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*gives all in here hugs and goodies/treats*
Really hurting right now... really painful. Make it all go away :( |
I'm in severe pain - boyfriend dumped me through email yesterday (one line saying "I've found someone else so don't want you any more goodbye" :-(:crying::Emoticon(14):
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Wow, that's rude and hurtful *hugs midnight star* I am sorry to hear that
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I fix
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I hate these feelings, one moment I am fine, the next I am debating SH... make it stop
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sh last night. awful. think i went too far with across the wrist. but it wasnt too deep. just bled alot. i felt really good and bad afterwards. i wondered around my porch wondering if i was gonna die. but i didnt. so i called those people that brings my medicine and i told them to bring bandages. i had to wait an half hour before they came. and they put on vaseline bandages and some normal bandage around my arm and i gave them all my knives. i really thought i had crossed something serious cause i couldnt feel that i cut there.
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*sits next to solo waving*
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*sits next to m0nk and give m0nk a hug*
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*curls up tight*
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*hugs risen* - hope that is okay
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*sits next to risen and covers risen over with blanket*
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Hides in the corner*sobs*
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*hides* please make the world go away
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yes. hugs ok. tankyou.
*curls up near midnight* |
Balancing act
I'm going from being fine to massive lows just now, everything seems to be getting a bit much. I have been admitted before and can't face going back, I got put in the dementia ward last time as its solitary and locked but the strain it's put on my relationship with my fiancé is unreal. I was with him and engaged before our accident and everything went wrong he now has to split his time between work and caring for me and although he says he doesn't mind I can see the strain on his face and I hate how much I ask of him. I don't want to tell him how bad things are cos it's just more on his shoulders but I'm not sure what is going to be best for him in the long run he doesn't need all this
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hugs stardust
*curls up in corner* please made the bad things go away |
I've never been in a ward before... I would never have been able to afford one if somebody tried to send me. I've gone into the psych people emergency-like before... but I don't have money for that either, now. I wonder how I manage to turn off all of my issues long enough to help with others'... and then can't control them rushing back when I'm alone :( Nighttime is bad. I remember things. I imagine history repeating itself... and I realize exactly how far from true recovery from PTSD I am. During the day it's generally under control, but at night...
I don't want to be a jerk and wake anybody in my household up, they all have work so early in the morning. I feel so alone :'( I want to stop imagining these things, flashing back to those things... but it's like it's always there, in the back of my mind. I could really use some hugs and hot cocoa. I have plenty of blankets, I make them... I have a few spare if anybody needs any... |
Well at least now I feel somewhat better with a shower, some food, and plenty of reading and time and such... but I still can't seem to go to sleep and it's 9am. I need to sleeeeeeeep....
On another note, *curls into sleepy ball with a cat* I do have quite a few extra blankets, tea and random stuff to share ;) Sorry the cat doesn't like other people, or I'd share him, too :P |
*wave*
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*hugs and waves to all*
I give up. Make it stop. I want to give in, but I can't. |
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