Hey Zowie - I bet you are feeling pretty lost right now - come and chat to us

I am feeling lost, and so alone.
Why don't they take me seriously? The crisis team seem to think that having a cup of tea or watching some tv will stop me from wanting to venture out and stab someone.
I just want to die, and no one seems to care.

you know we care - but i totally understand how you are feeling. Do you have anybody at all that understands how strong the urges are and how bad you are feeling that could speak to someone for you. It seems so wrong that the 'Professionals" don't get it and I am so sorry that they think you are OK when you know that your'e not. Anything I can do to help just let me know - even if it's only listening - I can do that xxx

Thanks for the warm welcome Katch :satisfied:

Zowie, sorry you're feeling so alone. Would it help to have a bit of a rant and let your feelings out? *hugs*

I think Zowie has gone for a while - hopefully she will be back soon.

*walks in* hello everyone. I am Addison.

Hi Addison - sorry it's a bit quiet in here tonight - but I'm happy to see you - I was just about to give up on any company in here for now - I just hope everyone is out there having fun and enjoying the weekend - I do miss them all though.

Hey I have been to the statue on your photo - Rio de Janeiro: The Christ ,Corcovado - the views from there looking down on the city are amazing.

well - if anyone does pop in I said Hi to you and left some hugs for you all. Hope to see some of you later - but if not take care and stay safe. miss you all.

Big welcomes to Addison and irkeninvader (sorry i dont know your name :-()

Heyyy Katch how are you?

Sorry to be anti-social guys...but...theres a dark corner with my name on :(

hello everyone.
this time difference sure is annoying.
i am so tired. on the upside my lecture finished early this morning - was back by 8.43. wish i could go back to bed.
my damn cough won't go away.
i was thinking last night, i haven't cut for 2 weeks. i don't even feel pleased. every day gets harder and harder to resist it. i really want to hold out till the 29th, when i see my psychologist, but it's 10 more days :S
i don't know if i can do that, its sooooooooo tempting.
i decided yesterday i'm going to write a story, i was supposed to be studying but oh well.
hope everyone is ok.

hey alexx. where did u come from? i swear u weren't here when i looked to see who was viewing before i posted......maybe im just going mad....
dark corners are good. how are you?
welcome Addison and irkeninvader - hope you are doing ok. irkeninvader, thanks for all your lovely replies to my threads :)

*curls up and hides away in a corner*
I'm sorry...just sorry
Not safe...no

I'm...*breaks down*:crying:
I'll be ok...I guess...
I'm like a ninja though...I just...APPEAR

Hey Zed...you ok?
*hugs*

Hi Alexx - I'll be popping in and out if you need anything - as long as you are sure you are OK in the corner -

Effervescence - you are over half way to your appointment from your last cut - if you can hold out for 2 weeks I think you can do another 10 days - the urges may seem to be getting stronger - but have you ever tried to give upsmoking - there's this little green monster called nick oteen and the longer he goes with out tobaco the angrier he gets so the louder he shouts for it - but if you don't give in to him evenutally he just goes away - try and think when you want to cut that it's the same monster and when you ignore him he cries a bit louder but he will go away.
Hope that helps a bit.

ooooh clever alexx :) be safe for me? *hugs*

hi Zed. how are you doing these days? do you remember the PM i sent you about my friend? it would be great to be able to tell her that, these years later, you were still hanging in there (if that was ok with you, of course).

thank you katch.

wat the hell is wrong with my computer?? it says im the only person on, and no guests either.....

Well...it obviously wont pick up on me...
I'm a ninja....

(if I keep telling myself that...maybe I'll feel better)

don't worry it seems that people are appearing and disappearing like magic tonight - maybe it's a magic psych room tonight
****sits down and pulls a rabbit out of a hat!!****

:-O Clever ^_^

are ninja's good? do hope so... waving my magic wand at Alexx

oooh a magic room!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!
i WISH magic was really real, so much.
off to more lectures but will check on you guys later on xx

I'm a nice ninja :]

a nice ninja who REALLY wants to burn her own house down...><

glad you crossed that out - it's probably best you don't - why do you want to do that at the moment

Reason To Believe - My name is Jess, nice to meet you :)

Effervescence - You give such good support to everyone else, it's only right you should get some too :) And well done on the not cutting! You're doing so well. Try to take it day by day if it's only ten days til your counsellor gets back. Writing a story sounds like a good way to keep distracted.

And on a side note, ninja's are ace!

Because I'm trying not to hurt myself...and I can't...hold...on much longer ><
Just...sat here flicking a lighter on and off.
It'd be so easy.
So easy to burn.
no worries.
no anything.

hi jess...I'm Alexx :)

Hey Alexx :) Please stay safe with your lighter :S Ninjas can't be sneaky if they're on fire...

Alexx, please be careful - chat to us instead or see if you can distract yourself somehow if you dont want to talk.xxx

Hi Jess, how are you?

I'm okay at the moment thanks Katch, how are you tonight?

My nana and Grandad came round before...and...it was awful :-(
I've always loved my grandad so much...but he was..different today... he didnt defend me or hug me or anything...
I dont know what to do...
everything I knew is crumbling from under me...
I dont want to do this anymore...

Join the club

Sorry for invading, won't happen again

Aww hun i'm sorry *huge hugs* Is there anything you can do to take you mind off things? X

Maybe your Grandad was just havign a bad day himself - or maybe you seemed stronger to him and he didn't feel he needed to defend you. I'm sorry you feel let down by him though.
When things change around us it gets really scary - I really hope that next time you see him he is more like his normal self with you - if you get the chance can you ask him about it? Hugs xxx

You arent invading.
I told you to pop in.
Welcome to my home...
:]

I don't want this anymore

Hi there Automatik Teknicolour, it's my first time in here today too and everyone's very nice, don't worry :)

What's up, Automatik? Want to talk about it?

I'm another Jess
I'm not having a good day :-(

Thing is?
It's stupid stuff, but it's pushed me too far
He's pushed me too far

Do you want to talk about it? Might help to get it off your chest. You can PM me if you need someone to talk to but don't feel you can talk on here. *hugs*

he's doing it on purpose.
Because he can.
I wouldnt be suprised if his future wife becomes another figure on the domestic abuse stats tbh.
It'll end up going that way...
Ive seen it...felt it before...
and if he carries on....I swear to god...
well...*strokes her lighter*

Please be careful. Maybe put the lighter somewhere safe for now til you feel a bit better about things? I'm sorry things are hard at the moment *hugs*

i think i need to check in here for a while.
xxx

Yep, it'll end up being me
Bored now. Bed soon. Yes
Can't hurt myself there...

Hey Kija, how are you tonight?

Jess, if you're leaving us please look after yourself. If you ever need someone to talk to, you're welcome to PM me *hugs*

Kjirsten - really good to see you - hows things?

Alexx please be careful with the lighter hunny - I'm sorry you are feeling so bad.

Welcome Automatik teknicolour - feel free to pop by anytime.

Jess - you are really lovely to everyone.

Bored and useless
Ill and weak
Weak minded and annoyed
Tired and wanting to hurt...
Sums it up

Howdy Kija. You ok?

Jess'car. Take care of yourself. I need you in one piece. And you can always pop back in :)
I'm alwayyyyyssss in and out...more often in though....hmmm
oh well....I love it.

I should be ok....I've already started one fire tonight....in the garden...

Is there something that's set you off feeling so bad Jess?

*hugs Katch* :)