Mark, we're both waiting on Monday, kinda makes me smile that I have someone to wait with.

*Hugs Jordyn*

*Hugs Lindsay, Lia, and Helen* How're you guys?

So.. my hairstylist took a day off and neglected to tell me. So I couldn't get my hair done. It made me angry, then my grandma got mad at me, and deserted me in the middle of Walmart. So then I got all shaky and upset, and I'm trying, oh dear god, am I trying to not let my emotions get the best of me.

Oh Felicia Hun I'm sorry about your hair dresser and your Gran abandoning you :( *Waits for Monday with Felicia*

*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry. Can you rearrange your appointment?

I'm alright. Not as happy as I was and my emotions almost got the better of me earlier, but I told myself I am wearing my magic ring and can't be unhappy (don't ask).

*hugs everyone*

I'm okay. I don't know if I want Monday to come or not. It'll be 3 years since my parents properly split up (my Dad had already left). I thought I was okay about it, now I'm not so sure *shrugs*

*Hugs Helen* We will be here for you if you do find yourself struggling.

*Hugs for everyone*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Jordyn*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Ian* What's the matter?

Not feeling great :( i give up.

*hugs Lia & Ian*

Don't give up Ian.
Thank you Lia <3

It's alright Helen :)

Please don't give up Ian, we would all miss you a lot. Did anything happen to trigger this?

*hugs all*
Ian please don't give up

god I really want to cut, or OD, I'm really freaking out urges are so bad, I'm so scared I'm shaking.

*sits in corner and yawns*
*offers hugs to everyone who wants and waves to everyone else*

love you guyssss

*Hugs Heather* Hey. You alright?

Oliver, please don't do anything stupid. Is there anyone you can call? A crisis team or someone? Just stay safe :/

EDIT: Heather, wow at your sig. I LOVE that quote. The Harry Potter one about turning on lights. I was going to put it on my profile <3

*Hugs Ian* Please don't give up.
*Hugs Oliver* Please don't do anything, I'm only a PM away if you need me.
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Lia* How are you tonight?

Monday is almost here... I can make it, yeah?
It's my goal not to SI tonight. This also means I'm laying on my bed and not moving. Watching Wizard of Oz hoping to at least distract me, if not, lift my mood.

That's good Felicia :) I've never seen that movie all the way through.

Does anyone else ever watch a movie/tv show and just think 'I know' to every line one character says?

Oh, always Lia. Right now, my big one is the movie New Moon, where Bella says "The pain reminds me he existed" or something like that. It seems like every line in her depressive/ alone phase is an "I know" on my end.

Oh, and I did end up getting my hair done. I cut it shorter on a whim, not sure if I like it, but whatever.

I'm sure it looks lovely :)

I'm sat here watching old clips of a show on youtube, I can relate to almost everything this one character says. It makes me feel more lonely than ever.

*Hugs Lia* I'm sorry you feel lonely. I empathize with that a lot. I'm only a PM away if you need me <3

since the Wizard of Oz went off, I'm watching Flyleaf videos. I really hope I get sleepy soon. I don't have to deal with myself while I'm sleeping.

*hugs lia heather and felicia*

I do have the crisis team emergency number which they said I could call if i ever felt unsafe, but I'm scared to even do that, such a wimp

Thanks Felicia :) And I'm sorry you can empathis. I know how badly it hurts.

Oliver, if you're feeling that low then surely it can't hurt? I've been to see the Samaritain before and such things, and they're very nice. Or you could go on a hotline. RAINN has one, but that's mainly for sexual assult victims, and so does childline, something tells me you're a little odd for that though. I don't know of any others.

Every time someone in real life tries to do any form of deep with me, I just shut off completely. I won't give them proper answers, I try to end it as quickly as possible. Even if it's an important issue that needs discussing, I just can't, or won't, do it. I don't know what's wrong with me.

yeah i've called the samaritans before a few times, I just hate taling on the phone get really panicy about it, grrr sorry being pathetic now.

*Hugs Oliver* You are not a wimp.

By the way, I love your signature (in case I've never told you that before). I'm utterly fascinated with the Tudors (the history... I've never seen the show, although I think it'd be good). =)

thanks felicia, yeah I love the history, I've only seen one episode of the show, my mum and sister have watched it al, but i refuse to just because I find dramas like that tend to take things a bit far and are not always true

Yeah, I keep meaning to find a way to watch it though, just to see how true/ wrong it is.

*hugs to everyone*
Oliver I'm in a similar place right now. Trying to find that balance between life and death. Trying to find what the point is. *Lots of hugs for you*

*Hugs Jordyn*

11 PM almost... I think I'm gonna go on to bed, and watch the Princess Diaries, it tends to make me feel better.

night felicia, I'm watching st trinians 2 to try and keep me distracted.

*hugs Jordyn* sorry your in a similar place it sucks.

Oliver, good idea staying distracted.
Also, I think it's that homophobes can't stand to see love in general. (your signature, I love it!)

yep, its a stephen fry quote, love that man.

you got anythingto keep you distracted?

My friend called me :)

thats good, what time is it for you? sorry just wondering, lots of differet time zones here

11:41 p.m. how about for you?

4.43 am. i'm unlikely to sleep i slept all last night and most of the day, until the crisis team knocked on my front door.
i needed the sleep though, I have bad insomnia so I hardly sleep and then crash like that once every few weeks

I've got the opposite of insomnia. I sleep 12 hours like, every night. But, it means I miss my morning classes. If I wanted to sleep 12 hours and make it to my morning classes I would have to go to bed at 8. But I can never fall asleep until 1 or 2 a.m. It's good that you got a lot of sleep though! I mean, that you caught up on it.

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Jordyn*

*hugs everybody*

I'm seeing Harry Potter soon *jumps up and down with excitement*

*Hugs Helen* Enjoy it!:)

Yay! It's brilliant Helen, but make sure you hvae tissues! And draw a scar on your forehead! That's what I did! I hope you have fun.

How's everyone else this morning?

I'm feeling okay thanks Lia , Full of nice warm Tomato soup :) How are you feeling?

I'm alright thanks Mark. Today is turning out to be one of those days *sigh* but on the upside, I just saw some snow! I'm glad you're alright :)

euuugh feel awfull today. first day back on antidepressents (sertraline) feel so groggy having not great gastro side effects and just feel a bit spaced. its difficut though as im having ED issues at the moment so i could be a combination of both thats making me feel so cr*ppy. i hope they go away soon and it starts to help. how is everyone else this afternoon?

I will do, thank you both :D *hugs lots* I'll deffo take tissues lol :)

Kee, I'm soryr you're feeling so crap, offers hugs xx

*Offers hugs to Kee* I hope the side effects bugger off soon.

*goes around the ward singing*

Is it me or are we bit quiet?? Not complaining...just wondering :)

It is. *Joins in singing with Helen*

(8) All the boys think she's a spy, she's got- Bette Davis eyes...(8)

Kee *Hugs* I'm sorry you feel so rough , sertraline sounds familiar , I think maybe I have been on it *Pops off to Wikipedia to look it up* EDIT:- Nope I don't THINK I've on it but I have been on other SSRI's .

*Hugs Helen* It's usually a bit quieter on the weekends I reckon , people might be out enjoying the snow :)

*Hugs Lia*

I'm not :( We had about two flakes here and then it went away again :( FML.

Oh we got quite a lot here in South Wales , Powys , the county I live in was the coldest place in the UK last night , apparently it hit minus 17'C Yikes!

I hate the snow. There is quite a bit here and i'm dreading clearing my car tomorrow morning.