*hugs ian*

*hugs louise* is it always the same nightmare or are they different?

Hi everyone.

Not been posting here again. I'm always around though, and if any one wants me, just PM, or tell me to post lol.

Laura - good luck! Let us know how it goes.

*hugs for everyone*

I've got a to-do list as long as my arm, but you know when you're so stressed out you can't actually DO anything, and then you get more stressed, and then that makes it worse etc?

I have the doctors on Tuesday. I hate going to the doctors.

I finalised plans for my 21st today. I'm still dreading it though, because I have to be "happy", when all I really want to do is commit suicide. :-(

Louise - have you tried decoding your dreams? I have really bad nightmares, and sometimes decoding them helps you to figure out what your head's trying to tell you, so you stop dreaming things. x

hugs to everyone... im not posting cause nothings changed
no need to update.. i keep checking in and reading tho...
so im thinking of all ya'll.......

our husbands vehicle broke down so now he has to take mine
and so now i cant get to my therapy appts... ugh

*hugs*

Oh Oliver, I forgot to say, I've had three hamsters, so if you wanna ask anything, feel free.

*hugs everyone quickly*

*spies kahlia and glomps!*

Today is my last ever day in University... I'm handing in my final undergrad project at 2pm.

I haven't been to bed. I'm feeling, IDK. Upset I think.

too much sugar, too little sleep and nerves is making me shake.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Michelle*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Rhi* way to go you !

*Sigh* I dont know , I'm low again and I know I;ll have to wait 8 or more hours to speak with Felicia :/

hugs to you all!

Oliver, sorry you're feeling low. I'm sure you'll be brilliant, just try to take each moment as they come & not worry too much about what may happen. *hugs* x

How is everyone else?

I'm still racking my brain as to whether I should go into a crisis house for a month. I just don't want a repeat of last time, going there, coming out & bring back at square one, u know? It's just a horrible vicious circle! Any advice? X

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Rhi*

*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry your low Mark

*Hugs Mara*

:ermm: My room is being painted, so i decided to come on here. I'm very rarely on in the morning let alone awake.

*Hugs Ian* What colour/s is it being painted?

The Anxiety is unbearable :S I don't know what to do .:(

*hugs doikers* :( Hope you feel better soon

Its like a very light coffee colour. *Hugs Mark*

Cool Ian *Hugs*

*Hugs Mara* thanks :)

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*hugs all*

just came back from the psychotherapist. I made her laugh at one point. She asked me why I didn't tell anyone that I self harm. I replied 'why should I?" that made her laugh.
I think she got the impression that I want to stop cutting, but I really don't want to stop. hmm...

she wants me to take paroxetin (dunno if it's the same spelling in english) does anyone here know what it does? she just said that it will take some of the 'pressure to cut' or something like that.

Laura this is what I found googleing it .....

Paroxetine (also known by the trade names Aropax, Paxil, Seroxat) is an SSRI antidepressant. Marketing of the drug began in 1992 by the pharmaceutical company SmithKline Beecham, now GlaxoSmithKline. Paroxetine is used to treat major depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety, and generalized anxiety disorder[1] in adult outpatients.

I'm on an SNRI so they are similar.