erm really want to hurt myself. everthing is really screwed up right now. and i think im about to get screwed over again. trying to distract myself on facebook and talking on here. really want my mind to stop screaming at me to hurt myself.
hey solo and ljmeep welcome,im jill. sorry for not saying before mind has been all over the place.
31-12-2010 12:02 AM
Originally Posted by IceQueenHasAHeart
*Hugs Helen* Hey :) Sorry I've not been in. I do that sometimes. Just don't wanna talk to anyone.
That's okay honey :) Sometimes we all just want to be alone.
31-12-2010 12:04 AM
i'm back... on the plus side I'm not disconneted anymore... on the negative i'm pissed!
my 3 yr old just ruined a brand new bottle of nail polish, a new lip stick and spilt it all over in the bag with the rest of my new makeup in it.
I was able to save most of it, but ugh! that's frustrating!
31-12-2010 12:51 AM
Argh My ****ing Laptop Is Doing My ****ing Head In Grrrrrrr
31-12-2010 01:00 AM
I'm sorry, Helen. :( wish I could fix that.
31-12-2010 01:14 AM
*curls up shaking on floor*
31-12-2010 01:22 AM
are you ok, Oliver? *hugs*
31-12-2010 01:22 AM
Me too Kelly :(
Oliver, are you ok?
31-12-2010 01:23 AM
no.... I ,I dont know. sorry
31-12-2010 01:25 AM
no need to apologize, oliver. I don't think any of us can help much how we feel. *hugs tight* just know you are among friends who care deeply about you! <3
31-12-2010 01:29 AM
No need to apologise Oliver, we're here for you no matter what *offers hugs*
Guess who has their fourth migraine in about 7/8 weeks? =/ ****'s sake. Least I went 2 weeks & a day between this & last one. Compared to a week & half.
31-12-2010 01:36 AM
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I'm scared, so scared, what if i really hurt them I can't and yet I literally can't keep going through this pain anymore. suicide plan is so organised, I know everything, plus exactly how i want my funeral, plus suicide letters planned, listening to the piece of music now i want to pla while doing it, the date was meant to be next week, but i had to change it cos of being at home, now have a crisis team appt that day, they dont know though.
there is no date at the moment, but i want to do it, as soon as i'm back in manchester though. **** i'm sorry
*hides because he doesn't deserve to be near people*
31-12-2010 01:38 AM
I'm fightine one too, Helen. I think I tend to get them more frequently when I'm fightin the depression :(
31-12-2010 01:41 AM
Oliver, you DO deserve to be around ppl. You DESERVE to be loved and accepted and cared about. You DESERVE to be safe. *hugs tight* I wish I could make your pain go away... unfortunately I can't even do that for myself :(
31-12-2010 01:50 AM
*creeps out of hiding place* i sorry, being a bad stupid wardie. just so scared, feel young and stupid, feel like the freak i've always been.
31-12-2010 01:54 AM
I understand hun and ur not being stupid. :) I was hiding in the ward earlier today too, oliver. this morning was really bad for me... i'm just sorry i can't fix things for you.
31-12-2010 02:03 AM
-wanders over to oliver- hi -holds out a teddy-
31-12-2010 02:25 AM
*takes teddy, thanks Owen*
31-12-2010 02:27 AM
31-12-2010 02:31 AM
*smiles at the teddy exchange* :) so much love in here... makes me feel a little better