on tuesday that I didn't need to stay in, that I would be fine. And I probably will be but it doesn't change the fact that right now, I have been released from day hospital to absolutely no support. I went IP for a month in Feb/March and then to day patient and now I am alone. No CPN/therapy for 'several weeks/late Autumn'. I structured the last week, or at least I tried to and it completely exhausted me. How am I supposed to recover enough to go back to uni in October with no support? Just sat here crying.

Damnation. 03-08-2009 05:18 AM


Anybodu ever get the urge to depress themselvew further when they're already feeling like ass? COs I have that atm x_O

zowie 03-08-2009 11:10 AM

*Hugs Alexx* Nice to see you again hun. What's up *hands you some tissues*

*Hugs Emma* It's unbelievable that they would leave you with no support when you're struggling. The services are really ****. Is there no way you could ask for a bit of support? Why isn't your CPN seeing you until late autumn?

*Hugs Dayna* Yeah, I get that. Usually when I'm drinking on my own I listen to depressing music even though originally I was feeling pretty good. Hope you managed to stay safe sweetie, and got some sleep.


I have a bad cough. Not as bad as ones I've had before, but my throat really hurts. I completely blame myself for chain smoking, I know I shouldn't but I just can't help it.
I also feel really gross as I haven't had a bath for quite a few days. If I can find the energy I'll have one this morning...

*Leaves hugs*
Back later

realflifefaerie 03-08-2009 11:23 AM

*leaves hugs for all*

I'm really struggling right now and am at a loss of where to turn. If I have more time later I'll do individual replies.

Kahlia1981 03-08-2009 01:03 PM

*hugs all with especially big hugs for Emma*

I got my cast off today and got given a new sling because the doctor saw the holes in the last one. Tomorrow I have orthopaedic clinic for my shoulder. And Friday I have to go to physio for my hand. I'm back to touch typing again although a little slower as my hand is getting used to not being in the cast.

shadowedseraph 03-08-2009 02:32 PM

*hugs Emma* thats unbelivable, is there no way you can get support sooner?

*hugs to everyone else on the ward in the denial tent or smoking shelter*

i feel cr*p which is a step up lol when does this all stop and normal appear? *cries*

zowie 03-08-2009 03:19 PM

I feel really ill :(

Detour. Derail 03-08-2009 03:21 PM

Heyyyy guys.
It's just been so incrediblly **** right now.
I lost my job...and my boyfriend and had a massive row with my family and nearly got kicked out and...AND....got put on anti-depressants again....with in the space of 2 weeks. Boyfriend and job on the same day :|
It annoys me how you think you find someone really nice and he's like "aww...this'll last...you mean the world to me" and he lets you dream all the things that depression/paranoia says you'll never have....and then....one day you get home and he's like "im breaking up with you" with a completely lame reason...and then a week later he's with someone else.

I just dont understand and its making me feel like I'm so worthless. I lie awake at night tossing and turning and crying myself to sleep. I feel like I've got the weight of the world on my shoulders...and right now...I feel fine....but I know its because Im on anti-depressants and inside I'm NOT fine. Stupid stupid life.
I've not eaten properly for days. I've not slept properly for days. Why are people so cruel?

zowie 03-08-2009 03:35 PM

*Hugs Alexx*
I've gone through a similar thing. I was with someone for almost three years, and then out of the blue he told me he wanted to go on a break because I'd put on weight and needed to sort my head out. He promised we wouldn't see other people and that it wouldn't only last the summer. It's been a year and he's got a girlfriend.
People can be so cruel, and they can really **** with your head and your heart. But the important thing is to remind yourself that they aren't good enough for you. If he's got no problem treating you that way, you're so so much better off without him. Honestly.

shadowedseraph 03-08-2009 03:40 PM

*hugs Alexx* If he can be like that then i agree with zowie, he's not worth it. Which doesnt help much at the moment i know but keep trying to say it to yourself.

*hugs zowie* men can be wan*ers

Detour. Derail 03-08-2009 03:41 PM

Stupid boy.
I really want to hate him....but I like him so much :(

shadowedseraph 03-08-2009 03:49 PM

*cuddles Alexx* i know that feeling rather well and it hurts *cuddles more*

realflifefaerie 03-08-2009 04:50 PM

*hugs Kahlia* yay for getting the cast off. Hope physio helps things move a bit quicker.

*hugs shadowed seraph tightly*

*hugs zowie* feeling ill's not fun, maybe have a nap?

*hugs VoiceofReason* I agree with the others, you're better off without him.

I really really cant do this. Slopes back off to the denial tent for a little while longer

youonlyliveonce 03-08-2009 04:52 PM

really struggling but home 2morrow but they r expecting this holiday to have helped. argh then my ot leaves me and im bk to square one. brought more pillls out here i know i shudnt of but oh well. dont even know what is happening with my cmht when i get bk cus she had swine flu before i came away and she plans to dischrage me on weds so i dont know wats happening. gd thing is got a gd tan lol but my mood is pretty shitty still and im just snapping at the family and making life difficult for them i hate being like this. sobs cnt do this

SoMuchMore 03-08-2009 05:51 PM

Sorry to hear everyone is struggling right now.

*big hugs for all*

zowie 03-08-2009 06:36 PM

Ugh. Maybe I have swine flu, I'm going to have a look on the nhs website at the symptoms...

Damnation. 03-08-2009 07:48 PM

Happy birthday, Jade. I miss you.

On an unrelated note: UGHHH

zowie 03-08-2009 08:51 PM

I need a drink. I shouldn't, since I'm ill, but I need something to cheer me up. xxx

Detour. Derail 03-08-2009 09:42 PM

hmmmmm. I dunno what to do with myself.
*stupid dance*
This isnt even real happiness. This is happiness that is small and white and sugar coated...washed down with water or wine.
grrr. *shakes fist*
I wish I could have a cuddle.
I really need to stop looking at his profile...everytime I see "in a relationship with" i feel alittle bit more dead inside.
He told her he loved her after two days....he wrote on his wall that she's "a keeper". that should be me!!
I dont want to be alone.
Everything is falling apart.

Detour. Derail 03-08-2009 10:54 PM

*roams around* no one is here :'(
*bakes a million batches of cookies*

Kahlia1981 04-08-2009 01:14 AM

*leaves everyone hugs*

I woke with my wrist in pain this morning and have done my exercises as recommended by the physio. I just hope that the pain stops. I go to see the orthopaedic surgeon in a couple of hours and am hoping that goes well.

Wish me luck!!

zowie 04-08-2009 01:18 AM

Why am I drinking again? Oh yeah, because I'm stupid.

Kahlia1981 04-08-2009 01:20 AM

*hugs Arwen* ~ You aren't stupid ... it's a coping mechanism. Or at least it seems that way from reading your previous posts so please forgive me if I am wrong.

zowie 04-08-2009 01:29 AM

I think you're right Kahlia :( I love drinking, but I love drinking with people. These days I just seem to be drinking on my own until stupid o clock. xx

Kahlia1981 04-08-2009 04:47 AM

*hugs Arwen*

I had my orthopaedic check up and I have permission to move my shoulder a little bit but to stop at the point of pain. No physio yet. My thumb and wrist are killing me at the moment but I've just taken some pain meds to try and get rid of that.

*leaves hugs for all*

MammaMia 04-08-2009 09:22 AM

*hugs everyone loads and loads*

Kahlia1981 04-08-2009 10:41 AM

*hugs Helen*

My wrist is still killing me. But on the bright side the bone is healing nicely.

*leaves hugs and cuddles for all*

MammaMia 04-08-2009 05:13 PM

Ouch, sounds painful honey :(

Have slept most of today lol. Feeling ill again, boo :( Feeling low on top of that. Oh well. Trying to ignore the urges to do a thing or two (Y)

*still hiding in the denial tent, rocking back and forth*

zowie 04-08-2009 05:26 PM

I'm really ill.
I hate it.

Detour. Derail 05-08-2009 01:08 AM

I slept til 2pm today :|
Then I got up....went to get some money for my mum...cried...and went back to bed.
I'm sick of feeling worthless. Im sick of not being able to believe people who say I'm kinda pretty. I'm not pretty. At all. GRRR
*hides in denial tent*

SoMuchMore 05-08-2009 01:11 AM

*hugs zowie* feel better
*hugs voice of reason* You are not worthless!

o man.... I suck.
*brushes by everything else going on and goes straight to the denial tent*

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