*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian* Cool :)

*Hugs Crimson*

i jealous of youuu mark *pout* :P
[how're youuuuuu?]

I'm super excited Heather:) But struggling tbh *Hugs* How are you hun?

*hugs everyone*

My psychologist is moving to another area so I am being transferred to another psychologist. I feel sad because I get on well with him and have been seeing him for 2 years but at the same time this could be a fresh start for me and the new psychologist might have a better idea of how to help me.

*hugs Ian*
*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Heather*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay*

how are you all?

*Hugs Lindsay* I have to have a new social worker after next week , you make a good point about a new start .

*Hugs Laura* I'm ........here , how are you hun?

I'm feeling a bit more stable, just unhappy with my life.

How are you, Laura?

I feel kinda violated. I wrote a post saying how I'm feeling & why, but now I feel violated. it's been read several times, but no-one's replied, which generally is ok, but I now feel like loads of people are staring and laughing at me *sigh*

I'm so hard to please.

*hugs Lindsay & Laura*

*hugs Mara* I'm sure that no one is laughing at you. Sometimes it's hard to know what to say but people do care.

*Hugs Mara* I'm sure people aren't laughing at you hun , *Extra squish*

*Hugs Lindsay*

How is everyone doing?

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Mara*

I told my mom that I'm on meds today. I also told her that I don't know how to got the idea to self harm, it was impulsive. It's so weird to talk with mom about things like that.

I can imagine, Laura. Do you feel better for telling her?

I feel sorry for her. I never meant to tell her, but thanks to my sister she knows now. I didn't tell her so she doesn't have to worry. Now she knows and of course she is worried. And somehow she got the impression that I've got an eating disorder, she's trying to fatten me up and I'm purging the food she makes me eat.

how are you, Lindsay?

oh wonterful! my neirbers frinde injured then decided to show me...............He was drunk but still FFS!

*hugs mark* that must suck. are you ok?

*cuddles Mark*
*hugs all*

I hope that didn't affect you too badly, Mark. *hugs*

I want to go to a high building and jump off it. Freedom. It's a lovely night for it. :(

*hugs Crimson* how are you?
*hugs Lindsay* I'd miss you.

I'm frustrated. At least my SILs wedding is today and then we won't have to deal with that crap anymore... but I'll probably piss her off... I'm wearing white to her wedding and my makeup and jewelry are green... her wedding colors. I am doing it a bit on purpose I will admit. She's been horrid lately. But on the other hand this is the only dressy thing I know fits and it happens to be white (well cream but still). If I'm wearing white why not match the decor?