heh. ifailatlife >.<

How do you fail at life, Heather?

heh. cuz im weak and ended up cutting >.<
and hope dont gotta go clothes shopping anytime soon >.>
and f*ck have gp appointment next week... frick

-hugs heather- I'm sorry that you ended up cutting. :( Do you need medical attention? Please look after your wound(s). What kind of appointment do you have next week, if you don't mind me asking?

nah its fine. not deep enough ><
and its just to check how meds are working

I hope your appointment goes well.

I think I scared one of my online friends away. Go me. I suck. -sighs-

*Hugs Helen*
*Hugs Kitty*
*Hugs Kahlia*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Felicia*

I'm sorry I was so angry at myself last night guys , thankyou all for your support :)

-hugs mark- How you be?

I'm feeling okay thanks Kitty , if only these urges would go away it would be nice.... How are you Kitty Hun?

*hugs mark*

*hugs heather, kitty, and mark*

*Hugs Heather* How are you ?

*Hugs Laura* How are you?

I'm not doing too well tonight. At all. Sorry. Hope your urges go away. -hugs mark-

-hugs laura- how you be?

*Squishes Kitty Tons*

I've gotten up pretty early an hours nap is in order I think *Hugs Ward*

Thanks Mark.

I just really suck. I don't deserve a baby. I deserve pain. And death. Sorry.

-curls up-

im alright. getting sleepy.. 1:23am here. should go to bed soon. trying to get rid of anxiety so i can relax :-/

*hugs mark* how r u?

*hugs kitty* im sorry you aren't doing well hun. Always around if u need to talk.

*snuggle* you dont deserve pain or anything bad :( you's so nice an caring mhm

*huggles all*

finished the assignment. just got to be proofread and finalised then submitted. :|

-hugs laura- Thanks hun. I don't want to burden you with my problems. Especially when you should be going to bed soon. I don't want to possibly upset you right before bed. I don't want to upset anyone..

-snuggles heather- Thanks, but I don't agree.

I'm sorry. I'm just so low tonight. I found out that I have scared off one of my online friends...a really close one, at that. She used to call me 'auntie' but now she calls me Kitty. She doesn't even get on facebook anymore or messenger. At least, not when I am on. She is in Australia, so the time zone is way different. She might get on later when I am not on. I don't know. But she doesn't talk to me anymore. The only reason I was able to talk to her today was because I logged into the game where I originally met her and saw her on it. Started talking to her. She talked to me a lot different than she used to. Then another "friend" called me a slut.

I try to help people the best I can. But why is it that when I turn to people for help, they turn and walk away? I don't understand. Why do I have to suck so much? I should just die. The world would be such a better place without me.