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blondiebear 12-08-2008 02:38 PM

Keep breathing Chloe.
*hugs helen*
*hugs ally*

1ofmany 12-08-2008 03:02 PM

Hey everyone. Stay strong and hang in there.
*leaves love for all*

~*forever_broken*~ 12-08-2008 03:45 PM

*cuddles Chloe* hang in there sweetie, breath, I'll breath with you (God only knows I need to be doing it too)*snuggles*

zowie 12-08-2008 04:09 PM

Cut loads last night. Feeling okay today, have a meds review on Friday.

blondiebear 12-08-2008 06:17 PM

My husband told me to go to the beach today because I'm so blue. He wants me to change my routine and get away from the computer. So, I'll take my swim suit to the meeting and change into it afterwards. I had all kinds of excuses to not go. Philip seldom gives me orders though.

A lot of what I'm doing right now is just duty. Expectations. And of course, I'm missing a friend. Yes, I am codependent. I still miss talking to that person, selfish and needy as it may be.

As I think about working on my jacket I think how bad it is that I have so much time to work on something for myself. I want to be earning money. To be of service to others. Nope, I'm making something for myself that I may never wear. The fabric looked nice when I bought it. Now it looks girly gangster. So not my style.

1ofmany 12-08-2008 06:25 PM

Maybe the beach will do some good?
If that makes you selfish nd needy then I am just as bad if not worse!
Also there is nothing wrong with doing things for yourself occasionaly.
Stay safe and hope you have a nice time at the beach.

MammaMia 12-08-2008 06:38 PM

Have a nice time Susan :)

*leaves hugs*

*crawls into her dark hidden corner and waits*

Detour. Derail 12-08-2008 07:41 PM


Originally Posted by Automatik Teknicolour (Post 994710)
Just got off the phone to Alex, wasn't an hour and half convo really >.<

yeh yeh...she loved it really....

Im amazed...people noticed I'd gone...:/ hummm...

I feel abit low :(

CrazyHayley 12-08-2008 09:46 PM

I've had physiotherapy and occupational therapy today, so I'm rahter wiped out and lacking the brain power to stay on line, so I thought I'd just snuggle up in the corner and be here in spirit to offer you all comforting snuggles. Hang on in there everyone. I hope things start getting better for you soon.
*leaves random box of joke toys in ward to hopefully make people smile*

Mors Certa 12-08-2008 09:52 PM

To those that have been concerned, thank you, I am okay. To those that have not been concerned, thank you too, I am okay anyway. :-)

Just got out, went home, showered and came into the office. Stupid, yes, necessary for my sanity, yes. Had to make an appearance, see how much crap had piled up, and see if I could handle being here. Little sketchy, but will survive a few hours and then go home after I am sure the family is all there.

Susan, I am sorry, my reply to you was not intended to be blaming, it was meant to be a thank you. Yes you pushed, and yes you pushed hard. If it had not been for you pushing, I would not have had the courage to look my wife in the eyes, and make her read what I had written as a good bye note, and she would not have called her family to come watch the kids so that she could escort me directly to the hospital with no trains in between. (She does have a heart in there somewhere, I have just put a big gap between her and myself because of the depression) But I digress, Susan, THANK YOU!!! that is what my prior message meant, really and truly, I would not be alive today if you had not pushed, my kids thank you, and my wifey thanks you.

Dearest niece, thank you as well, encouragement was needed and you gave it to me, thank you so much

Dearest daughter, can you forgive me and give me a hug?

Everyone else that had to put up with me on my way down, thank you, I am sure that I am forgetting people on here, but bear with me, I am extremely shaky being back on the outside, absolutely hate being locked up, hated being restrained, hated being without the comfort of a blade, but I have been 24 hours without self harm. (No, it is best that you don't ask how I managed to SI while locked up, the nurses did not appreciate the creative use of everyday objects and I will not share)

risenfromperdition 12-08-2008 09:53 PM

*sleeps in corner*

CrazyHayley 12-08-2008 09:57 PM

Jeff, so good to have you back and that you're doing better. I too am doing better, hopefully I won't need your shoulders for leaning on and crying over again anytime soon, but maybe just for supportive friendship I could just lean on your shoulder whilst I sleep? I'd offer to return the favour, but my shoulders are a bit boney!

Mors Certa 12-08-2008 10:02 PM

*checks, thump thump, yep, the shoulders seem to have some function to them again,* please feel free to lean or cry on them, not sure that they are back to full strength for pounding on though, those restraints were a bit uncomfortable, but lean away.

1ofmany 12-08-2008 10:08 PM

Jeff its good to hear from you! Draw strength from us as we can from you!
*gives up on rubbish metaphors and hugs insted*

CrazyHayley 12-08-2008 10:09 PM

*leans gently on jeffs shoulder* Thank you, night night.

~*forever_broken*~ 12-08-2008 11:58 PM

*sigh* Jeff I am so glad you are out and doing better... Were I able to give in to tears when they want to fall I would have cried when I heard from you *massive hugs* gosh I was worried and missed you terribly *snuggles up to her beloved Uncle*
Mmm, yes, your shoulder is still quite effective, and thank goodness... My origionsl intent in coming here was to curl up in my corner and stare blankly ahead but you are much more comfortable and comforting than my corner :-)

MammaMia 13-08-2008 12:01 AM

I wish I could cry

*hides away*

Mors Certa 13-08-2008 12:16 AM

I am glad that my shoulders are useful again, thank you all so much, sorry if they shake a bit, still a little uneasy about this freedom thiing. Hated the inpatient lockdown, but it was somewhat safe

Pomegranate 13-08-2008 12:51 AM

*leaves special hugs for Helen cos she rocks*

*kicks Ally until she tells what is wrong*

*introduces self to Jeff....* Hi, I'm Emma! *waves* Glad your back out x

*leaves hugs and brownies for everyone else and apologises for poor responses tonight and recently*


Pomegranate 13-08-2008 12:52 AM

*POUNCES ON ALEXX cos I missed her post and I MISSED HER TOOO*

AAAALLLLEEXXXX!!!!! *hugs***

All I'm Living For 13-08-2008 12:54 AM

free huggles and cuddles here!!

i dont know if any advice i give will be good but i'll try :)

blondiebear 13-08-2008 01:25 AM

*cries-sobs in relief on brother's shoulder*

All I'm Living For 13-08-2008 01:27 AM

*huggles you*

~*forever_broken*~ 13-08-2008 01:42 AM

*glares at Emma then laughs and hugs her*
Je ne sais pas*shrug* I'm just rather indescribable... Flat and so out of sorts... Maybe kind of lost, I don't know, it's really hard to explain... Last session was yesterday so that's probably got something p do with it though...

*settles back on to Jeff*
I'm sorry you're a little shaky but I'm sure you've got pleanty of support there and you sure have it here, just remember that.

*throws phone across the room* ugh! Been on hold for I don't know how long now... Just want to change my address so my meds make it to where they're supposed to(my mail box... Wouldn't be good to be without, unfortunatly)...

All I'm Living For 13-08-2008 01:44 AM

would a hug help at all?

blondiebear 13-08-2008 02:11 AM

I'm not so good at this, so be patient with me...

I want to thank my husband Philip for backing me up when I pushed Mors Certa. Philip was already doing research for me so I could keep pushing and maybe do some shock treatment.


MammaMia 13-08-2008 02:37 AM

*jumps on Emma* Love you darlinnnnnnng <3

I feel seriously seriously ****. I would like to cut myself to pices. It won't solve anything and most likely make me feel ten times worse. I hate him for this. I HATE HIM!!! He's not even worth it.

I want to cry and as per ****ing usual I CANT!!!!

Plus its results day tomorrow and I'm getting ****ing anxious even though I can't do a sodding thing about them now. I screwed this year up, mainly because of my 'dad' and due to attempting sucidce 4 times, and everything else I did to self destruct. I ****ed my exam because of a certain bitch and stressing about reporting it.

I really feel like yelling at everything >.<

*wishes she could sob*

All I'm Living For 13-08-2008 02:40 AM

would you like a hug?

~*forever_broken*~ 13-08-2008 02:59 AM

You're very good at the gig thing Soph :-) *hugs*

Still. On. Hold.
Ice finished cleaning the kitchen, taken the trash out, washed the floors, picked up a lot of what's in the living room... I need to finish that and vacuume and dust but as I am not feeling like cleaning (rather just do nothing and feel ****) but am doing it so when my caseworker shows up tomorrow it doesn't look like I've felt **** for weeks and not done anything... I'm sitting for a bit before I finish *shrug*

MammaMia 13-08-2008 03:18 AM

Please Soph :sad:

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 05:05 AM


Originally Posted by Mors Certa (Post 997126)
Dearest daughter, can you forgive me and give me a hug?

*pounces her daddy with a giant bear hug* forgive you for what?

Mors Certa 13-08-2008 05:07 AM

***YAY*** love hugs

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 05:08 AM

what did you mean can I forgive you?
forgive you for what?

Mors Certa 13-08-2008 05:17 AM

for leaving when you needed me

*hangs head in shame* but doesn't let go of *hugs* nor does he move shoulders as they are being used

Casper_Fading 13-08-2008 05:21 AM

*creeps in*

*goes to cupboard beofre anyone can see her* i don't need or want suppiort. i just need to be in a dark place b myself.

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 05:21 AM

oh... it's ok... I am actually kinda glad you left, cuz if you hadn't have left to get help - I think you probably would have left.... permanently (if you know what I mean) :-/

Mors Certa 13-08-2008 05:25 AM

*pats on cupboard door*

I am glad that you made it in there ok, sniffle if you need something

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 05:29 AM

*starts to cry*
ugh... not again... why am I doing this?

Mors Certa 13-08-2008 05:43 AM

*hugs daughter tighter*

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 05:48 AM

*pulls away*
I don't wanna "pull you down" with and I have a tendancy to do that to people that are around me when I am depressed.
*runs and huddles in a corner and rocks self while sobbing*

Mors Certa 13-08-2008 05:54 AM

you will not pull me down, sit here with me for a while, I can offer hugs and support

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 05:56 AM

I don't deserve hugs or support
yes I will pull you down. I do it to everybody

blondiebear 13-08-2008 06:08 AM

Amanda, you don't bring me down. Thank you for keeping me company while I worried, while we worried about my beloved brother. Should we tell him about those two newspapers I bookmarked?

*stands back and cries happy tears and waits her turn to cuddle her brother*

~*forever_broken*~ 13-08-2008 06:13 AM

*hugs her God daughter* sweetie... I wish I could impress upon you just how much you deserve hugs, support, and love *cuddles*

*leans on Jess' cubord for a bit* love you sweetie.

*returns to Jeff's comforting shoulder and settles in for the night*
Have I mentioned how glad I am that your back?

BoundNoMore 13-08-2008 06:43 AM


Originally Posted by blondiebear (Post 998015)
Should we tell him about those two newspapers I bookmarked?

if you want to


Originally Posted by ~*forever_lost*~ (Post 998016)
*hugs her God daughter* sweetie... I wish I could impress upon you just how much you deserve hugs, support, and love

the only reason you can't is because my brain is so ****in stupid that it won't let me believe that I do.
*sniffle* you should just give up on trying to convince me that I deserve support and whatnot. Everyone in my life eventually gives up on me.

Casper_Fading 13-08-2008 08:15 AM

*mutters something and curls up into a tighter ball in her cupbaord*

Auburn Shadow 13-08-2008 09:26 AM

*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 13-08-2008 11:12 AM

Ignorance is ****ing bliss

*runs and cries*

Auburn Shadow 13-08-2008 11:27 AM

*hugs you*

(sorry MSN signed me out and won't let me sign back in *kicks it*)

MammaMia 13-08-2008 11:29 AM

*hugs Hana*

Stuipd MSN *also kicks it*

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