*hugs Oliver and Kelly*

Oliver, I'm ok, just getting tired again, might try sleep soon :S

*hugs helen* I'm at last starting to get sleepy too, so may try sleeping in a bit.

*hugs Oliver* I hope you manage some sleep. I'm sorry your family isn't being so understanding. If you think hospital would be the best option for you, then please follow it up?

my boys are 5 and 3 and the baby (a girl) is 7 months :) ... it is hectic, but in a good way. I love being a mom.

Sleep sounds like a good thing for you.. *tucks Oliver in*

Sweet dreams :) ... please check in later to let me know you're still ok.

*hugs helen and kelly*
I'm glad you like being a mum kelly. I could never have kids, just isn't me, could never be a father really.

I'm going to finish listening to the archers, another 25mins then tuck down.

thanks Helen, I know hospital could be a good answer, I've been worse than I am but I'm in an impulsive way at the moment and so i suddenly do things. meh dont know what is best.
I hope you manage to sleep soon

*hugs oliver again* I hope you get some good sleep and make the right choice for you... be that hospital or not. :)

*hugs Helen* sorry...didn't see your hug sooner... I tend to miss things when I'm tired ... lol

*hugs all around*

*hugs Kelly* thanks

*hugs solo* how are you?

*hugs solo too*... ah hell *GROUP HUG!* lol ... solo's been keepin me sain since i popped on :)

*joins group hug*

Now the archers has finished I should tuck down, but i'm so scared, I hate this my heart is racing at the thought of turning the laptop off and no distraction from my thoughts and the pain

Thanks for the hugs Oliver n Kelly! This place is a hug fest! Glad I can help to preserve your sanity. I've actually had a really crappy day Oliver, but thanks for askin. Just stay on till ya fall asleep if ya like. We'll tuck ya in n give ya a plushie when ya drift off.

Yeah.. stick with us till u drift off... if zzzz's start coming across the screen... we'lll just cover u up to keep u toasty warm and safe and gaurd u to keep out those bad thoughts *stands gaurd and threatens to kick ass of any bad thoughts!*

* hugs solo and kelly* sorry to hear you've had a crappy day solo.

Yep I think I'll be on for a bit longer, I just find it so pathetic that I can't even turn my laptop off, that I'm even too scared to do that, feel stupid

don't feel stupid... i've been like that for most of the day... just ask solo... i had to keep on here to keep from SIing.... no shame!

thanks kelly, I just feel I don't know really, just scared i guess and anxious, dont want the next day to come and if I sleep it definetly will.

yes, but w/ sleep u will be better equipt to handle it. I find things seem much worse than they actually r when ur sleep deprived and it sounds like you definently are.

yeah I know, just wish I didn't have stupid insomnia *hugs* thanks for talking to me

any time... that's what friends r for... none of us should be expected to go it alone... and so we r here among the safety of friends and ppl who care about us and accept us just as we r. :)

*hums to self and baby (my daughter is fightin' sleep) and oliver in hopes that he will feel safe enough to sleep* <3

Don't feel stupid Olie! May I call you Olie? I stay on here till I can't read the words without closin one eye n squintin the other n I'm Fallon off my chair. That's what we're here for.

Take your own advise Kelly. It's good!

thanks kelly and solo. I don't like Oli, sorry can you call me Oliver please.

I think I'm going to try and sleep, getting to the stage where I keep drifting off while looking at the screen.
Thanks both, hope you both get some sleep, if its night time, no idea what time it is for either of you!
*hugs both*