*huggles all*

*Hugs Kahlia*
How are you?

*hugs Nicole*

Just a wee bit stressed at the moment. Otherwise okay I think.
How are you?

*Hugs Kahlia, Nicole and Jill*

thanks lia. how are you tonight

*Hugs Kahlia, Lia and Jill*
I'm ok thanks Kahlia, sorry you're feeling stressed.

Wooo, been on here half the evening and finally my presence has been noticed by name. I was starting to think I didn't actually exist and I'm just a figment of my own imagination (although according to Descartes the mere fact that I am imagining proves my existence, but that's hardly the point).

Anyway. I'm alright tonight thanks Jill, I hope you're as OK as you can be and safe.

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia* I noticed you hun, I just text you instead of posting on here lol.

I know :) I wasn't having a go, I was just like 'yoo woo, I'm here!'

*Hugs Ian* How are you?

I'm not great lia. How are you?
Hey Nicole you ok?

*Hugs Ian*
lol Lia, I find it easier to talk via text :)
Ian-I'm ok thanks. Whats up? Do you wanna talk?

I'm fed up and i feel like giving up. Dont think i can do it anymore.

*Hugs Ian* Sorry you're feeling low :( Please stay strong, you can do this. I'm sorry that I don't have any advice :/

i was going to post earlier, but the internet had other ideas

sorry i've not been around much and am not being very supportive and doing individual replies, its all going really, really badly at the moment.
can I just sit in the corner with my teddy William.

*creeps over to corner*

~Squishes you~ Of course Oliver. Just relax.

*huggles oliver and offers an extra plushie and blanket*

Heya Oliver :) im sorry that things arnt good for you. Would you like a hug?

thanks guys. Yes please Ian *comes out of corner to give hugs to all who want, then goes back to the corner*

Warning- contains bad language (but is a good song)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FvXH-K7M8s

Kitty! I'm so glad to see you! Don't scare me like that hun!

*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs Kahlia*
*Hugs Nicole*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hug Kitty*

Gosh I'm up early , sorry to have been so freaked out last night:(

*huggles all*

sorry lia that I missed you. i'm barely keeping up with the number of posts at the moment. :-(

i've managed to start another two of my assignments. *le sigh* they just never seem to end. :-( getting a bit over it all.

another gp appointment on monday as well. more meds to get. more money to spend that i don't really have. more time to waste at the doctors surgery that i can't afford to waste.
my housemates' parents' dog (benji) passed away this last week (aged 19 plus) and that affected me (badly) too because in a way i was using him to help me cope with the death of my own little baby girl (dog). she's been gone since 2009 but i'm still struggling to cope with the decision i had to make then. when i'm starting to get unwell i still hallucinate that she is here. i also sometimes feel her crawl next to me when i can't sleep at night - and since i have major problems with insomnia that can happen quite a bit. i often feel like i murdered her, even though i know - logically - that wasn't the case. she would have had no quality of life if she had continued to live both the vet and every single person who knew of her circumstances has told me that ... but it was one of the toughest decisions i have ever had to make and in some ways i still hate myself for it.

sorry, i'll stop the pity party.

kitty, thanks for sharing the p!nk song. i love it and it is so true. i've actually downloaded to my computer to remind me.

*huggles everyone and disappears into the garden to play with puppy sinclair because she really needs some "puppy love" right now*

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope you Dr's appointment go's well .:) I'm sorry to hear about your Dog , I have had family pets that have passed away and know how difficult that is to get over :S

*hugs everyone*

Hi all *Hugs everyone*


Sorry It didn't go great Mark,but at least you made the step of putting yourself out there,(social anxiety sucks and I know how hard it is so put yourself in social situations)as Solo said It could have gone worse so go you :)

Thanks Solo :)

BLAH! Had enough of people today. Been called fat, ugly, useless, had comments made about my left eye as it doesn't work 100% as the optician never spotted the nerve problem when it could be fixed, my joints being bad which is genetic and thus the fault of my family anyway and to put the icing on the cake called a loon, again. ¬.¬

Does anyone have a pack of angry, hungry lions I could swap for?

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Claire*

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry you are having a crap time hun.

How is everyone else?

cuddles all, curls up in the corner.

You alright Jill? *cuddles*

*cuddles Mark* it'll be okay, I can ignore them now. Worst part is when my voice agrees with them.

*Hugs Jill* How are you hun?

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise*

I'm really low. I've joined a couple of dating websites but no one is going to want to date me. I've already begun idolising people and will be hurt when they want nothing to do with me. I'm just so lonely.

*Hugs Lindsay* I know how it feels to be so lonely , I joined a Dating website a while ago but it was a mistake I felt rejected , it's like I set myself up to feel bad on purpose:S . I am sure someone will want to date you:)

How are you doing, Mark?

cuddle mark sarah, lindsay. not doing good today. really want to curl up and die. how are you?

*Hugs Jill* Cravings and I'm getting a little urgy . But I had coffee today with my Best Offline Friend!

hugs hun, try and stay safe. sounds like you had a good time.
argh!!!!! my old laptop is driving me crazy, it wont shut down.

I'm so cold today :( and my head feels so funny.

*cuddles Louise* how you doing?

*cuddles Lindsay* Someone will want to be with you hun, you're lovely

*cuddles Mark* glad you enjoyed the coffee trip :)

*cuddles Jill* please don't hun, things will be okay

Thanks, Sarah. What do you mean by your head feels funny?

Just feels strange, I don't really know how to describe it, its just like I'm not in control of my own body anymore, like I'm just watching everything happen.

*Cuddles everyone*

*Hugs Nicole* How are you hun?

*Hugs Mark* I'm ok thanks :) Had my first meet today, it was really fun :)
But now feeling a bit stressed and tired.
How are you?

I'm urgy, Hmmm I've trying to stay in a Decent mood , How very cool , how many people went to the meet?

:( Can you try and stay distracted?
There were 7 of us altogether :)

*walks in and sits* hi. Im Chloe.

Well I royally screwed up. *Sigh* Just another set on scars for the collection. 10 days down the drain .