Woo-hoo... This is me... Drinking... Four shots down, more to do... Have a fifth of whisky and a bottle of liquor... Probably won't drink it all but it's there if I want it... Problem..? Want to cut REALLY bad... A tad suicidal to be honest :blink:

Helen, sweetie, we're worried... We love you hun. PLEASE take care sweetie.

*snuggles Callie, Carole, Emma, Alexx, Jeremy, and anyone else in need*

Take care all... I'm gonna finish this glass and grab another...

yay people are waking up again!

B.O.U.C.I.N.G O.F.F T.H.E W.A.L.L.S.

My head hurts. I want to cut. I hate the scars on my arm the most. But I want to cut there. Doing on my leg or anywhere else has no effect anymore.

LOL. ally...r u drunk yet hon?

*hugs to helen* i really hope she is ok. I guess staying in the recovery position is the best thing. But yeah, anything that helps to throw things back is good enuf...the best thing is to force ur to throw up by sticking ur fingers down ur throat which activates the gag reflex and yeah throw things back up. xxx for helen...lemme know how she is tomorrow guys somehow..*curses the time differences*

*hugs Chloe*

Hang in there hon...xxxx

Right foot green btw lol.

oh yeah......left hand blue.

but, why do i want to hang on?

Uni folks know I have a cat... Now I'll probably have to send him home to my mom :crying:
I just want to die...

No ones here :crying:
That's right
Everyones sleeping :crying:
I'm falling apart...
:indifferent:

i dunno? lol

Coz it's the decent thing to do?

decent? how? for who? for what?
jeremy i know you can't be expected to answer these questions for my life so don't feel u need to. i just...it's just how i feel.
ally are you ok?

*rubs sleepy dust from eyes* Morning all

*hugs Ally* How are you doing today hun? I hope you managed to stay safe. Could you have a word with the uni folks and ask them if you can keep the cat?

Sorry about your exam Chloe, you never know though it may not have gone as badly as you think! How are you now?

*hugs for Carole, Callie, Jeremy and anyone who needs them*

*sends special hugs for Alexx* Are you alright hun? Did you sleep well?

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Have text Helen this morning but no reply yet. Will have to wait before I call her though cos of family. Will keep you all updated x

i hope helen is ok.
atm i feel as though everything is pointless. i want to cut, i want to do it on my arm cos nothing else works but i hate the scars on my arm and i cant add more cos ppl will see and...yeah...i cant.
but i dont know how long i can stop myself

I know that feeling all too well hun *hugs* try and resist though. I messed up and now have just *one* new scar on my arm but it is huge and would give away the fact I have been SIing again if I don't keep it covered. I really regret that cut. Please try and stay safe. Things are not pointless although they may seem like it at the moment xx

Helen's counsellor just called me back from last night. She said she doesn't have Helen's address with her but she is going to contact her line manager to see what they can do and whether they can get it. She said it is difficult cos Helen is over 18 so they can't tell her family but she will at least try.

but they are pointless, though. everything is.

*crawls out of her corner yawning*
oh noes :pinch:
I should just crawl back in again....
mum and dad want to move house AGAIN (we've only been in this house for just over a year, the house before that-7 months and the house before that was my home and we were there for about 9 years)
I dont want to move....I dont feel settled as it is....moving again would..just push me over the edge :crying:
I know it sounds stupid....but...I like it here....sure..the neighbours are awful...but im close to things that keep me going...like my best mate...
and now they are talking about moving away to somewhere like Bredbury (which is the CLOSEST location theyve picked) which means id have to get two buses just to visit my best mate....the furthest place they've picked is near the trafford centre :blink: THATS LIKE....MILES AWAY!!!!
Its an HOUR on the bus...and that would be just to get to college....plus...the buses arent even that frequent anyway....
I asked her why she wanted to move again....
she said she wanted to "find a nicer area"
I dont see the point...
the whole world is full of ****...
i dont want to do this..
I dont want to do anything...
which explains why im still in bed
*cries*

*hugs you Alexx* Moving sucks, I'm sorry hun. Can you try to persuade them not to move? Will you be going to uni this year?

*hugs you Chloe* I'm sorry, I have no words hun

Just spoken to Helen and she sounds rough and is throwing up but yeah, she's concious and talking so thats something, going to call her back in 5 min x

i am currently having an msn convo with my boyfriend about my cutting. cheerful no?
argh.

damn...:-Sb sensitive topic...hope it goes well chloe

*hugs chloe*

well, i feel like crap atm..and have urges to die atm...

poor jeremy
*hugs you*
is it anything in particular?

nah, just life in general..it suxs!!

whatever i do is never good enuf for any1 basically...