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Kahlia1981 13-01-2010 12:05 AM

*hugs everyone*

It's just after 10am and I really want to go back to bed. I had a seriously bad night - kept hearing someone calling my name and asking me if I was there and so forth. Meh. Man, I just want out. :(

*retreats to a dark corner and starts crying*

[Awakening] 13-01-2010 12:19 AM

*hugs Kahlia and wipes tears* that must be so scary. you poor sweetheat. have u got school or any plans for today? did u manage to get much sleep? x

Woop, I've been findi ng it hard to fall asleep recently but i think i'mabout to :D lovr and cuddles to all on the ward x x x

SoMuchMore 13-01-2010 02:20 AM

*cuddles helen*

*hugs kahlia* o man that sounds horrible. Hope you manage to get some sleep...

*hugs scarlett whore* Glad to hear you are getting some sleep.

There is a lot going on. I have 2 friends are are threatening to do stuff if things dont turn around and go thier way, which just makes me kinda worried. And then i have a situation with my dad that i'm really worried about that i cant really talk about right now/on here (maybe?... i havent decided if i should even mention it to anyone) *sigh*

... it would be so much easier to just disappear

MammaMia 13-01-2010 10:12 AM

*hugs everyone*

Scarlett, I've not heard anymore. But I have texted her aunt/friend (depending on who's visitng at the moment the other one has Gemma's phone lol), but no reply back yet. Bit worried :S I'm still feeling quite ****. Bad person that I am lol. I did have plans for today, but they've just got cancelled :S Hurray, another day alone with my emotions >_> Although I am seeing my Dad tonight, so I can't complain too much. That's going to be a barrel of laughs, as he does usually ask how my best friends and other friends are lol. I did manage to sleep haha, managed to sleep from about 11pm :) Got woken up by a text about 8.30ish, then woke up 9.30am & now (well 10am) :)

Laura, don't let your friends do that to you. Do what's best for you and if that's not going their way, then so be it. They sound like they're not of rational mind and maybe not intending to blackmail you like that. I don't know though. *big cuddles*

Kahlia, hope you're feeling a little better?? *massive cuddles*

Kahlia1981 13-01-2010 12:09 PM

*cuddles tightly to Helen, Laura and Jocelyn*

I'm about to head to bed (it's just after 10pm here) but I'm worried that the pain in my ankle is going to keep me awake. :( I was sitting normally in my computer chair an hour or so ago when I turned the chair around a little and there was an audible snapping noise from the region of my achilles tendon. It hasn't snapped but there's a lot of pain and a little red mark on the back of my ankle. *sigh* I think I have way more than my fair share of defective body parts .... I think I was put together on the scrap heap leftovers.

I really hope I don't start hearing things again ...

*disappears into a dark corner with bear (my favourite teddybear) and a blanket*

MammaMia 13-01-2010 12:41 PM

Sounds like you've twisted your ankle honey or something, maybe get it checked in the morning and take two painkillers before bed?? *hugs tight* Am praying the voices leave you alone. >_>

Should I be worried that I haven't had a text back today about my best friend. I mean, there probably hasn't been any change (a good thing I think) but they could least tell me that? I'm wondering if her aunt & friend are both up there, so their phones will be off :S

Absynnthe 13-01-2010 01:08 PM

Just dropping by to let everyone know I'm still alive. :)

Although my guitarist may not be in a minute if he keeps blowing on my face.

Not feeling great, in a bad place at the moment mentally. LeSigh. That's why I'm having a hard time coming online. I've been working on memorial stuff and all sorts of crap to distract myself.

Love to everyone here.

Franz xxx

MammaMia 13-01-2010 01:59 PM

*major cuddles*

Scarletdreamer 13-01-2010 10:19 PM

Eugh, my "upset stomach" turned into some sort of stomach bug/food poisoning/reaction to stress... threw up yesterday for the first time in 17 years!! It wasn't as traumatic as I thought it'd be though (I'm an emetophobe)... but still wasn't pleasant. (D'oh!! lol...)

So I've been taking it really easy, sleeping a lot, and eating saltines and drinking nondiet ginger ale and Sprite. Woohoo. I'm feeling better today than yesterday but still don't feel the best. Am pretty anxious at the mo.

*cuddles everyone*

Wish I could make it all better for you all... :(

Kahlia1981 14-01-2010 09:13 AM

*cuddles everyone*

My ankle is still bad - I can barely put any weight through my foot. I'm going to the doctors surgery tomorrow morning to see my tdoc so I'm going to put in a request to get my ankle checked while I'm there. The foot has some weird swelling patterns on it ... It's been in a compression bandage for most of the day. Meh.

*walks around the ward offering cuddles to everyone she sees and then disappears into a dark corner*

one_step_closer 14-01-2010 10:32 AM

I feel like overdosing. I can't cope with life any more.

Scarletdreamer 14-01-2010 02:05 PM

*hugs One_step* What's up, love? care to talk about it?

*cuddles Kahlia* So sorry to hear about your ankle. It sounds very painful, but at least you're trying to take good care of it instead of mistreating it. I probably would be mistreating it, since I don't take very good care of myself. :-/ How you doing other than that? :)

*cuddles Laura* How're you doing today, sweetie?

*huggles Franz* Have missed you over the past days... isn't it best to come on when you're in a bad place mentally so you can get support? Feel free to PM me... *more huggles*

*hugs Helen* How're you doing, love? and how's your friend? have you heard anything more?

I'm doing much better... although now my husband has the bug and threw up this morning. Ugh. Very unpleasant. :( I hate being sick and all of that... but at least it's passing. Uni starts on Tuesday and I've still not got my books!! so I'd best get cracking on that... I hate being unprepared but I've been sick since we got back (well, since Tuesday morning) and haven't had any time to go and get books. Boo hiss. :(

We watched the 2nd episode of Bones (season one) this morning... we watched scattered episodes whilst at Vince's house but not in order, so we decided to start at the beginning and watch through all five seasons. :D I'm excited about that. I love that show... hehe. Although this one made me almost tear up... :o

I'm in a "meh" place mentally... I dunno why, it's just kind of rough. I don't see my NP until the 26th and I don't know if I have enough meds to last until then... I see my therapist on Monday and I am worried about that. I don't know. Just all kind of messed up. :(

*needs hugs*

MammaMia 14-01-2010 04:10 PM

My best friend is doing really well. Not emotionally, but physically she's doing well :) She was awake some more yesterday and left intensive care last night. She's still in hospital at the moment, but suprising me and doing really well. We've been talking a little bit :)

One_step_closer, forgot your name but don't OD :(

Kahlia, glad you're getting your ankle checked, doesn't sound good at all.

Laura, how you doing love??

April, biiiig hugs.

SoMuchMore 14-01-2010 05:01 PM

*hugs kahlia* Ouch, your ankle sounds painful. Sounds like a good idea to get it checked.

*cuddles one_step_closer* Please try not to OD... Stay strong hun.

*hugs april* I love Bones too! Although i cant say ive ever watched the episodes in order lol. Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better. Hope things go okay with your therapist, just try to be open with them...

*hugs helen* I'm glad that your friend is doing better!

I am not doing great. I pretty much snapped at one of my friends last night when she was talking about how she doesnt like to make phone calls... I have social anxiety disorder... and normally i dont like people to know that i have a hard time... but she was complaining and complaining and i was having a hard time anyway, and i went off on how i depersonalize just walking down the street thinking that everyone is staring and when i have to talk infront of more than just a few friends i rarely remember what i said b/c i get so anxious.... she was like.. "oh come on... how traumatizing can that really be?"... idk it irked me quite a bit. She didnt really seem mad or anything... just unbelieving...and when we went back to the original topic of phone calls she was like, "well i guess some people just have issues"

Sorry this is a long and boring story.. Im upset over nothing.. as usual..

Scarletdreamer 14-01-2010 05:11 PM

So glad that your friend is doing better, Helen... I can imagine that she would still be in a rough place emotionally, though, wow. But it's awesome that she's out of the ICU right now. Awesome. :D But how are YOU doing?? *cuddles*

Apparently my cat took away my contact lense case and one of its caps so I only have one cap left... going to have to find that before tonight comes and I want to put my contacts away. :( My tummy still isn't too happy with me so a lot of bending over etc. doesn't make it feel too good. Stupid body, how I hate you!! :( Well, I suppose I should blame more the GI bug, right? heh. :-/

I've been so ****ing anxious lately... I take 4mg Klonopin and I really don't want to bump it up to 5mg, especially as I'm not sure I have enough to last me until my next NP appt, but I hate the anxiety!! It is so crippling. :( Can any of you guys understand? It's like someone or something is in my chest, crushing my lungs and throat and making it really difficult to breathe and talk. Jarrod (husband) had to talk me through deep breathing over and over and over again last night... poor him, heh, I think he got annoyed with me as I kept hyperventilating!!

*cuddles everyone* ♥

MammaMia 14-01-2010 05:11 PM

It's understandable you're upset Laura *cuddles tight* That would irk me too.

MammaMia 14-01-2010 05:12 PM

April, you're very right about my best friend :) Hope you find your cap thing and soon :) *cuddles*

Scarletdreamer 14-01-2010 05:13 PM

Aw Laura, that's not upset over nothing. Your friend didn't seem to be very understanding or kind... and that's not really how a friend should act. You're not being stupid or anything... I'd be upset, too, as it's difficult for me to call places. In fact, my NP gave me the number of her new office last week and I just called yesterday to set up an appt... and as I said in another post, the appt's on the 26th and I'm not sure that I have enough meds to last me until then!! So yeah... :-/ Social anxiety can be annoying & traumatic. But you're not alone. *huggles*

SoMuchMore 14-01-2010 05:21 PM

*cuddles helen*

*hugs april* yea, i know im not alone... it still sucks though. If you think you are running out of meds can you call and ask if there is anything they can do to get you a refill before the 26th? (i know.. after all this about anxiety my suggestion is to call.. haha.. ironic)

Scarletdreamer 14-01-2010 05:23 PM

Lol. I could always text my NP to see if she'd call in a refill of Klonopin for me... she's done that before. Texting is so much easier than calling!!

*huggles*


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