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PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 03:06 AM

I'm back.

-hugs jill- take care. be safe..

FlyingNy 16-01-2011 03:06 AM

*Hugs* I hope you can stay safe Jill.

FlyingNy 16-01-2011 03:08 AM

Hey Kitty :)

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 03:17 AM

Hey Lia. You doing ok?

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 03:30 AM

-spots and waves to kahlia- How you be?

Kahlia1981 16-01-2011 03:32 AM

Kitty: Not too crash hot to be honest. How are you sweet?

*huggles all*

Back pain has been bad the last two days - a sign of the narrowing of the spinal canal and squeezing of the spinal nerves. *sigh* Guess I'm going to have to get used to it.

Mood is crashing - psychiatrist appointment on Wed. What fun ...

Little bit over everything right now...

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 03:39 AM

I'm alive. Kinda blah. Just waiting. Got plans for Thursday and thats far away. So I am just sitting waiting for time to go by and for Thursday to get here. Have my counseling appointment on Tuesday where I will briefly tell her of my plans, but not enough to send me away. Just enough to let her know. Won't be too long now...just don't know when. -hugs- Sorry you aren't doing so well. Anything I can do to help?

Kahlia1981 16-01-2011 03:46 AM

I know kind of how that rolls. I have to tell my psychiatrist about me almost attempting suicide early in January. I've only told 1 person IRL about it and how close I came. Everyone IRL (except that person) thinks my depression has lifted when it hasn't and doesn't realise that I still have the "means to my end" in the house. It's going to be a "fun" session. I just wish it was over already.

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 03:47 AM

-spots and waves to just an illusion- How are you?

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 03:50 AM

I can relate, Kahlia. My mom told me, when I was first diagnosed with depression and PTSD as a teenager, that it was just a phase. My husband feels that I should be better because I'm married now. He doesn't see how I can have these issues. My mom still tries to run my life even though I have moved out. She won't stop. I am never good enough for her. I'm done trying..

frenchhorn 16-01-2011 03:58 AM

*hugs all* sorry i've not been around for a while.

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 04:00 AM

-hugs oliver- How are you? How have you been?

frenchhorn 16-01-2011 04:10 AM

not great. you?

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 04:12 AM

Same. What's wrong? -hugs oliver-

frenchhorn 16-01-2011 04:29 AM

where to start. I'm trying to hold it all together so I don't let people down, but inside I'm screaming in agony.
You?
*hugs Kitty*

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 04:36 AM

So tired of everything. Tired of fighting. Tired of trying, but coming up short, not good enough for my mom. That's ok though. I have a plan to make it all right. -hugs oliver- I know how you feel, though. I'm sorry that you are not doing well. :( Anything I can do to help?

frenchhorn 16-01-2011 04:53 AM

*hugs Kitty* I'm sorry, know how you feel too :(
i just want the pain to go, but even though I'm not in uni for this year there are still things I have to do and people I would let down, how do you fight day by day, when each day is absolute agony

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 04:59 AM

-shrugs- I don't know anymore. I am worried I will let a few people down as well. But I have felt like **** since I was 6 years old (I am 22 now, going on 23). My mom won't leave me alone until either she dies or I die, and I don't anticipate her dying any time soon, unless there was a freak accident. I am just never good enough for her. I'm tired of being a failure..

frenchhorn 16-01-2011 05:18 AM

*hugs Kitty* your not a failure

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 05:22 AM

-hugs oliver- Yes I am. I am too fat. I have a skin problem which I don't know what it is it's not acne but it's kinda like it. I don't have a job. I mean, I can't work at this point, but that does not matter to her. She hounds me about me needing to get a job. She hounds me about losing weight. She tells me to exercise but I can't really exercise because of my back problems. If I get a B- in a class she doesn't think that's good it's always "You can do better". I'm never good enough. I figured out I never will be. So I have made the decision on what needs to be done. It's just a matter of when now.


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