u are so special! *puts hands on hips and glares at soph* and don't you say any different!

Somebody... how do I stop drowning in my head?

*hugs Jess*
Amanda wishes she had an answer for ya hun,
but that is another question that she constantly asking herself.

you're special too Jess *huggles*
*empties Jess' head of water so she wont drown* maybe you should talk to your doc about it tonight *cuddles*

Amanda has been reffering to herself in 3rd person a lot (both in conversation with other people and mentality).... is that a bad thing???
It seems "abnormal"...

yeah... we're having the hospital or nto conversation tonight. ****.

amanda i dont think you should worry about it, i do it too sometimes *huggles*

jess.. *pounces and huggles and cuddles lots*

you guys try to take care k?
x

You too dearie!!! *squishes*

i thin ki'm going to give myself an early mark and go home and play nintendo64 before my doc. i need out of here soon! >.<

loves you sohp :_

*mooches hugs from everyone and sniffles back tears*
*curls up next to her little brother and listens to the trains*

s'ok jess. didnt bleed for that long. just a lot of blood all at once then stopped. dont worry.

I just ate breakfast. That's a big deal to me, I usually only eat one meal a day.
Beth's not happy, she's calling me a fat **** and having a go at me. I feel so crappy at the moment.

*curls up*

not going to hosptial thank god. doc said he would never be angry or disappointed in me for not ebing well. so i cried and said don't u think it's for atention and he siad not at all! i feel so stupid. what have i done to make people believ in me? i'm not a nice person. i'm useless. and horrible.

*hugs everyone*

Don't have words.....
I'm lost somewhere without a map, somewhere I don't want to be.... which way back to the past? anyone?

i have been told we can only go forward or stay where we are!
*hides in corner*

But... the past is safe...

*finds another safe corner to hide in*

Anyone got a blanket?

come share mine hun?

*comes to join you in your corner*

Thanks :)

your very welcome hun, a corner always feels safer with a friend to share it with *snuggles up*

Thanks sweetie *snuggles tight*
It does feel safer now :)

Bro, It will get better. But you have to take a bit of action too. Yeah, I know the meds are expensive. They help. It just takes time.

Is there any way you can talk to your kids one by one and explain that clinical depression is a disease, an imbalance of the chemicals that help the nerves in the brain talk to each other?

*hugs everyone*

Consider yourself reminded, to take your meds and to call a counselor. Do you have the counselor's number with you? Their office is probably open now.

You are worth so much more than just forgetting.
*hugs jeff*

You are not a zero! You've given us so much in the time you've been here!
You are reliable.
You are compassionate. That is worth so much more than any normies have a clue about.

btw, nerds run the world. Unlike other people, they don't think about it or don't realize it.

You have value to me. Just for being here. Just for being vulnerable.

*hugs you*

*cuddles you*

*tries to scream but can not be heard*
*tries to cry but eyes have all dried up*
*cuddles up with doggie and tries to sleep (and never wake again)*

*cuddles Amanda*

Jeff, for the love of all that is good and holy in this world, you are not a zero! We as human beings are not good judges of ourselves, we've got to try and listen to others and believe it *snuggles* and I think you're great.

*returns to her corner and stresses*
As if my week hasn't been bad enough todays the meeting with my caseworker:pinch:. Which just reminds me of another part of Mondays session when he asked if my caseworker knew about my 'situation, safety' and all that... And then expressed concern when I told him he did not... we've only got two more sessions left and he didn't seem all that happy when I told him I didn't even have medical so therapy was out. *sigh* evidentally I am totally ****ed up (he even told me a few weeks back that my moms concern about my living alone was a valid one that he shared :eyeroll:).

Sorry for the pity party...

*hugs* sorry i am a bit crap tonight

*hugs everyone*
Seems to be the case for everyone here Diamond...

*wanders out of corner to give everybody hugs*

Sorry, yet again I have no words for people :'(
Got to go to a friend's funeral tomorrow. Strangely feeling fine about it, but... I don't know. Sorry...

i wish i could take it away from everyone
*hides behind blanket and tries to cry*

*cuddles you through blanket*

You and me both sweetie, you and me both.

trying to resist urges, i have made it a day without but don't think it will go any further than that, i am so ****!

*cuddles Diamond*
*cuddles Ally*

Amanda, I hear your screams and see your sorrow.

Jeff, if you don't want to hold on to us, will you let us hold on to you?
*holds on to Jeff. never mind, sits on jeff so you can't look into the abyss.* And before you remind me what you weigh, I'm only 60 pounds behind you.

and before I sound like stinkin' wonder woman, will some one please look at my updated cinderella post and reply?

sure hun i am on it *hugs*

*walks in with a tray of fresh brownies places them on a table for all to enjoy should they wish too*

*sits down*

oooh brownies thanks hun *pops out from behind blanket and heads towards brownies* how are you today?

*ventures out of corner to take a brownie*

Thank you :) I'll make hot chocolate later.

Hows you tonight?

Low, but whats new? *smiles weakly*
How about everyone else? (sorry been trying to catch up but mind wont focus on what i have/havent read)

you want hugs? i am trying not to do what i know i shouldn't :(
you ok jeff?

I'm... not quite sure anymore, but I'm sure I'll survive.

You OK over there Jeff?

brownies? just what I need.

*cuddles everyone*

*goes back to being irritable*

I can't accept hugs but thank you. Hang in there. You too Hana.

Hey Jeff stay with us!

wow you guys have been busy.....

HELENS BACK!!!!

She'll be in soon hopefully :]

*hugs Mors*

:hazard: :hazard: :hazard: :hazard: :hazard:
:angry: :angry: :angry: :angry: :angry:
:sad: :sad: :crazy: :crazy: :crazy:

I'm so confused and worn out from being confused.

*cuddles up with Jeff*

how can i help jeff?
bear can i help you?

*wraps arms around jeff, holds him so tight*

Sorry guys feeling extra usless I am going to go before i wind anyone up. Hope to chat in a better frame of mind soon.
Please stay safe all.

*locks self in cupboard* i'm staying here today. i read and i can't even think of anything to say. all i can think is... i'm pathetic for not being able to help people who are in so much mroe pain then me. sorry.