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caiden 13-05-2016 10:13 PM

just signed myself out of the local mental hospital A.M.A. at least two weeks before they believed I was realy ready to, by lying for the previous week all week long of course, and now im beginning to seriously question that decision....majorly tripping, and ive only been out not even 48 hours yet!

Doikers 14-05-2016 10:47 AM

Hi Caiden , I'm Mark , How are you Today?

Hey Ashley ,you're not Pathetic hun , believe me , I am going through some major heart ache (Although different circumstances) so I kinda know how you're feeling . Feel free to PM me if you want to talk :)

Marshmallow. 14-05-2016 01:32 PM

How are you doing now Caiden? Do you have any follow up appointments?
It just feels pathetic, like yeah all my MH issues were already there but the breakup is what causing me to feel so bad. When I was admitted I felt like the nurses were laughing at me like, look at the stupid 24 y/o that OD'd cause her bf dumped her.
I think I will take you up on that offer Mark, thanks.

Eir 14-05-2016 04:10 PM

I'm a worthless coward.
*curls up under a bed* I'm safe for the moment. Too fried to do anything. Shall force sleep for safety.

Marshmallow. 14-05-2016 07:17 PM

You're not a worthless coward. I do the same, sleep for safety.
How are you doing now? I'm Ashley btw.

Doikers 14-05-2016 08:01 PM

Neither od you are cowards .

Eir 15-05-2016 07:04 AM

I'm Annie. Welcome Ashley.
I am a coward and a liar. Phone call from the Partner saying his mum saw something suggesting I'm not happy in the relationship and was thinking of moving on on Facebook.
I had liked a friends post suggesting these things. I AM not happy with the relationship, and regularly think of running away. But because I'm not in a headspace to admit it to him, I told him I'd liked a friends post and that was all there was to it.
I don't think the relationship is salvageable. His new way of thinking is not compatible with my career or beliefs. I am starting to think he has borderline personality disorder but he doesn't believe in mental illness. I don't like the decisions he's made regarding our daughter.
But I'm not ready to leave him. And I can't talk it out with him because his mindset will confirm I'm betraying him because I'm brainwashed.
I'm a coward cos I hate conflict and therefore lied to him and said it was all good.
And because of this I'm triggered but not enough to overcome the calming of the meds, yet...
Thanks for the reassurance tho.

Doikers 15-05-2016 10:27 AM

I'm gonna leave this jar of hugs here on the table.

I hurt.

Eir 15-05-2016 02:50 PM

*safe hugs for Mark*

RescueIsPossible 15-05-2016 07:29 PM

im really angry today but no clue why...... i was angry last night too....

sorry you are hurting mark hope everything turns out ok...

i get that breakingup with someone can be hard annie. i just broke up with boyfriend. it was really hard for me to do but i feel better now that i went and did it. maybe think of how you will feel afterwards and explain to him how you are feeling. conflict is hard.....

Doikers 16-05-2016 09:57 AM

*Offers safe hugs all round*

Marshmallow. 16-05-2016 11:51 AM

*grabs blanket and pillow and curls up on the big chair in the corner*
I need to stay in here today, keep safe. It's going to be a rough one, I'm struggling to see the point in fighting this any longer.
Hope everyone else is doing okay today.

Kathryn_Anna 16-05-2016 07:01 PM

I hope everyone is doing alright. Sorry I can't be more supportive right now. Life is just throwing me curve balls. Starting tonight my brother in law is staying with us. We'll see how that goes. I can't believe I said yes to that. Ahh.

Eir 17-05-2016 06:34 AM

I find myself needing to store my emotional brain here. Divorce it from myself when at work. And at home. Only way I cope.
* puts a platter of brownies on the table and starts making coffee and tea for everyone*

Doikers 17-05-2016 11:02 AM

Oooo Tea , thanks :)

How are we all?

Eir 17-05-2016 04:23 PM

I'm not sure anything is making an imprint on me. I know I should feel something right now. But I don't. Maybe it worked. Maybe I put that bit of me into cyber space. I just feel pleasantly hollow. It's kinda nice. I wonder if it will hold under stress?
Let's see how this goes....
*passes Tea and brownies to Mark* I think all that means I'm ok. What about you?

Doikers 17-05-2016 06:38 PM

I've been better . . . . Not been much worse really , one thing is keeping me going. The Tea helps though :) I'm off to listen to Taylor Swift . . . .

Doikers 17-05-2016 07:25 PM

I badly need someone to hug me and offer words of support , this is getting far too much for me.

Doikers 18-05-2016 11:33 AM

Hey all. Tea? Coffee? Dr Pepper?

I've been referred to DBT does anyone know anything about that? and for our age group too?

Kathryn_Anna 18-05-2016 06:08 PM

*hugs Mark* What's up?

Seems like coffee is never enough for me. I sleep like crap and have so much to do during the day.

Since it's chilly out here today... *places some warm soup on the table*

Margo 18-05-2016 09:17 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 4034339)
Hey all. Tea? Coffee? Dr Pepper?

I've been referred to DBT does anyone know anything about that? and for our age group too?

No experience of it but age won't come into it. Here's a link to a really useful site. My mht use it in their training for their workshops. Here's the dbt part. There is a lot of good suff on there about cbt and mindfulness too..http://www.get.gg/dbt.htm

Doikers 19-05-2016 11:12 AM

Thank You , Margo :)

How are you all today?

I woke up just emotionally exausted . . . .

Marshmallow. 20-05-2016 01:07 PM

Haven't been on in a few days, how is everyone doing?
*places cake on table*

Doikers 20-05-2016 05:40 PM

OH Wow , Cake! Thanks! How are you Ashley?

Doikers 21-05-2016 12:10 PM

How are all my Peeps Today?

Eir 21-05-2016 03:41 PM

Awake. Sick. Flat. And yourself?

Marshmallow. 21-05-2016 03:43 PM

I'm struggling quite a bit today. I just want the sadness to go away.
How are you?

Doikers 21-05-2016 04:21 PM

I'm here if you wanna talk Ashley , sorry if I fall asleep on on though.

Kahlia1981 22-05-2016 10:17 AM

Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT) works well for some people, and is completely useless for others. Try it and see? It was useless for me but others I know really do benefit from it.

Sorry I've been absent for so long but things have been crazy here with OT and physio visits alongside wheelchair trials and organising domestic care and respite for hubby not to mention doctor's visits. Meh. So sick of being in a wheelchair and being no more than a burden on everyone. Just so dark right now that I'm certain there will never be light again. *sigh* Why do I even bother. No friends in this town, can't drive or leave the house on my own and, aside from all these appointments, no reason to get out of bed.

Marshmallow. 24-05-2016 02:23 PM

Trying to build myself up to go and do a food shop. The fact I have asked my younger sister to come with me is just embarrassing. I'm scared of seeing someone I know and having them ask about Christopher. I'm supposed to be back at work on Tuesday and I can't even go to the shops alone.
On a positive note I finally have a cpn appointment on Monday.
How are we all doing?

Robyn51 24-05-2016 03:13 PM

Not feeling very well at all today!
Been on a long weekend away with my fiancée.
It was a great weekend but I still wasn't feeling great.
Held it all together so we could have a good time.
There was stress with her car, only been driving a month, had to replace the alternator. I know how well we both did reassuring eachother and I managed to navigate us there and back well. So go me for that.
Anyway, took a sleeper last night to get myself rested,
Woken up today, feeling totally wacked out, and pointless and sad that she is back to work. The silly thoughts are creeping in so I've vacated to the bedroom for some reading and a nap.
3 weeks ago I relapsed badly (won't go into detail) but found out I've been suffering psychotic depression for months.
So I think this virtual psych ward is the best place for me today
Good luck with your food shop marshmallow. My food related challenge today is to cook fish pie for dinner. Mmmmm yum

Doikers 24-05-2016 05:07 PM

I'm not up to much other than to say hey to you all and welcome Robyn , I'm Mark .

I ache inside.

Kathryn_Anna 25-05-2016 01:21 PM

Sorry you ache Mark.

Welcome Robyn.

Day just started and I'm done already. My schedule has been all messed up for 2 days now. With so much going on I need appointments and things to go as planned. And my son had so much anxiety yesterday he was making himself sick. With hubby's schedule at work I feel like a single parent when it comes to all the health stuff. It's so exhausting. :(

Doikers 25-05-2016 04:58 PM

*Hugs Kathryn*

Doikers 26-05-2016 11:43 AM

Hiya Guys , How are you all today?

Kathryn_Anna 27-05-2016 01:13 PM

Not doing too well. How are you Mark?

*places refreshments on the table*

Kathryn_Anna 27-05-2016 04:14 PM

So done with today. Can I just give up now? *raises white flag*

Doikers 27-05-2016 07:27 PM

I'm not doing great either , Kathryn *Hugs*

Kathryn_Anna 27-05-2016 07:58 PM

*hugs* Mark. I'm sorry you're not doing well either. I'm here if you need to talk.

Doikers 28-05-2016 11:43 AM

*Hugs Kathryn* Nothing that I haven't already Said , The Woman I Utterly Love with all my Heart is on the wrong Continent , or I am , Or Both :( Too many feelings.

How are you all?

Eir 28-05-2016 03:23 PM

Hi all.
Am down. Exams looming, res school looming, very poor result in a subject, been ill, all of which on top of everything else is tripping me off the deep end and whispers are louder. Didn't sleep at all the other night. Burying myself in books to avoid my reality. Whispers are encouraging me to hurt myself.
Don't know what to do.
*hugs for anyone who wants One*

Doikers 28-05-2016 04:26 PM

Hey Annie, Am sorry you are down *Offers Safe Hugs* Are you still ill? What is res school?

Kathryn_Anna 28-05-2016 07:17 PM

Sorry you are feeling down Annie.

I hope you can be on the same continent with your love Mark. I can only imagine how hard that is.

I'm feeling on edge. Hubby asked how I was doing. I told him stressed and worn out. Pretty much got no response. Typical. :/ I feel like I'm drowning and instead of treading to breathe every once and awhile it just feels easier to drown instead.

Marshmallow. 28-05-2016 11:06 PM

This is too hard, feels like everyday is just a battle to stay alive.
I hurt myself tonight and I don't know why, it didn't help. It never does.

Eir 29-05-2016 04:19 AM

Still a bit flu-ey. Just finished my antibiotics.
Residential school is a week of practical learning for External students. It's a full week, study wise, and I'll be away from home the whole time. Which is good and bad.
Just feeling not ready, especially with all the crap going on right now.

Doikers 29-05-2016 11:10 AM

Oh Ashley , I'm sorry you are struggling so much *Offers Safe Hugs*

Will you be far away from home , Annie?

Eir 29-05-2016 02:43 PM

Yup, interstate. Which in Australia, is generally hours away.
* hugs for Ashley and Mark and Kathryn* - these were supposed to be handed out in the previous post. I'm having trouble with viewing and responding to whole things right now.
Kathryn, I've had similar responses from the man. It left me feeling empty, angry and worthless. Have no advice on how to deal with it. But I feel for you.

Ashley, we keep fighting, in the hope that things will improve.

Doikers 30-05-2016 12:11 PM

How are you all this Bank Holiday / Memorial Day / Whatever Day it is where you are ?

Eir 30-05-2016 03:29 PM

Exhausted, yourself?

Marshmallow. 30-05-2016 07:04 PM

Had my first CPN appointment this morning, it was hard going.
First day back at work tomorrow, I'm terrified.
Hope everyone else is well.

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