*hugs lia, lore, and ribenalion*
i think shes ok. and i'm ok. i want a baby though :/

*Clings to Sarah back* I love you guys. I really do. None of you can ever do anything too stupid, sometimes, I think this ward is all I have.

You will one day Nicole, but you're still pretty young. It would be better to get some qualifications and savings so you can give your child a better life, but I'm sure anyone would be lucky to have you as a mother.

thanks lia. i just really want one now. i was thinking about it earlier, i mean, i look into my future, and i see me going to uni and getting a job, but i see myself already having a child, and i dont see there being time to have a baby then, it's kinda like, i see myself having a baby in the near future. idk, i just want one.

*Sneaks in* Hi everyone :)

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Louise*

What is it you want Nicole? The baby, or a son/daughter? Someone to love you as much as you love them? Someone to protect in a way you never were?

*Hugs Ian* Hey. You alright?

*hugs back* I could be better. How are you?

*cuddles Lia* Its all I have sometimes too.

*cuddles Nicole* I have that feeling often. I know my medication makes it impossible to have a healthy pregnancy and my medication would cause issues raising a child and I know I'm not ready and some days I never want to have children but I get insane urges, every time my belly looks a little bloated I sit and think about it for hours. I'm spilling out things I never share with most people here, you all make me feel so safe.

Edit - *cuddles Louise* I'm not too bad really, also could be better though.

*cuddles Ian* Spotted your name, sorry about forgetting :( How are you?

*hugs Ian* how are you?

Its ok Sarah. I'm ok thanks. Have been struggling a bit but im doing ok tonight.

Night everyone, I am going to have a lie down, really tired. *hugs everyone*

Night night Louise *hugs*

I'm like that with the ward Sarah. I can't tell anyone anything in real life, but I can spill things here that I would never say out there. I feel safe in here, like you'll all still love me whatever I say.

*cuddles ward*
Low night. I do not cope well.. at all.
I've SIed... worse than I normally do. I'm not scared that it's worse though, but I'm also not sure if I'm fully registering what's going on around me, inside me, and all that anymore.



Monday cannot get here soon enough. My psych and counselor and social worker are all gonna hate me for lying about how well I've been, but what can you do?

I think I'm off to bed before I can do anything else
*leaves hugs and care packages*

hey, thought id come and introduce myself. im kee, im 22. im a student in my final year of uni. think i need to check in here and get something to help me sleep! its 05:40 here, i've had 4 hours sleep max. my parents are coming to visit in about4-5 hours time. i can barely function. need to find my happy smiley im ok mask :S how is everyone? got any fun plans for today?

*Hugs Lore*

*Hugs Lia* You have emotions , or you woulden't be crying .

*Hugs Nicole* I'm so sorry to hear that :(

*Waves to Owen*

*HUUUUGS Felicia* Please please stay safe hun :S

*Hugs Kee* Hi , I'm Mark , welcome to the ward :)

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Louise*

This Girl is so talented , I've been following her for a while and this is a pretty uplifting song so I thought I'd share :)



*Breaks out my Hiking boot and heads to town*

*hugs everyone tons & tons*

Nicole, I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin :( It's really hard, especially if you were going to be a godparent too. I know that feels (will send a pm about it though) and I can relate so badly on wanting a baby too. I really do but I'm finally getting my life sorted & when I do have one....they'll hopefully have the best start in life :) Better one than they would have now anyway :S

Lia, I'm glad you got to have the cry you wanted. You do have emotions & you care about people so you're not an ice queen.

Felicia, please be honest with your psych etc, they can help you.

Mark, how you doing?

We've had snow here at last =D

*Hugs Helen* I'm feeling okay today thanks , how are you ?

I'm okay so far :D *hugs Mark*

:( *Feels low* , someone made a nasty remark , called my post asking for recommended Gothy films a Pointless post , am I being too sensitive? I don't need to be made to feel like this :( If people aren't going to be nice or helpful why do they have to make mean remarks ?
Sorry.