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Casper_Fading 29-07-2008 11:59 PM

*creeps out of basement and dashes over to lie down next to di*

doggie? cool :D

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 12:09 AM

The dog's name is "Sugar".
We got her from a kennel. They picked her up as a stray. ... she is like a pomeranian-spitz (mix) they think ... solid white... 9 and a half pounds... guessimated 1 and 1/2 to 2 years old.

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 12:19 AM

that's great. am so happy fo ryiu :)

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 12:26 AM

*cuddles and rocks Sugar and stares off into space*
I am still very very very very very very very very low though
*blinks tear out of eye*

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 12:31 AM

*hugs her daddy*
and it sucks cuz once again....
I DON'T KNOW WHY I'm feelin like I am...
I just got a new dog... I should be happy... right?

~*forever_broken*~ 30-07-2008 12:34 AM

*sneeks over and joins the group corner snuggle*

Sorry, really just need a corner and some people :-(

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 12:36 AM

no. does't work like that. at least u have somethign to help you stay with us. but just casue good thigns hapen deost mean eveythign is gong to be okay. it just desnt wk like that.

blah. sorry. crap advice. *crawls back into hole*

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 12:45 AM

*hugs Jess*
Not crap advice.
Makes sense to me.
Thanks Jess.

~*forever_broken*~ 30-07-2008 12:46 AM

*nods in agreement with Jess and cuddles Amanda*
*huddles in her corner, as close to the wall and as tight as she can get*
I don't want to feel it any more... I don't want to see it any more... Not unless I can actually do it... :crying:

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 12:47 AM

8gives hugs to manda and ally* you'll both be okay. yo'll get through this. I have faith in you both!

*curls up and goes invisible* just none in myself.

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 12:52 AM

*snuggles Ally and Jess*

~*forever_broken*~ 30-07-2008 12:54 AM

*cuddles Jess*
That's ok hun, I have faith in you.

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 12:55 AM

y is it that we can have faith in others and not in oursef? sucsk.

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 01:02 AM

I ask that myself that question ALL the time...
that and why can I give other people GREAT advice and help them so much but I don't take my own advice and I can't help myself???

blondiebear 30-07-2008 01:56 AM

Amanda, as you play with your new puppy, she will make you feel better. Animals have amazing abilities. I have a story about Bozo Cat but won't tell it until invited to.

*eats a great big bowl full of fried rice*

What am I doing? I'm back to the Cinderella nonsense again. I don't want free time, I'd have to think and feel.

So one day I get free time and my emotions come up and surprise me.

And being screamed at by a 70+ year old woman during a 5.8 earthquake that was only 30 miles away didn't help. I couldn't concentrate on what was going on, to know if I needed to duck under the table or not, to concentrate and feel which direction the quake was coming from. Those magic words "will you shut up!" just didn't work.

Anyone need a blondiebear to cuddle?

~*forever_broken*~ 30-07-2008 02:01 AM

Jess and Amanda, I sure wish I knew the answers to those questions because they've been driving me crazy forever, at least it seems that long.

*cuddles up to her lovely RYL mum for a hug*


Well, it's just after 18:00 and I'm in bed about ready to roll over and go to sleep... How pathetic is that? As long as I sleep all night though I guess I don't care much... At least I get away from all the dwelling I've been doing... As long as it doesn't leak into my dreams :pinch:

G'night all, stay safe
*cuddles all around*

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 02:07 AM

i wish ic uold be in bed right nwo. wtuipid work and bieng cold. i dont' want o be cold anymore 8cries* and i have to go take a kid to the gym and be there iwht him and it'll be cold AND smely there. stupid. evetyhtign is stupid. just like me. *crioes*

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 02:08 AM

you're not stupid Jessi. maybe you could take a hot waterbottle with you to keep you warm? *cuddles lots*

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 02:12 AM

i have heatpump in my office but it's not working! it's just... blowing cold air! stupid thing >.< i'm so cold. and tired. and sore. my hand is burning. i think it might be a bit infected... oh dear. wow. this is really hard to type clearly. have to keep fixing mistakes. ****. i want to go home!

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 02:14 AM

is there any way you can get off early?

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 02:25 AM

yeah but i have a doc appointment at 5 so... i dunno really.

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 02:28 AM

you'l get through this. i know it and somewhere inside of you (evenif its somwhere REALLY deep inside) you know it too *huggles*

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 02:29 AM

*curls up and goes back to being invisbile*

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 02:33 AM

*wraps you in a blanket to keep you warm and huggles lots* i love you hun, you know where to find me if you need me. i always offer free hugs and cuddles xx

effervescence 30-07-2008 02:52 AM

because i dont like the idea of stuff messing with my brain. i know what theyre actually doing, inhibiting seritonin reuptake etc. its still messing with my brain.
i dont want to become dependent on them.
i dont want anyone finding out about me - pills and side effects = evidence.
i dont want side effects. i already feel yucky and sick and it SUCKS.
it means there is actually something wrong and i cant deny it any more.

I cut the other day and it bled so much i fainted. never happened before. what is going on with me??

effervescence 30-07-2008 02:54 AM

^ oh and that was in response to susan asking why im afraid of meds.

blondiebear 30-07-2008 03:09 AM

That's fine. I understand. The new mix made my hands shake for weeks, and sometimes if i'm still too tired.

I want to kick something, myself? Go SI, just shred myself.

Since I got another illustration over the weekend of just how awkward i've become, I think I'll go kick the soccer ball around the green belt for a bit. Little city attempt and getting my footing better for hiking. I used to be a mountain goat. Now I feel like an ageing hippo.

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 03:10 AM

you stay ont hem til ur body re adjusts and then you might eb abel to come of them. i duno.

cholose... did u go to doc?

argh. i want to go home. away. anyeher but here... *hides curled up gainst soph*

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:02 AM


Originally Posted by blondiebear (Post 964296)
I have a story about Bozo Cat but won't tell it until invited to.

please share... I could really use the distraction... :notsure:

effervescence 30-07-2008 04:07 AM

susan, please tell me about your cat, i love cats and i miss mine.

jess i didnt tell dr about cut but it doesnt need stitches i promise. i'll keep an eye on it for infection and pretty sure my psych will be watching it too cos she can see it.

effervescence 30-07-2008 04:12 AM

hey jeff. (it is jeff, right?)
im sorry it hurts so bad. once i can figure out why we are hurting i'll let you know.

blondiebear 30-07-2008 04:12 AM

Please, does someone have a hug for me? Please?

About Bozo our cat being theraputic. I sprained my ankle so bad that I broke it on September 4, 2002, at about 5:45pm, falling down the stairs that go to my front door. Landed sitting on the foot.

The cast came off October 10.
The night of October 11-12, Bozo gently draped himself over the ankle and spent the night there.

He hangs out with me when I have a cold too. He's a serious people!

*burrows back into my nest next to the wall and watches everyone*

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:14 AM

*hugs Susan*
that is a sweet story
thanks for sharing

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 04:14 AM

are you sure? if it bled for so long.... *worries bout chlo*

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 04:15 AM

*offers huggles and cuddles to anyone who needs them*

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 04:15 AM

*dashes out from hiding to cuddle susan*

*goes back into hiding*

Mango 30-07-2008 04:17 AM

That's so cool about your cat!
Animals rock, I got a dog 3 weeks ago and she seems to pick up on when I'm getting real anxious. I'll be sitting in my room starting to freak out and all the sudden she'll be slapping me with her paw so I come play with her.

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:20 AM

damnit damnit damnit DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel so... so... ARRRGH!!!!!!!!!
I need to... to... I don't know... cut...TOO deep
or maybe waaay OD on pills... and not wake up...
or....... something........ANYTHING!!! #$%^&****!!!!!

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 04:23 AM

mand, go cuddle your doggie... cry to her. they're so good witht hat

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:27 AM

*Amanda is afraid she would squeeze Sugar too hard*

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 04:29 AM

manda you can hug me if it'l help at all?

Casper_Fading 30-07-2008 04:31 AM

i don't think you will. or even just sit with her. *nods* it helps.

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:32 AM

*manda doesn't want to be a burden to a Sophie*
but thanks for for the offer...

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 04:33 AM

honey you wont be a burden. i want to be here for you. and giving you hugs wont make you a burden *cuddles*

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:36 AM

but... then why does my ****in head tell me I am?
*cries and hugs Sophie*

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 04:38 AM

the things your head tells you aren't always right and in this case they're not. you're a great person and you're not a burden *huggles and cuddles and offers tissues*

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:40 AM

Sophie... you make my heart smile :)

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 04:42 AM

aww *squishes back and huggles lots* you just needed an objective someone to counter-act what you're heads telling you. i'm nothing special..

BoundNoMore 30-07-2008 04:43 AM

well (if it means anything) you are special to me...

All I'm Living For 30-07-2008 04:44 AM

it means a lot, thank you honey :) *cuddles*

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