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I swear sometimes that I could, too. Lol. Sorry it took me so long to reply. My mom called and talked forever. -hugs-
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lol, thats ok :) What time is it there?
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It's 9:16 pm here. And it's snowing out. I hate snow. What time is it where you are?
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:O I love snow, i'm jealous! it's 5.21am here :) lol
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I hate snow because I'm cold blooded. I can never put on enough clothes to stay warm. I literally freeze to the bone. And snow = cold. And holy crap that's really late/early, whichever way you want to look at it. You should get some sleep, hun.
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lol, I am always freezing in the snow too, but it's good fun :) And i'm not really tired, although I probably should be :/
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I don't do snow. Lol. You can have all the snow if you'd like. I don't want it anymore.
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Yes please :) it's raining here! I'm really hungry :( I have only had an apple since friday evening, and it's now sunday morning :(
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Oh hun you need to eat something. Don't you have any food?
I have been exhausted all day every day. I don't get it. It is a symptom of pregnancy, though...at least, that's what I've read. But it's quite annoying. My husband just tells me to go lay down when I'm tired. But if I were to do that I would never get out of bed. :/ |
My mum locks the kitchen door when she goes out :/ so no food until she gets back, which won't be till about midday. :(
Aaaw hun, maybe you should go to bed early? |
Wow, this tread moves fast.
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Um...why would your mom lock the kitchen when she leaves? That is strange. Has she been gone since Friday evening or Saturday? If so, that's really strange. =/ And going to bed early won't do any good. I will still be tired when I wake up.
-waves at sdixon- Hi I'm Kitty. How you be? |
Hey Kitty, I'm Shannon. I'm not well, how are you?
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I'm not doing too great myself.
It's nice to meet you, Shannon. What's wrong? |
*Hugs Kitty and Shannon*
She locks it cause I tend to binge eat :/ but she went out before I woke up yesterday, so I haven't eaten. Shannon-whats up? And yeah, we do move quickly :) |
I'm having a hard time coping with life, and my mind telling me that it is a fact that everyone will be better off without me.
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*Hugs shannon*
My brothers alarm clock is going off lol |
*cuddles everyone who wants* sorry am useless atm
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thanks
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-offers nicole a nice breakfast that has no calories and is filling- That is not right of her to lock the kitchen if she is going to be gone for that long, or longer. Couldn't she at least leave you some food out?
-hugs shannon, if ok- I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say or do. I can relate to that, and I don't want to sound like a hypocrite. But everyone here in the ward cares for each other. That includes you. We care about you and would be terribly sad if anything were to happen to you. |
*Hugs Heather, Shannon and Kitty*
thanks Kitty :) She sometimes does leave food out, but she didn't this time :( And I have no money oso I couldn't go to the shop yesterday.... She should be back in a few hours though :) |
I know people care about me and I care about them; that is the problem. I wish people didn't and I wish I didn't, then I could just leave. I am thankful that people care, its just... I don't know what I want to say, sorry.
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-hugs nicole- Good. I'm glad your mom will be home in a few hours.
No need to be sorry, Shannon. I understand, because I go through the same problem every day. I want to die, and believe it would be in everyone's best interest if I were to die. But then there is that other voice in my head telling me that I shouldn't...at least, not yet. Being that I am most likely pregnant, it's worse. I still want to die, but I wouldn't do anything to harm anyone, not even an unborn baby. But that suicidal voice...which is actually a girl that won't leave me alone but nobody else can see or hear...she's pissed. She tells me I need to do it after the baby is born. :/ I'm sorry I am probably not helping. I am rambling. I will shut up. But I do understand you. And there is no need to apologize. |
*hugs Kitty* It does help knowing that I am not the only one with THAT voice. Thanks for understanding.
*Hugs Nicole* I am glad you will be able to eat in a few hours. I need to head off to bed, its almost 2am here. Night all. |
-hugs shannon- Night night Shannon. Sleep well.
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I think I am going to go to bed, too. I can't fight it anymore. Night everyone. -hugs ward-
Nicole, please stay safe. I don't mean to abandon you or anything. I just can't stay up anymore. I'm exhausted. I will drop in again tomorrow. |
*huggles all*
been working on my assignment all day. managed to write 7 paragraphs in the end. still got quite a few - maybe another 4 or 5 to go. head is still not in a good place. just trying to keep myself occupied so i don't think of suicide because i don't know how strong my 'will to live' is. :-( hels: sorry i left you so suddenly on fb. my program cut me out because i was supposed to be studying and i didn't think to tell you it would be cutting in shortly. am really sorry. i was on a short study break when you saw me on there. am trying to keep myself going. have a gp appointment on tuesday and am going to talk to him about the suicide stuff - but not in full detail. just so damn over it ... still, it can't rain all the time, right?? |
*Hugs Nicole*
*Hugs Helen* *Hugs Lia* *Hugs Ian* *Hugs Kelly* *Hugs Felicia* *Hugs Kitty* *Hugs Asanunu* Hi , I'm Mark . Welcome to the ward :) *Hugs Heather* *Hugs Shannon* *Hugs Kahlia* |
April Passes on *Hugs* and *Cuddles* :)
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*Lurks*
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*Hugs Lia* How are you hun?
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Hi everyone.
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*Hugs Lindey and Mark*
I'm alright. Trying to work...blah. How are you both? |
*Hugs Lindsay*
Lia , I'm urgy ......still and I so want to be over injuring myself , It's been for over half my life and I'm so sick of it :( sorry |
morning.
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*hugs everybody*
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*Hugs Shannon*
*Hugs Helen* How are you girls? |
*Hugs Doikers* I'm ehh, how are you?
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*Hugs Shannon* I've got urges , horrible urges coming and going . My Name is Mark :) You can call me that if you like :)
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*hugs Mark* Is there anything I can do to help you through this?
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Just asking helps, I know you care , all my wardies do and I care for each and every one of you .Urges are coming over me in waves , I bought Alcohol , Just to numb it , nothing too strong , no spirits , I'm still undecided as to whether I'll drink any of if ( IF I can stomach it ) But I just don't want to feel like this anymore :( Sorry
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I just went out with my brother on our bikes. And I let him photograph me for his photography work. Only now I smell because we cycled through a load of mud that sprayed up on my and I still haven't done my theatre homework which I shall continue to protcrastinate on until the very last second.
I'm sorry you have urges Mark, and it's good that you managed to resist buying strong alcohol :) Keep on fighting it, and if you must cut, do it carefully. I want you to be safe, or as safe as you can get under the circumstances. |
Thanks Lia , I will do my best . I lost about 200mg Of Lithium last night which can't be helping , I swiged the pills from out of my pill mug and heard one clatter away but I don't know where it went .
Did you have fun on your bike ride ? :) |
Hehe Grease is on :)
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Afternoon Ward. Been hallucinating a little this morning and noticed a few more "friends" missing off my facebook list, one being the owner of a local business that I worked for for 2 years, half of it voulentarily because they couldn't afford to pay me, but because I wasn't happy about my corset being 7 months late and £10 more than they said somehow I'm in the wrong. All I know is I wasn't really part of their little clique at any point, they just seemed to use me for free labour. When the old co-owner was there I was made to feel welcome, when they fired him I seemed to be no longer welcome and resigned after 2 months of hell. I'm pretty annoyed because I was making an effort after being made to feel very unwelcome, but no. ¬_¬ Grr.
How are you all today? |
I like that movie :) I'm watching a Primeval DVD, and I did thanks Mark. I tend to neglect my family a bit, so I feel more social now.
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I'm sorry they treated you that way Sarah, you don't deserve it and they are the ones in the wrong, not you. *Hugs*
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Sarah I'm sorry they treated you like crap . Do you really want people like that on your friends list? . sorry it seems that they don't deserve to be counted amongst your friends
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Thats true guys. I was talking to a freind about it on their wall and then got deleted, their status is now on about how spineless some people are. Not really bothered at the end of the day, just irratated that "friends" can be like that. *cuddles Mark and Lia*
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You don't need those sorts of friends Sarah, and I really admire you for being able to see past them and the things your mum says. It's more than I can do :)
Does anyone else ever get dizzy spells where black dots appear in front of your eyes and you have to shut them and lean on something until it passes? |
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