Oh thats good that you have an appointment Oliver , What will those people do for you ? Sorry I'm dense on the whole LGBT deal , but willing to learn :)

they recommend your gp to prescribe you hormones, monitor you and refer you for surgery when you have been on hormones for a certain amount of time.

Oh okay Oliver , thanks for explaining :)

*hugs Mark* how are you?

I'm anxious a bit , at my parents but I took my Laptop to my old room , I had the dentists , it went better than expected.
How are you Oliver *Hugs*

*Cuddles everyone*

Hello all :)

It's good that you have an appointment Oliver :)

RAAWR Lia :)

*hugs Mark, Charlie and Lia*

I just mainly feeling really ill because of these side effects and anxious, as tomorrow night I'm on a panel at a reception launching LGBT history month in the north west.

*Cuddles Oliver* Is there anything you can do about the side effects? And is that a good thing? lol sorry.

So today is one year since me and one of my closest friends met in hospital after both taking an OD. I sent her this:
One year ago today I did something very silly, but I am glad I did that because if I didn't I would never have met you. I am so proud of you hun for how far you've come in the past year, I know it's been hard at times, and we have both nearly given up more than once, but we made it! One year later we are still fighting! It will all go away in the end, we just need to fight for it. I love you.Xx
I'm waiting for a reply :)

*Hugs Charlie* I met my best IRL friend after an OD too and still meet with her and we both live in the same town now so YEY!

*Hugs Lia* Tomorrows the big hole punch unveiling?

*Hugs Oliver*

yeah its a good thing, but scary
*hugs Charlie* I hope you get a reply soon, thats a lovely letter to somone

*Hugs Mark* sometimes they're the best friends you can have :) I got a reply, it made me cry! lol

*cuddles Ward* my abdomen hurts. Bah. Sorry I've not been about much, things are rough for me right now. Dr doesn't know who I'm seeing and when, and I can't see Mind for over 2 weeks. And my counsellor isn't until late tomorrow night. I just want it to all go away but it won't. I can't make it stop :( Just seems like all the help seems really far away and my fiance is so stressed with having to care for me almost full time, and I wish I could just see someone to get the ball rolling, but everytime I see someone its just diverting me somewhere else. Like jumping from one lilly pad to another in a pond, just going around in circles but never actually making it across. Or spinning on a roundabout, and just as it starts to stop so I can get back on track the person I ask for help spins it harder... Its so frustrating! My head is swimming, and I know I'm being impatient but I'm not 100% safe to stay like this and almost did some stupid things this week... :/

*Hugs Sarah Tons*

*huggles everybody*

tired as heck this morning. had to take a sleeping pill last night or i wouldn't have slept, but the sleeping pill meant i didn't move all night so my back took the brunt of it. and one of the empty units in our block has a faulty smoke alarm and has been beeping all fricking night - not helping. meh.

i guess you win some and you lose some right?

Thanks Mark. Just feeling a bit let down by the entire process right now. I don't know where to turn. I'm not bad enough for crisis out of hours team, but I'm not feeling good.

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Night time Hugs My Wardies .

Night Mark *cuddles*

*hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry you're struggling, but we're always here for you :) I hope you can get it all sorted out soon :/

*Hugs Charlie* That's nice about your friend :)

*Hugs Mark* Yep, tomorrow they shall be reunited :)

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope you manage to sleep alright tonight and don't hurt your back too much.

*Hugs Oliver* Good luck with tomorrow.

*cuddles Lia* thanks. I just feel so out of it. I don't feel safe being left on my own :/

*Night time Hugs Mark*
*Hugs Lia and Sarah*

*cuddles Charlie*

*Cuddles Sarah* I'm sorry you're having such a hard time at the moment hun. Proffesionals suck :(

*hugs Mark (night Mark); Sarah; Lia; Charlie; anyone I've missed (sorry - there was a page turn); anyone who walks in and anyone reading this after I've left*

argh!!!!! why are people in real life such sodding shits. great world war 3 has just begun, great, great.

*Hugs Jill* Cram in a corner of the ward with music blasting in your ears and day dream of Hogwarts or bunnies?

*Hugs Sarah* Are you alone? If you are, please try and stay safe.

thanks lia that made me smile, wish i could just hide in here.

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Kahlia*

Thanks for the hugs! ~Hugs back~

*hugs all* how is everyone doing?

*huggles everyone who can accept*

*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Charlie*
*Hugs Kahlia*
*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Oliver*

How is everyone? I'm tired , I was up at early o'clock and am so not used to it , I need to nap .

Edit :- Napping woulden't work , I coulden't fall asleep , Time to caffeineate :p

*hugs everyone*

*Squishes Lindsay*

How are you, Mark?

I'm feeling squerbley , I don't know to be honest . I have the cyber cafe to volunteer at which last time was a waste of my time andmy MP3 Player has just crapped out on me so *sigh* I need music............

~Hugs everyone~

my ex just text me to say he overheard the other members of my quintet discussing me and saying they want to chuck me out cos I'm not in uni for this year and therefore they think I'm not practicing. They can't even say it to me, they discuss it behind my back, **** sake and I have to play in a gig with them in 30mins.
**** i'm feel so unwanted

Hey

Dr rang me today, should be seen by the mental health team in a week or so. They'll contact me when they can. So I'm glad thats sorted. Still feeling crappy but I have company all day.

Oliver, just go prove them wrong!

*hugs Sarah* I'm glad things are getting sorted.

*hugs Solo* yeah guess, its still made me feel so ****. and now I'm getting really anxious about tonight

*Hugs Solo* Hoow're you hun ?

*Hugs Oliver* That sucks Mate , But like Solo said , Prove them wrong !

*Hugs Sarah* Thats pretty good news Hun , I hope you get a swift appointment :)

*Hugs everyone*

cuddle all

*sigh* I hate being looked at like I'm crazy just because I look at things with different logic than they do...FML

*hugs all*
*waves to new people* I'm Crimson
How is everyone today?

*Hugs Crimson, Oliver, Solo, Mark, Charlie, Sarah and Jill*

I'm with Solo Oliver, you go prove them wrong :)

I know the feeling Crimson, people look at me as if I am stupid all the time just because I have an odd way of thinking about things at times.

Sarah, I'm glad you have your MH stuff sorted :)

I'm a little bit sick of not being good enough.

*Hugs Lia* You okay hun?

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

*Hugs Jill* You alright*

*Hugs Charlie* How's things ?

*Cuddles Jill, Crimson and Lia*
Lia I just PM'd you :)
Crimson-I haven't seen you around in a while, how have you been?
EDIT:
*Cuddles Mark* I'm ok thanks, you?