I'm sorry you're going to miss it. I hope you feel better soon and get back to it, Tamo.

Have you been to those places, Beckie? One of my councellors moved to New Zealand.

Been to Amsterdam but nowhere else in the Netherlands. Haven't been to new Zealand but have always wanted to go. I will go there one day.

I just worry they will find out about the mentals and chuck me out.

Hopefully not.
Isn't religion all about acceptance and not judging people?

I'd hope so. I've asked people in the know and they say it's none of their business.

I'm sure you'll be fine.
And if they aren't accepting, are they really worth being around? I wouldn't want to be around people that didn't accept me for who i was.

It is now pouring down with rain. I have to leave for the train station in 20 mins. Lol

The rain and wind died down just before I was leaving the house. So lucky!

I hope the rain stopped for you, Beckie.

I hope everything turns out ok with your group, Tamo, and they accept you as you are. I don't see why illness should mean you can't go back to the group when you're better.

Thanks guys.

I have no idea what the weather is here! I have the curtains closed. *looks outside* just grey here.

It is very cold and we are on a train platform.
Jasmine has a frappucino and is complaining about being freezing :eyeroll:

Hi again.
Sorry for disappearing. I am not doing so great and i tend to cut off contact as one of the first things. In spite of me knowing that cutting contact is something i should definetely not do!!!! I am tired, stressed and the symptoms in my body just keep coming. I don't sleep Well because i ache all over. If i take painkillers it upsets my stomach. Rude!!!!

Tamo, i Think your prayer group Will be happy to have you back when you feel better. A lot of people aren't really scared of mental stuff, they just don't really know how to handle it and what to say and such. Maybe if you feel okay with it, you can tell them they can ask you about it??

Sorry about the rude weather, Lindsay. I hope you Got to your appointment and back without being washed away.

I hope you'll have fun at your nan's Beckie. A weekend away sounds like it might cheer you up :)

Hello all.

We're always here for you zurg!

Thank you!
The train was delayed by a lot so we stood in the cold for a long time. And the train was super busy! We luckily managed to nab 2 seats!
At nanny's now and we've had chinese!

Morning everyone!

Morning Beckie how are you doing today? Last day of holidays today :angry:

I'm ok thanks.

Aww. Have you enjoyed yourself?

Good morning :)

I hope you had a good time insig. Will you be doing anything or just travelling?

Are you up to much Cacoethes?

I've got up for meds and to get dressed but I'm going back to bed because I slept badly.

We've just come to smyths toys superstores. Been here for over 30 minutes. Jasmine can't decide what to get apart from a stitch squishmallow. I've had to come outside for fresh air because the lights were giving me a headache.

Fair enough! Hope you feel more awake when you wake up!

Thanks, I do. What did Jasmine choose in the end?

I had a nice visit with Mum and my sister. I've put away my clean clothes and made my bed.

Hi everyone.

I hope you enjoy the last day of your holiday, Dawn.

I hate shopping with other people, can Jasmine not just have the squishmallow? Does she want to spend all her money? Lol!

I hope you get some good rest, Tamo.

The weather is nicer here at the moment although it was raining earlier but not as bad as yesterday. I've washed my hair and cleaned the kitchen. Going to try and reply to a pen pal letter in a bit.

Ninja Tamo!

I'm glad you're feeling more awake and had an enjoyable visit. Nice to get everything tidied too.

Well done on being clean osc :)

Thanks. Well done with everything you've managed too. Do you feel a bit better for it?

No! But it will be OK. Everything is OK in the end.

My nanny spent £64 on stuff for jasmine in the toy shop!
They came out eventually and we went to costa.
Then i got dropped off in the city so i could get some trainers. Then got the bus back.
Going out for a late lunch soon! I got my nanny some flowers from M&S.

It's 18° and sunny here! Lovely today!

Well done for doing your tasks lindsay!

Are you managing to occupy yourself, Tamo.

Lucky girls Beckie and Jasmine!

What a lovely day Cacoethes (but expensive!) :) where are you going for lunch?

I'm not doing very well at distracting, all I can focus on is flying. The nurse said to listen to music.

Distracting can be hard. Please try though. The urgency of your feelings will lessen with time.

We are very lucky! Its always expensive when we come to nanny's! She treats us!
We don't know where we're going for lunch yet.

Listening to music is a good distraction!

It's improved things enough to be able to ask for PRN.

The obsession with leaving has turned into anxiety which I know how to deal with.

It's a shame you're now feeling anxious but I'm glad it's something you can handle, Tamo. I hope you can get some relief from it though.

You have a good Nanny, Beckie. :-)

My nanny is amazing!
We went to an american diner type restaurant.
Me and nanny both had huge steaks! Best steak ever!
And Jasmine had a burger.
And i had a purple rain cocktail!

I am back in Wales. It's cold and rainy. I get to pick up my cat tomorrow from the cattery. Apparently she has been eating well.

I'm glad everyone has been eating well lol.

Morning everyone

Morning Beckie how are you?

I'm ok thanks
How are you?

I am ok apart from a little bit stiff. But I get my kitty back today so am looking forward to seeing her (she's been in a cattery).

Ah that will be good!

Me and Jasmine are going home today.
Hoping it won't rain again!

Morning everyone x

Hey tamo!
How are you?

I'm ok. I took all my permitted PRN and I think that helped me sleep better.

How's your morning going?

That's good!

Me and Jas are going for breakfast with some friends in a minute! Friends from here lol
Don't wanna mention names in case they aren't happy with that!

Aw that's really cool, I hope you all have a good time.

We had a lovely time thanks!
I had avocado eggs benedict. Very yummy!

Sounds revolting!

I have had a shower. My posh razor has gone missing so I had to use a scabby ward one.

Things always go missing in hospital!
And the ward razors suck

I didn't trust it with my legs so I've got hairy legs.

Doubt anyone cares in hospital!