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SparkleKitten 20-12-2010 11:47 PM

*hides in corner* I feel dead inside, like everything is now just a motion until everything is all over...

MammaMia 20-12-2010 11:49 PM

*cuddles you both again*

PoisonedApple 20-12-2010 11:50 PM

*hugs everyone*
wow the wards moving quite fast right now.

SparkleKitten 20-12-2010 11:51 PM

I'm sorry I can't help anyone else. I just want to cry, but tears won't come. Nothing now, its all blank

PsychoKitty2010 20-12-2010 11:55 PM

know how ya feel sarah...we are in the same boat. just want to die...and I have the means to do so just an arms length away... -cuddles helen again-

-hugs crimson-

Sorry errybody that I am so useless..

SparkleKitten 20-12-2010 11:56 PM

Don't Kitty, I need you :( x

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 12:06 AM

-feels horrible- I had to lie to the lady at the appointment today. She asked me if I was actively suicidal... but as much as I want the help, I can't afford it. Why do I have to pay to live? Its not fair...

SparkleKitten 21-12-2010 12:09 AM

*cuddles Kitty* I'd help you if I could, I wish I could afford to help. Its not fair at all :(

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 12:15 AM

I mean, it's not my fault I'm like this...even though my husband tells me it is. He gets so pissed off when I can't sleep at night but its not my fault. Thats why I don't talk to him about it anymore. And he has turned into a massive hypocrite. Over everything. It's ok for him to do anything and everything, but if I do the same things, he yells and bitches at me. -sighs-

I just want it all to end..

SparkleKitten 21-12-2010 12:18 AM

*cuddles Kitty* is there nowhere you can go for a few days for a break? To stay with family or a friend? This isn't your fault hun, he just doesn't understand I assume, my fiance doesn't.

Just stay strong for me darling x

Edit - I'm heading off to bed again now. Night all *snuggles ward* stay safe please <3

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 12:38 AM

No, I don't have any relatives close. The closest relatives to me are on my side of the family and they are a 2 hour drive away. Thats why I want to move in the summer, if I am still alive by then... :(

Night Sarah -hugs-

Anyone still around at all?

PoisonedApple 21-12-2010 01:18 AM


PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 01:28 AM

Interesting video, crimson. I liked it. Couldn't listen to it, just watched it. -hugs-

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 01:40 AM

yous okies crimson? yous quiet..

misskitty112 21-12-2010 03:24 AM

*cuddles Kitty*

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 03:44 AM

-cuddles felicia- how are you doing hun?

misskitty112 21-12-2010 04:06 AM

I'm really shitty tonight.
I'm sorry.

Are you feeling any better?

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 04:08 AM

A little, not really but a little.

-hugs-

What's up? You can rant all you want. If I can't do anything else, I can listen. I am sorry I'm not 100% but I can still listen.

misskitty112 21-12-2010 04:19 AM

It all boils down to I'm tired of pretending to be happy. I'm tired of pretending I don't feel abandoned by my mom when I really do... And I'm so afraid of seeing her on Christmas, of seeing my stepfamily. I know I don't belong. And I don't how how I'll cope.
I just wanna sleep through this part of life.

PsychoKitty2010 21-12-2010 04:26 AM

:( I can relate to that. Honestly, the only part I look forward to is spending time with my husband's family. I get to get drunk and high. Sad, I know. But the majority of time will be spent with my mom and dad (we have to stay for a week...she basically told us that). And she is in denial about everything, doesn't really believe I have issues, etc. She thinks it's all "just a phase", as she likes to call it. I pretend that everything is perfectly fine because that's what she wants to hear...but I'm tired of pretending. So I can relate a lot I think. I'm sorry, it sucks, I know. -hugs again- You don't have to pretend with us, though. This place is the only thing keeping me alive right now, quite honestly. I'm not sure why I'm still alive, though. Still want to die, but at least I have people here who actually give a **** about me. And, if nothing else, I care about you, and I know I am not the only one.

P.S. Sorry it took so long to reply my internet went all wonky.


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