I'm glad to know it made sense and helped.

If I were a bird, i'd be named a gold-headed griper; my pinched ulnar nerve is acting up again. I have to quit carrying a heavy purse and a heavy tote on my shoulder all the time. At least at least the problem is limited to the outer two fingers. Sigh. Back to the wrist-hand brace.

gold-headed griper?
Hmm... never heard of that one...

It is a rare bird, only 5 in existance, 4 of them in Orange County California. Only one of the two in the second generation has offspring, and the other parent of that offspring is a shiny-head mellowguy. Fortunately, the species, while not yet extinct, is on its way to extinction.

didn't get to ride today, my horse was lame, poor thing. he was having so much trouble walking that he didn't even come up to me for a treat!

i'm tired of fighting. cna i give in now?

Went to A&E, was there for five hours and all the guy did was tell me to take my evening meds and go to bed.
Might go back today. Will call mental healthline and see what they think.

*cuddles* i'm glad you're still thinking of going back. it shows that you're still fighting. i'm proud of you honey.

Woke up from bad dreams that i wished were real...whats up with that? Weird i realised it was a dream but didnt wake myself up...

*pets*

Hmm, the first morning all week I woke up and didn't feel awful from the start. It won't last, if net money on it...

Have decided to use what little $ I have left to buy some gauze and tape instead of the alcohol I had planned to use it for... Would rather be able to cut now then drink after Mondays session... Hmmm, sick, I know.

*hugs everyone then wanders back to her corner for a rest* as ice only been awake for about a half hour and already I have no energy... Woo-hoo :pinch:

*huggles Sophie*

*jumps on ally and cuddles her*

Noooooo...safe safe plz :P

be safe ally... please be safe *cuddles you tighly*

I am.... not safe. :D

Jess luv, please, you be safe as well hun.

Jeremy, sorry sweetie, gonna do it... But no where important...

*retreats to her corner for a nap*
How pathetic is that?

*hugs for eveyone who needs/wants them*
xx *hides in corner with blanket*

Yo jess....try and keep urself distracted there somehow? like write poetry, draw, read or something..i dunno...something that will keep ur mind off things...hope that helps...

*cuddles u* stay safe there xx

i'm tired. i'm so ired. *cries* so damn tired. there is a blade upstairs... but it's too far. i'm so tired. i dont want to move form my bed. i'll justg stay here. going offline now. hopefully i'll falll asleep. maybe i'l get lucky, pass out ad die >.< *sighs* g'ngith

*hugs all around*
*uses magic wand and turns all blades that are near friends in the psych ward, turns the blades into brownies"
*sits in her usual place to wake up*

*hugs jess*

i hope u manage to crash to bed sometime soon

My body is absolutely taking sleep. I'm sleeping through Bozo cat coughing up hair balls. Through Bozo doing his morning feed me routine. Through two hours of oldies music.
I'm starting to feel better for it

no no, these are magic brownies, yummy. and not the kind of magic that comes from added "herbs"

Besides, chocolate is magic.

*passes around more brownies*

cans i have my blade back please! :( *takes brownie, waits for urges to pass*

Of course you can have blades back. Sowwy.

*Offers ice cream to go with brownies*

*leaves hugs and sweets for all*

Hmm, I'm going to be checking out again tonight. Off to wales tomorrow after working (finishing early). Don't worry I'll be with Mandimoo. So may get online. Not sure if I'm checking back in this time. Not feeling very noticed here except Amanda & Ally noticing me....plus the people I know...aren't really posting.

Oh Hana, thank you for my pm yesterday :) xxx

Damn, a real magic brownie sounds pretty darn good too... At least we have our blades back now...

hi hells think i said hi? am sorry if i didn't, feeling a bit crappy :(

[quote=blondiebear;973895]no no, these are magic brownies, yummy. and not the kind of magic that comes from added "herbs"
[quote]

Friends almost gave me some of them once, was not amsued. Hi to everone, Please jeff and ally and everyone stay safe!
I dont know what to say but please...

:( I wish i could keep you all safe and happy.

Sorry I was a bit snappy earlier. Sometimes I get bit snappy and have a go at everyone :notsure: Shouldn't do that really...

*huggles both of you*

Mors, that's so good, keep it up :) Tanks for hoping my trip goes well and I'll deffo check back in. I don't think I could really leave now, this place has been my home since November, even more so since late Dec.

Diamond, *snuggles*

thanks hells, really struggling right now *hides in corner*
glad to hear your still fighting jeff xx

Giving up on reality just going to live in my imagonary world and here now.

*leaves hugs for you all :)*

thanks hun have a safe trip xx

Help.

Question: does anyone continue to SI even when it hurts like a bear? I mean, I thought that we SI to feel something... Oh... Hmm. Sorry, I don't know I'm just really dense and stupid atm:pinch:

*sigh* arm hurts like a bear but that means I probably won't have to harm again for a bit...

Me.
I do.
*Sits in her corner plotting how to not get caught...again*

Get caught doing what hun? What's wrong?

SI-ing.

I made some rants in my thread
but I'm fine.
fine fine FINE >.<

*snuggles Alexx*
Hunni, I'm too easily triggered to read all of those but sweet heart, please find someone you can talk to, hang out with, something...

I know...I wouldnt expect anyone to read it really...
I cant...its gone midnight here.
Theres no one..
there never was anyone...
I feel alone.
Trapped in my head.
No one understands.
Its always raining...

*huggles Alexx*

Please don't harm hunni xx

I read it.

*hugs Helen Amanda, Alexx, Ally and Jeff*

I have had a lovely lazy day, did very little. Got some rest.

Read a bit in my asthma for dummies book. That brings back more resentments and memories about stuff from my parents. Like if i'd gotten the proper care i wouldn't have had 20 years of throat/sinus/ear infections so now i'm having loss of hearing.

I'm not going to do anything for the rest of the day either.

*hugs Susan lots*

Ally, yes I've had times when it hurt like a bear. Did it anyway for a particular purpose. Then made it worse three days later. Was my most recent one.

Bored...
bored...
bored...
I'm soooo freakin' bored...
*sighs*
well no one save me from my boredom?
... please??? save me??? please???
to me BOREDOM just = opportunity :-/
*whimpers*
help me... someone... anyone... save me...

*cuddles amanda*

Thanks Blondie
Where is everybody today?

On the weekend? Here and there I would think. Does make it feel lonely though.
*cuddles amanda*

Oh Alexx hunni, I'm sorry, it's just a really unsafe time for me, I do care luv *cuddles*

Ugh, my arm hurts and it was pretty hard to close... Cut too long and WAY too deep... Should be stitched but that's not going to happen... But I did get it closed though and hopefully it will stay that way...

Susan, I'm glad you had a good lazy day.

guys, i'm feeling so sorry for myself, my meds have made me SO ill, all i've done all weekend is want to vomit and sleep and not eat. i really just want someone to look after me :( this is the first time since i was at uni that i wish i was at home. and since it's been the weekend i havent been able to talk to my doctory. hopefully i'll be able to get in to see her tomorrow.
argh i feel so sick.