*cries*
I think I need to be in a real psych ward.
And just the fact that I am saying that scares me to death!!!
I just don't feel like I can do this anymore...

*disengages herself from the corner*

Hi all. Sorry I'm not up to doing individual replies. Just wanted to offer you all some hugs.

*leaves hugs for everyone who wants/needs/can accept them*

*Sneaks in and curls up*

'Scuse the lack of replying to anyone right now, but I has no concentration x_o

Hi all,

checking-in, feeling so so, think I am too tired to think straight

*hugs Danya, Katrica, Kahlia, BooundNoMore, Gracey, Pomegranate* (sorry can't always remember names)

Had a quiet day (system was down at work for half the day so didn;t have to do much!
Not been sleeping well so stupidly tired.

*hugs anyone who wants/needs one*

*Curls up on a couch and goes to sleep*

Kat: *Hugs back* LMAO, that too!

*Hugs Mary Anne* Going to sleep sounds like a fine idea to me. I'm knackered x_o

I'm Lucy *shakes hand*.
& yours?

Thank you. I somehow managed to get it all done in the space of about 5 minutes flat because I suddenly got into a bit of a manic-esque mood. Weird, lol.
I told the person about me buggering off to Oxford & about how the other day I wanted to kill myself, but like, I'm not that bad now. I just.. I just get really down sometimes. & yeah. Just do weird, off the wall things. It's okay though. I said I'll talk to my GP tomorrow morning, which I will.
I just wanted to make everything stop. & I figured that that was through suicide, but she said I should pause instead of stop & take myself into a ward. I didn't like that. >.< Scary. I'm not mad. I'm not that unstable. I'm fine.

*hugs all*

sorry for not bigger replies.. i'm exhausted.. just wanted to let everyone know i've read all there posts here and am thinking of you all.. take care.

*leaves more hugs and cuddles*

*hugs back* xxx

dflgkjsrgkljrkldj Who the ****ing hell thinks it's smart to pass a link around with SEVERE pictures of SI, if it makes you sick?! Okay, so the guy didn't know that I SI until I told him NOT TO ****ING DO THAT but...Christ >__<;;

^ *sends cuddles* =[

Thanks *hugs back*

I feel really pooey :( *curls up in corner*

You and me both, Emma *hugs*

My best friends, other friend has been bitching about me on facebook. I know it is stupid but I am supposed to spend the whole weekend with him. I don't want to. Before this I couldn't see how to get through a weekend without serious harm, hell I can't even see how I will find the energy to drive to Nottingham. Now, I just don't see the point in even trying. He clearly doesn't want me there, but my best friend doesn't get MI and will just tell me to ignore him and come anyway. I just want to spend the weekend in bed and hopefully stop breathing or something. I have just had enough. Anyone ever get to the point where even harming seems like too much of an effort? :(

>___< *Hugs Emma tightly* Sorry, I don't really know what to say

Emma I can understand that. I have been there befor, it is not fun.*hugs*

Sorry for the lack of replies I am off in another world. Sorry again.

*Hugs and hot chocolate with marshmellows in it*

Oh God. I have forgotten how to harm...again. The one thing I cared about and had left. Run out of room on my 'favourite' spot. I need to harm properly, but it is not 'pinging' as it should. I suck, I can't even harm properly. I don't know what to do. :crying:

*panicing*

Holy crap... just got told the house is going back on the market... omg omg omg omg. Looks like we're going to have to look for another place. We have no money though. This is just ****. We can't afford to live anywhere else. I hate this. And knowing my luck it's going to interfere with uni... I'm going to look into changing one subject into off campus so that means it's one less day going into uni. So with all the inspections (that we will have to do) and all the time cleaning and blah all that **** it won't interrupt me going into uni. As for THEIR inspections.. great.. will have to figure out a plan coz if I'm home studying I'm going to be kicked out of there so people can come and look... ohhhh... panic attack.... dammnn.

Hello Lucy *waves* I'm Arwen xx

*Hugs Emma and katie*