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m0nk 03-05-2013 01:59 AM

*supplies from table and room gone?*

YodaBearInterrupted 03-05-2013 06:43 AM

Oops so sorry m0nk... I did not realize they were! My bad...

*replenishes the treats, goodies, and drinks on the table*

I finally listened to the msg from my psych... it sucks...

oops*i*did*it*again 05-05-2013 09:49 AM

no meds, pharmacy shut for bank holiday early.Hoping crisis team sort me with me,been off my 40mg dose of citalopram for 5 days now and it's kicking really really hard now,
Curls into corner and checks self in till more meds arrive

yoyogirl 07-05-2013 05:37 PM

I feel like crying right I can't handle it

YodaBearInterrupted 08-05-2013 02:58 PM

*hugs skinnylove*

Do you want to talk about it?

LizzieRose 08-05-2013 03:24 PM

*checks in and goes to the corner, starting to cry*

YodaBearInterrupted 08-05-2013 04:26 PM

*hugs AlexiaJayy*

m0nk 08-05-2013 05:57 PM

i'm sick. keep sneezing all over the place. most annoying part is that i want to sneeze but then i keep wanting to sneeze for the next 2 minutes then i stop worrying about it then i sneeze....

LizzieRose 09-05-2013 12:37 PM

I feel very paranoid... I'm scared people are secretly watching me... *cries* I want to hurt myself so bad right now...

RAWWR 09-05-2013 12:53 PM

-Falls into the ward, bumps his head and looks confused-

sapphire hearts 09-05-2013 01:46 PM

*checks in*

Don't know what to do for the best...

*hides*

YodaBearInterrupted 09-05-2013 09:09 PM

*hugs sapphire* do you want to talk about it?
*hugs m0nk* feel better :)
*hugs rainbow* what's up?
*hugs alexiaJayy*

YodaBearInterrupted 10-05-2013 05:01 PM

Had terrible nightmares last night about being hospitalized... it was horrible... I have been frightened of something all morning and I don't know what or why... I feel like I am slipping and the voices are getting louder...

yoyogirl 11-05-2013 09:01 AM

*checks in

YodaBearInterrupted 11-05-2013 07:42 PM

*hugs skinny* how are you doing?

yoyogirl 12-05-2013 09:26 AM

Not great right really feeling like ending it x

YodaBearInterrupted 13-05-2013 06:01 PM

*hugs skinnylove* I hope things get better for you

As for me, I am writing as my psych said to, but my writing is all over the place... I am frightened by my nightmares that I get each night now

YodaBearInterrupted 14-05-2013 10:26 PM

Def not in a good place right now.. no sir *hides in the corner and rocks*

yoyogirl 14-05-2013 10:32 PM

Not in a good place right now beginning to feel really depressed and ****

Kahlia1981 16-05-2013 08:57 AM

*checks in*

It has been a long time since I've checked myself into here. I guess that I won't know most of you, yet I hope to find some relief here.

The last five days my depression has been building. I can barely bring myself to get out of bed in the mornings because each day I am more depressed than I was the day before. A lot of time I end up bawling my eyes out and not even able to tell anyone - even myself - why I'm crying. Lately I've been clenching my jaw in an attempt not to open my mouth because I know that if I do the tears will start to fall.

Dealing with me is hard, but now my fiancee is unwell as well. He's semi-psychotic and the hospital system here is .... well let's just say I can't take him to the hospital unless he's dying. For two days I've been nursing him, treating him with diazepam and xanax to help keep him calm. I don't know how to cope with both of us right now. At least I get some time when he's asleep.

I really don't know what to do right here, right now.

RAWWR 17-05-2013 01:09 PM

Hey Kahlia, don't worry you're not the only oldie checking in-I used to be RAWWR.
Sorry things aren't going too good for you at the moment, i'm sorry I don't really have any advice-things aren't going too well for me at the moment and my head doesn't work too well anymore, I want to offer my *hugs* and I hope things get better for you you soon.

YodaBearInterrupted 17-05-2013 01:49 PM

*hugs for all in here*

*puts some goodies on the table*

Everyone is clamoring at me to get back on meds before I end up getting too much worse... but I dont want to at all, the meds suck. The nightmares continue, I wish they would just stop for one night... and I can hear the voices silently and quietly plotting i n my head...

Kahlia1981 18-05-2013 02:05 PM

*hugs all*

I am such an idiot. Why do I keep doing things that I know will be to my detriment. I'm just going to go sit and cry in the corner...:crying:

LizzieRose 20-05-2013 07:09 AM

*checks in, crying*

Kahlia1981 22-05-2013 12:42 AM

AlexiaJayy: *offers hugs and tissues*

Mood is dropping further and I'm becoming more suicidal with each passing day. I just want this all to end.

*disappears into a corner crying*

LizzieRose 22-05-2013 01:14 PM

*accepts them with a soft thank you and goes to sit, curled up in a chair as I still cry* I've never felt this suicidal before...

m0nk 22-05-2013 05:07 PM

Dark memories will not help you in vain, with time comes hope it helps you to accept the pain - the brightest light exceeding our deepest imaginations, will also radiate for you! for what is there for the light to be lit if darkness does not exist.

Tristana 22-05-2013 06:08 PM

Walks in and curls into a ball I can't do this anymore

Kahlia1981 24-05-2013 01:17 AM

*crawls into a corner banging her head on the wall and crying*
Why won't this stop??

yoyogirl 24-05-2013 02:57 PM

I'm checking in right now

Kahlia1981 25-05-2013 12:46 PM

*offers hugs, blankets and teddy bears to all in the ward at present*

I'm just going to curl up in the corner and cry for a bit...

LizzieRose 28-05-2013 02:48 PM

I'm so done... I need to either die or get help... I can't live like this...

YodaBearInterrupted 28-05-2013 06:30 PM

*hugs alexiajayy* help is the better option hun... I know its hard but it will def help you feel better when you have someone to help you

LizzieRose 29-05-2013 02:56 PM

I keep trying to do that, but Mom won't believe something is wrong with me, my boyfriend thinks I'm trying to run away from my problems if I come to live with him, and I have a fear of driving.

Kahlia1981 01-06-2013 01:57 AM

*hugs AlexiaJayy* Is there somewhere like Lifeline or The Samaritans that you could talk to in order to get help if those close to you aren't able to help?

*hugs YodaBearInterrupted* You've been very supportive to those in here, how are you going?

I just want to either die or run away from my life right now. My grandparents will be up here by this time next week, and they'll now be here for our wedding, but I know that my grandad will be lucky to live until Christmas. He may not even make the wedding in July.... Although I knew this would happen I don't want to watch my grandpa die, nor to watch my nanna deteriorate and die, especially without him. The real ambivalence... those two conflicting emotions... I love them and I don't want to see them die.... *sigh*

I'm just going to hide in a corner so I can't hurt myself and ruin what could soon be 5 years SI free.

m0nk 02-06-2013 06:28 AM

he said it's only thoughts in your head, only thoughts in your head only thoughts in your head. [ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoQYw49saqc"]Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood - YouTube[/ame]

escape artist 02-06-2013 08:03 PM

Hi. I think I'd like to stay in here for a while, if that's ok. I'm scared, and I want to go away. I'll be really quiet and sit really still.

YodaBearInterrupted 04-06-2013 03:32 PM

*hugs m0nk*

*hugs nestenheltborte* I hope that is okay... would you like a blanket or some goodies?

*places brownies, cookies, tea and drinks on the table*

*hugs Kahlia* 5 years is a long time and a great achievement. I am sorry to hear abut your grandparents

I am doing okay I guess.. I have my up and down days. Right now its a sucky day with the voices, but I will try to manage at work

escape artist 04-06-2013 09:57 PM

Blanket, please, thank you... Very stressed, too much going on, but I don't have time to think, and that's a good thing... Hope work goes well for you, YodaBearInterrupted, and that your day gets better...

Sisu 07-06-2013 12:55 AM

*takes some tea and a blanket and moves into a corner*
Hope you don't mind one more person around here...

Kahlia1981 08-06-2013 01:17 PM

My grandparents arrived here on thursday and we saw them today. My nanna barely recognised me.... I don't want to watch them die... Please let me die instead

Sisu 08-06-2013 01:58 PM

Kahlia, I'm so sorry about your nanna :( *hugs if you want them*

Kahlia1981 11-06-2013 10:34 AM

Sisu: Thanks

I've hidden a kitchen knife and my fiancee keeps asking for it... I don't even know why I took it. I mean, I'm so close to 5 years free and I can't even control myself enough to not start collecting "dangerous" things. It would be so easy to just go through on my suicide plan...

*offers hugs to all who are in here and then hides in the corner*

YodaBearInterrupted 15-06-2013 07:32 AM

*hugs all in here*

Barely awake right now at 230 am... i am being pulled in every direction and i can't stop or hide... they all need me... this really sucks

yoyogirl 16-06-2013 12:13 AM

Checks back in a while I think I need a few days here to feel better i feel so shitty right now

Kahlia1981 17-06-2013 08:21 AM

Don't mind me, just hiding in the corner....

*offers hugs, blankets and stuffed toys to all*

Gem-Louise 17-06-2013 10:57 AM

Hi ,is it ok if i come in here? i am not feeling very safe around myself ?

Kahlia1981 18-06-2013 09:43 AM

Gem-Louise: Come on in and make yourself at home. *offers blankets, pillows and stuffed animals*

Suicidal and depressed and have to see my pdoc tomorrow. I think I'm going to be heading down for more ECT after my wedding and exam. *screams* Nonononono....

yoyogirl 18-06-2013 10:24 AM

Feeling really shitty I think I need I be here for a long time

ladispute. 18-06-2013 11:29 AM

*Pokes head in from around the corner* Hi.


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