Hey. I'm ok, slighty ashamed by last night and the mother is driving me nuts. Other than that I consist of minute particles. This 'family meal' is fun. Not. Hope everyone's ok and that you manage to stay si free. Mark. X

*huggles everybody*

I read 5 Chapters of my textbook today and my course starts officially tomorrow. I'm excited and I've got a headache. Woot. I also have to go for a 2.5 km walk tomorrow to get some medication from a nasty chemist. It's going to make for a fun day ...

Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes ^_^ had a great night.

*hugs Mark* Hope your day goes okay

*hugs Lia* Technology is awesome :) Enjoy the christening :)

Kahlia!! Thank you :) How are you doing? I'm doing okay actually atm. Had a bit of a moment last night fighting ED urges while we were out but managed to fight them and I think I'm still on a high from my birthday :D hehe. *hugs* What are you studying? Sorry, might have missed that :/ Good luck with it! My new study period starts tomorrow too :D Hope your headache goes away x

*sends hugs to everyone* Sorry guys, I'm really tired so might come back and reply better later.. hope everyone has a good day/night :)

Yo wardies. Someone's been drinking. Why do I feel the need to drink to forget? I'm 16 I should be drinking for the fun of it, not for the peace. 'Tevs. I don't care. X

Spies Kaytee* hi. Would you like to join us? X

Oh you have. Sorry didn't seee it.

Hi everyone, hope we're all feeling a bit better today *hugs*

* hugs everyone *
I feel unsafe right now raw feelings of fear

Hey Reaper. *Hugs* What is it you're scared of? Please try to stay safe, is there anything you can do to distract yourself? Anyone you can go and bother just so you're not alone? We're always here to listen and give support if you need us to.
x

P.S Sobered up a bit now. Feel sick though.

*hugs everyone* I'm here if you need to talk.

I'm still so triggered to overdose but i'm trying to remind myself of the bad things about overdosing and being in hospital: worries about them not being able to get a cannula in and getting liver damage (they had trouble cannulating the last time I was there), being judged, the food, not getting much sleep, being pestered by other patients. But I am still so tempted. I don't know what to do.

I'm SO ****ING ANGRY still.

:crying:

And hurt, and betrayed. I should know better than to trust people IRL other than Jarrod and my bestie.

Should know that damn well by now. No more telling my sister stuff about my private life. No more. I'm tempted to block her entirely from my LJ.

I ****ing hate my life.

*hugs everyone.*
i am such an idiot :(

*hugs April* I'm sorry you are so angry , thanks for the reminder of the name too!!

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Claire*

*Hugs Kaytee*

*Hugs Reaper*

Hi guys,

Hayley has moved house and she texted me her new address .
I think it would be a good idea for the ward to send her a happy new home card.
I will buy one and post it.
Will everyone who wants their name to be signed on the card let me know and I'll sign it from them .
Thanks:)

*Hugs Nicole* Whats up ?:S

Lindsey- Please try and stay safe. Keep on remembering those bad points about ODing, and how much it could go wrong. We're all here to support you as long as you need it. *Hugs*

Nicole- You're not an idiot. *Hugs* What's the matter?

April- Sorry you still feel that why. Have you spoken to your paretns or sister yet? I refused to speak to my bestie for weeks when she did what she did. My initial reaction was to refuse to ever trust anyone again. With anything. You will calm down in time and begin to see why she did it, as I did, but you'll never really forget and you're never gonna be happy about it either. But it gets better.

And Mark, you can sign my name :)

*hugs mark and lia* i AM an idiot, i had a argument with my mum last night.
*trigger, SI.*
then i cut quite deep and my mum steri stripped it and bandged it and now ive had an allergic reaction to the bandages :(

I'll sign the card, Mark, of course. :)

Nicole, sorry you're not doing well. *huggles*

Lia, you're right, but right now I feel raw and numb. I'm forcing myself to compartmentalize and stop thinking/feeling it or else the anger overwhelms me.

I feel awful.

*huggles april* thanks, i just feel like an idiot :(
oh and mark, can you sign the card for me aswell please? :D