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I'm feeling really panicky today, no one would believe me until they did my pulse and it was 125.
I am moving into the denial tent permanently with my power shower and luxury shower products. How are you? least its only 2 days now |
yeah, i know, but its getting harder and harder to be "good" :(
are you panicky for any reason? *gives you hot chocolate* |
*pounces on chocolate* thanks needed that!
You've done so well just keep going for 2 days we're all here hon, i know how hard it is and i know 2 daays can seem neverending but you can do it! I'm panicky cos i woke up panicky, then i saw my dr who talked about when i go back to the hostel, i can't call it home, and i really don't want to go back there. My flat won't be ready for another 5/6 mths. Not that they are looking at discharge yet anyway. Its like i don't want to be in hospital but theres nowhere i do want to be :( |
Yesterday we saw some great ruins at Chaco Canyon. Only some one I know hot heat sick, not enough to drink. Still it was absolutely awesome. My husband has planned for us to see more ruins today.
I am a week and a half from home and have a tooth ache. My husband was good enough to look it over for me and sees no evidence of a cavity. It is off and on, so I'll just have to remember to eat on the other side. I'm also nervous cause if it needs a filling it will be my first in 20 years! oooh it hurts. |
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Jo, how you feeling? Chloe, hope you're hanging on sweetheart! xxx Susan, sounds like fun :) *hugs Jermery, Jo, Chloe, Susan, Callie, Alex, Jess and anyone else who needs 'em* |
*huge hugs helen*
I read ur post in Arrrgh, i hope ur ok there... Have u patched urself up yet? Hope so...try and tc of urself xx |
*huge hugs back*
Nah I haven't patched it up tbh. Might put a plaster over it.... |
I'm... just about ok with meds for the panic.
Hells please take care and patch yourself up *hugs* At my dads so internet working!!! |
You people and my meds, lol. Today will make it a week, I'll see about taking them after that. Just an experiment gone awry *shrug*
Oh. Chloe, you're right... I'd been sick and felt much less intoxicated so wasn't worried about hurting myself or anyone else but you're right... They'ed give a **** and I'd become even more nuts than I already am:pinch: Chloe, two more days luv, you're doing so well. lol is it strange that I am 'excited' for you that it's two days now? *snuggles*s Blondie-mom, I'm sorry to hear about your tooth ache :-( I hope it goes away soon *hugs*. It sounds like you're trip is a lot of fun otherwise though. Helen, you ok there luv? How bads the cut? *snuggles* Jo *massive hugs* wish I knew what to say to make things better. To be sure I shouldn't be talking with my aversion to hospital but I'm sure if they're keeping you it's for a good reason, for 'your own good' as it were. No help, I know, sorry. Jeremy, happy birthday :-) hope all is well hun and you've manahed to get some sleep. Hmmm, I'll whine later, lol, lectures gonna start |
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I'll shut up about it then:)
Whats up hon? |
Sorry Jo if I sounded rude. :)
Oh just people pissing me off because they can't get the simple messgae of "I don't want you as my friend and leave me alone" That's just one of the things, I wrote a bit of ranty post in my thread if you wanna see? :) x |
Well at least you are putting yourself first thats good. i had people like that pestering me on facebook and stuff so i blocked them now.
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*joins ally and helen in the corner with wine*
I feel horrible. |
Jo, yeah I guess it is good :)
Zowie, what's wrong sweetheart? Ugh. My mum is doing my head in >.< I am wearing my armwarmers again today. No comment yesterday but today she automatically asked if I'd been cutting my hand again. I said no...(forgetting there's a cut on my hand- which was an accident tho)...and she asked anywhere else...and I went nooo. She's like good cus you don't wanna be doing that blah de blah. WTF does it matter if I have? :S Course me forgets she wants me to finish trying clothes on which will bare my entire arm. Godamm >.< I'll try them on when she's out I guess...and hope it's looking more better on Thursday when I go swimming. **** why do I forget this important situations...>.< |
*hugs zowie*
Whats up hun helen mums are just like that, i think they are sent to try us it like a rule of the universe or something :) |
Jo, I think you're right hun. I really do. LOL! I mean I love her to bits and we're pretty close. But I'm still uncomfortable with her knowing bits about my "bad side" as I call it...she still doesn't really understand how to deal with my self harm. I wish she just ignored it tbh. >_<
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I've got three papers due the end of this week and I am SO not even close to done with any of them. I've got lectures to attend and work to go to every day this week... I am exhausted and I just don't know how I'm going to get these done...
And I don't know if I want to try and get in to see my therapist tomorrow... actually I know I don't want to... but I'll email him anyway I guess... What I REALLY want to do..? Go home, climb into bed and sleep forever:crying: damn it all to hell Sorry everyone is not doing too well... even more sorry I'm so useless atm... |
Helen - i know its easier when people just ignore rather than say the wrong thing, my mum has this weird fascination and always wants to see and i hate people seeing.
Ally - maybe seeing someone will help, can you get extensions on your papers? does seem a lot to have on. |
I just wrote my partner a letter, because he said he wants to be single for a while (long story - There's a thread in vets support about it). Writing it's really drained me.
Plus I went to a funeral today which bought me down. And I know that tonight I'm going to break my one month free of SH. |
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