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Kahlia1981 19-12-2008 03:37 AM

Dayna : I think I just like making myself shiver lol. Nice to meet you by the way. *waves*

Snuffles 19-12-2008 03:41 AM

Oh Emma, ditto to what Kahlia said! We aint gonna kick you out coz you haven't been supporting ;) Take care of yourself ok!

Kahlia- at the moment Bachelor of Arts (Major-sociology/writing :P), I'm tossing up whether to continue with it (have only done one semester) or transfer to creative writing at QUT for 2010.. there's pros and cons for both grrrrr lol... oh well.. will work it out (Y) And I'm thinking we should go on a random road trip to the snow.. would LOVE to see it again!

Damnation. 19-12-2008 03:48 AM

Kahlia: xD Each to their own, lmao. And nice to meet you too

Kahlia1981 19-12-2008 03:59 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Snuffles (Post 1295439)
Kahlia- at the moment Bachelor of Arts (Major-sociology/writing :P), I'm tossing up whether to continue with it (have only done one semester) or transfer to creative writing at QUT for 2010.. there's pros and cons for both grrrrr lol... oh well.. will work it out (Y) And I'm thinking we should go on a random road trip to the snow.. would LOVE to see it again!

I know what you mean ... I'm currently studying IT at JCU (pronunciation: Jay See Spew [lol]) and have reached second year - although I've been there since 2006 - but am studying part-time. The degree up here is not accredited as far as I know and really not worth doing. ... anyway there are/were pros and cons for me moving to QUT vs staying at JCU. And I'd love a random road trip to see the snow so count me in lol.

Quote:

Originally Posted by .Poisonous.Cyanide. (Post 1295446)
Kahlia: xD Each to their own, lmao. And nice to meet you too

Yep Dayna, each to their own lol.

MammaMia 19-12-2008 04:31 AM

Guess who went to sleep before 10pm?
Guess who woke up at 3am?
Guess who's sill awake at 4.30am?
ME

GOD.
It's like everytime I TRY to improve my sleep...
Someone tries stop me.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH

*attempts sleep*

Kahlia1981 19-12-2008 04:34 AM

Helen : That's no good. I continuously have sleep problems, so I can understand where you are coming from. I hope the morning improves for you. *leaves you cuddles*

*hugs everyone*

Damnation. 19-12-2008 04:43 AM

D: *Hugs Hells*

Snuffles 19-12-2008 04:52 AM

*cuddles Helen* Hope you can get back to sleep!

Seraphsigh 19-12-2008 05:02 AM

*sings lullabies to Helen*
Okay, actually if you heard me sing, it would probably not be a very soothing experience...but this is virtual.
Hope everyone can get some good sleep. What are all you England-ers doing awake at such an hour?

Damnation. 19-12-2008 05:33 AM

Monarkh: My bedtime's 7am =D

MammaMia 19-12-2008 08:48 AM

Thanks guys.
Didn't get back to sleep for ages.
Then when I did, it was not-so-nice dreams.
Fun.
=[

zowie 19-12-2008 10:14 AM

I got kicked out of college.

Detour. Derail 19-12-2008 10:58 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ravynsoul (Post 1294132)
*hugs everyone*

How is everyone today? I must say I am loving my new hair...definitely has picked me up! :) Dayna and Katie - would love warm weather... a winter storm is heading my way tonite/tomorrow with like 15-20 cms of snow... *shivers in anticipation*

Zowie - how did your appointment go? *Fingers still crossed for good luck*
Katie - How's your new game? Hope you're enjoying it!
Helen - I hear you with sleeping lots and still having no energy... if you can find out the secret to getting more energy, please share!
Mary Anne - glad to hear you're starting to feel better, sucks though about the rain! :(
VoiceofReason - lots of hugs... why are you in the denial tent, hun?

*lots of hugs to everyone*
I'll check in later... after work.. just on lunch now..

take care all...

Quote:

Originally Posted by MammaMia (Post 1294727)
*joins Alexx in denial tent*

I'm off to bed people :P It's been a very busy day and been up for nearly 12 hours now :O:P

Quote:

Originally Posted by Pomegranate (Post 1295086)
*helps resurrect the denial tent before crawling back inside and hiding under a pile of duvets* Good to see you around Alexx and welcome to all the new people in psych ward x

*peeps put*
*decides its still too cold and dark so crawls back in*
The denial tent is a great place...you can come in and pretend everything is ok and its just a nice safe place to be.
Halloo Hells and Emma ^_^
I hasnt seen you for a whiles...I missed youuuuu!!

I sent my UCAS off today (FINALLY!!)
The happiness is wearing off now though :/

Yuck

Detour. Derail 19-12-2008 10:59 AM

Zowie how come you got kicked out hun?:( *hugs*

Snuffles 19-12-2008 11:13 AM

Oh zowie *hugs* what can you do now? I'm sorry =(

I feel like ****.. have a headache and just generally feel like crap.. sorry guys =( Was so triggered this afternoon grrrr. Am going to bed in a min. Take care, will talk in the morning *cuddles all*

Kahlia1981 19-12-2008 11:31 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1295722)
I got kicked out of college.

Zowie I'm sorry. That's terrible news. :sad: Is there anything you can do ?? That really sucks.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Snuffles (Post 1295777)
I feel like ****.. have a headache and just generally feel like crap.. sorry guys =( Was so triggered this afternoon grrrr. Am going to bed in a min. Take care, will talk in the morning *cuddles all*

Katie I hope you haven't gotten a bug like the one that I and my housemates have been going through. It's nasty. *offers safe hugs*

We just got back from taking our landladies dog for a walk. We found out that if I jog a little he will try and keep up with me. Then we wait a little while for Nicole (mouse in darkness) to catch up and she would give him attention, "which made him excited so he would run", and then off we would go again. For me it was quite a nice walk/jog but I have a feeling that we tuckered Rusty (the dog) out.

It's 21:30 here and I'm not yet tired, but with the late evenings I've been having, the early mornings and the weird sleep cycle that I'm presently developing it isn't very surprising.

ravynsoul 19-12-2008 11:49 AM

Well you're all welcome here to come see the snow :)

Zowie *hugs* sorry to hear about uni :(

Katie I hope you feel better soon and Helen I hope you can get some more rest; disrupted sleep sucks!

Alexx, the denial tent sounds great... *crawls in*

ravynsoul 19-12-2008 11:51 AM

*pops head out*
Kahlia, glad to hear you had a great walk/jog --hope you are able to sleep well... maybe ask D'arcy [Monarkh] to sing you lullabies :)

*leaves hugs for all and crawls back in tent*

Mary Anne 19-12-2008 01:19 PM

Sorry to hear that Zowie :(

The he devil visited last night so I had a rubbish night and had a good cry, then slept in this morning to missed my morning coffee :(

*crawls under duvet to cry some more*

zowie 19-12-2008 01:48 PM

They just said I didn't hand in enough work to prove that I can pass the course.
I guess now I'm gonna go on jobseekers allowence until I find a job, I'm also applying to DLA which I'm hoping I'll get.
Then in September I'll probably take an access course in humanities.

On a lighter note: I'm one month free today!

xxx

Pomegranate 19-12-2008 05:55 PM

*hugs Zowie* (Arwen?) Congrats on being a month free :D That is amazing! I'm sorry you got kicked out of college though. I have heard good things about the access courses and am glad you aren't giving up on your uni plans.

*passes Marie-Anne a tissue* Are you alright under there? Is the crying helping?

*cuddles Snuffles* (Katy?) I hope you have managed to get some sleep and feel a bit better when you wake up.

*helps Alexx wipe the dust off all the denial tent's furnishings* Glad you have applied to uni hun. Where and for what courses? (if you dont mind me asking) I hope you manage to cling onto the happiness for a bit longer x

P.C (Dayna?) - How are you doing today? Hope you managed to sleep ok.

How are you doing Kahlia? Sounds like you had fun walking the dog! Hope you managed to get some sleep x

Hells- very proud of you for trying to sort out your sleep patterns hun. Don't let this set you back. Maybe going to bed before 10pm was a bit ambitious and you could try just going to bed before 11 or 11.30 or something? Hope you are ok over there x

ravynsoul- how are you? you support so much, how are YOU doing?

*hugs and cookies for anyone I have missed*

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Thanks for all your kind words last night. I have no idea why I picked a row with them, I think it just hit a nerve that they were talking about being ashamed for and picking on this girl because she was 'weird' and dressed differently. It just annoyed me. Alcohol probably didnt help situation either.

I had this idea, plan that I needed to SI in a certain way which would have been quite bad and got me in quite a lot of trouble with a+e but went to bed before I carried it out. Guess this should be good but it doesn't feel like it. I am currently still sat in bed, in the dark because I can't find the energy or drive to shower or get dressed or buy food or any one of the dozens of things I have to do :-(

Damnation. 19-12-2008 07:33 PM

Zowie: x_o I'm sorry to hear that, but congratulations on your one month free!

Emma: (You dun mind if I call you so, do you? ._.) I think I'm actually okay today, thanks. Slept okay, had a bit of a wobbly mood-swingy moment before I got online, but now I'm here, I'm actually okay. Fingers crossed it lasts!

How's everyone else doing?

Pomegranate 19-12-2008 08:21 PM

Course I don't mind :) Glad you are doing ok. *kicks wobbly mood-swing for you* Hope it lasts for you too. You sure you are ok? Your 'I am currently' thing says unsafe? You can tell me to mind my own business if you like, was just wondering x

Kahlia1981 19-12-2008 09:01 PM

Zowie: congratulations on your one month free *throws a party for you*

Mary Anne: I hope the tears help you. *offers safe hugs*

Emma: Yeah I did enjoy walking/jogging with the dog. Normally I don't have anyone that wants to keep up with me when I start jogging so it was kind of fun.

I did manage some sleep last night. But I had problems both at the start and the end of the night with my coughing. You think I'd stop smoking like a chimney while I'm sick wouldn't you ??

I partly want to try and get back to sleep, but I don't think it's going to work. Oh well.

~*forever_broken*~ 19-12-2008 09:07 PM

*hugs her ATP drinking buddy*
Emma you are SO not an attention whore... sometimes you need to take care of yourself and let others support YOU and there is nothing wrong with that.

*prepares a tea tray with tea, coffee, cocoa, cookies, cakes, chocolate, and anything else one might want and leaves it in the middle of the room, then returns to her corner and stares blankly out into the snow*

~*forever_broken*~ 19-12-2008 09:08 PM

Oh and Zowie, yay for one month free!! *massive hugs and extra chocolate for you*

MammaMia 19-12-2008 09:57 PM

Zowie, congratulations on being one month free :D I know how hard it is to get there, so well done :D I'm also sorry you got thrown out of college, but I really hope you don't give up on your uni plans, they'll always be there ready for when you are :)

Mary-Anne, how you doing there sweet? How's the flu, is it better?

Katie, I hope you're feeling better babes. I'm sorry I've not been online much today & last night (damm time differences!)

*cuddles Alexx and helps also to wipe off the dust from the denial tent* I think I'm decorating it so people can cleberate Christmas, but those who don't like it, can have their own space :-)Congratulations on finishing your application to UCAS woop! Time will fly by, trust me!!!!

Dayna, hope you're okay sweetie.....

Kahlia, how are you pet?

Emma, thank you for being very proud of me for trying to sort out my sleeping patterns. I'm hoping last night won't set me back. But Wednesday night's sleep was mainly good with innteruptions but they were smaller and it didn't set me back last night. I only went to bed so early last night because I was falling asleep by 9.15pm.. So tonight, I'm aiming to be attempting sleep by 12am, just to make it easier really. Then I really have to stick it. Then I've got to try carry on waking early too, which is hard still. I'm glad you went to bed last night when you did. Hope you got some okay sleep.

Hope you're doing okay ravynsoul :)

*hugs and cookies for everyone*

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Today's been an interesting day really. Was woken up at 8am, eventually got out of bed before 9am. Took a while though. Me & Mum went shopping for a few things and went and got our Christmas tree. Was stuipdly amusing because we kep going around and around and around. Yet last year, because of neither of us wanting to really get a tree, we'd chosen the second tree we saw, well sorta :laugh: Whereas today we took longer. But it's all good. So popped into a couple shops before going home properly, for lunch and stuffs, even got some icecream for MEEEE fro Christmas haha!!! As I don't like any other the other frozen puddings my mum has gotten for her, and two of my sisters.

We had lunch, and then I went upstairs and had a little nap :whistling: whilst Mum sorted out the tree and stuffs. Then had an early dinner, and went over to my cousins' and saw baby Grace again. She's just so adorable. We were there for like an hour & a half. Then we eventually left and went to shop & walked Charlie and here I am writing this very long post :laugh:

Damnation. 19-12-2008 10:07 PM

Emma and Hells: Yeah, I am doing okay, thanks. I've got my mood set as 'unsafe' due to the ole mood swings. Had some rather dark lows, which comes with some really strong feelings of triggered-ness and so as a result, my SI's escalated a lot these past couple of weeks. Today, however, seems to be a break from that, but it really doesn't take much for my mood to lurch downhill, hence why I haven't changed it from 'unsafe'.

O_o Does that make sense?

Snuffles 19-12-2008 11:36 PM

Thanks guys, am feeling a bit better still have headache grrr.

Kahlia, sounded like a fun walk/jog lol! Hope your feeling better. I don't think it's a bug. Just a general headache and yeah =(

Ravyn- how are you going hun?

Mary anne- hope your feeling better, hope you had a good cry *cuddles*

Zowie- hope it will work out for you though.. 'grats on getting to one month :D

Emma- glad you went to bed, hope your feeling better, it was good you didn't carry it out *snuggles*

Dayna- makes sense =) Hope your doing ok.. and keeping safe *cuddles*

~*forever_lost*~- thank you for the tray.. yum! nom nom nom! how are you doing?

Hey helen! it's ok.. damn time differences grrr it is so annoying =( sounds like a good day =)

Damnation. 19-12-2008 11:41 PM

*Cuddles Snuffles (Katie, amirite?) back and offers painkillers* Mmm. As luck would have it, the mood's dropped again now, and I'm a little triggered. Nothing too serious though. I'm managing

Snuffles 19-12-2008 11:51 PM

It is katie =) Thanks! *cuddles* Take care of yourself ok. We're here if you need us =)

Damnation. 20-12-2008 12:06 AM

Yeah, I'm trying. *Cuddles back* It's tolerable atm. And thanks ^__^

Snuffles 20-12-2008 12:09 AM

No worries =) *snuggles*

Detour. Derail 20-12-2008 12:56 AM

Zowie- WELL DONE!!! one month free is fantastic ^_^
Emma- Im taking psychology and sociology joint honours and my number one choice is Sheffield Hallam....I just hope I get in....


I feel pretty low....christmas is getting nearer....Im not looking forward to it...

Detour. Derail 20-12-2008 12:56 AM

ALLY!!!!!!!!!!
*pounce on you*
I MISSED YOU!!!!!
*hugggs*

Damnation. 20-12-2008 01:21 AM

Voice: x_x I know what you mean *hugs*. Christmas is going to feel like just another day to me, I think

Kahlia1981 20-12-2008 01:36 AM

Alex & Dayna : Very much with you on the christmas thing. I absolutely hate that day of the year in the sense that my mood always drops around about then. Not really a surprise. I had a good friend die on xmas day and I will always carry that with me.

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Moodwise I'm all over the place at the moment. I partly feel like I want to go for a run in the heat and see if I can land myself in hospital from the dehydration .... I guess that would count as self injury though, and I'm sitting here at 116 days SI free. I don't know .... I'm a little confused about what I want to do and how things are currently going.

Damnation. 20-12-2008 01:46 AM

Normally, I like Christmas, but this year, my housemate and me are being evicted (actually, we should've left this house already, but we has no where else to go =B), and the financial situation is so bleak, we've been forbidden to buy presents.

And Kahlia, yeah, I think that would count as self harm D: please try and stay safe *hugs tightly*

Pomegranate 20-12-2008 02:42 AM

Sorry to here you are being evicted Danya. I hope you get something sorted soon.

Kahlia- I think that would be a form of self harm. Please stay safe. I know it is hard but deep down you know doing that will not help you.

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drinking.....need to cut but not sure have energy. Need to drink more but I have no more alcohol. So ****ing pathetic.

Pomegranate 20-12-2008 03:04 AM

Found more alcohol. This is so pathetic. Supposed to be going home tomorrow to work on Sunday but not sure will be able to. I need to prove I am worth something. Pathetic, nothing some stitches wont fix... a dozen max. I cant even SI right....worthless :crying: :crying: :crying:

Kahlia1981 20-12-2008 06:01 AM

Emma : You aren't worthless hun. I'd like to offer you some hugs and hopes that you can become and stay safe *offers hugs*

Dayna : I'm so sorry that you're getting evicted. :sad:
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I didn't do the run that I wanted to. The urge to do so hasn't left but the motivation has partly diminished ... it did get worse again a little while ago ... I think that was because I couldn't get onto RYL.:crying:

I'm really triggered at the moment and I don't know why. There are just too many factors involved. I am going to have to jump through hoops to get my deferral approved for QUT ... I can just see that now. I'm going to have to get a letter from my pdoc stating that I'm not stable enough to make the move to BrisVegas at this point and that I will be stable enough by next year et cetera.

I hate jumping through hoops. :sad:

Damnation. 20-12-2008 06:11 AM

Thanks. We still have some time left before we have to go, 'cause we're arsing the landlord about (two can play at that game =D), so things should get sorted out.

And Emma, yer not pathetic, or worthless omg! x_o I'm really bad at offering advice and that, so I dun really know what else to say other than just that I'm afraid *hugs also*

Kahlia: Yeah, I know what you mean, I've been like that too. Really hope that things ease up soon D: *hugs you too*

Pomegranate 20-12-2008 06:12 AM

Kahlia: I understand how much jumping through hoops sucks hun. But hopefully the end result will be worth it. Please try and ignore those urges x

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I have put down the blade, but not before I have three wounds which need stitching, although one is probably steri stripable. I am not even that upset about it. I want to do more damage but I know it won't help in the long run. *sighs* calmer now. I just, I don't know. I want to cry or even feel relieved, but SI is only barely taking off the edge. I don't know what to do :crying: . Not going to cut anymore though. I dont care if not doing so makes me seem weak.

Damnation. 20-12-2008 06:24 AM

*Hugs Emma again* You're not weak, and well done for putting the tool down. But if the wounds you did inflict are in need of steri strips or stitches, maybe you should head on down to A&E or something...?

Pomegranate 20-12-2008 06:25 AM

I will do, I need to wait a few hours before I can drive though. Will go within the time limit though. Thanks for caring x

How are you doing Danya?

Damnation. 20-12-2008 06:28 AM

No problem <3.

I'm alright for the most part, although I am still getting triggered out of the blue again, which is damned annoying, to say the least

Pomegranate 20-12-2008 06:29 AM

I wish I could make the bad feelings go away. I hope you start to feel safe soon. Could you try and sleep?

Damnation. 20-12-2008 06:36 AM

Yeah, I can appreciate that D:

And as for sleep, my bedtime's 7am. If I go to bed any earlier than that, I end up spending hours staring at the ceiling, and sleeping aids don't really help much

Pomegranate 20-12-2008 06:37 AM

sounds harsh :S Hope you get some decent sleep when you do go to bed then :P. TC x

Jetforce 20-12-2008 06:41 AM

*cuddles emma*

Hope ur ok and feeling a bit better after ur sleep...go see a a&e or somebody to get urself stiched up plz :-) or get some steri-strips if it isn't too bad. tc there xxx


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