*hugs oliver* hope your internet gets sorted out soon

*hugs mark and Felicia* gratz! do you already have a date for the wedding?

*hugs fallingstar laura* dreams about SI can be so vivid... sorry you are having them.

*hugs louise*

*hugs jeff*

I didn't make the appointment to talk about ED stuff. I don't have an ED (I'm too fat) (I know that all ppl with ED think that, but it is true in my case.) (I know that sounds pathetic). I made the appointment so I can figure out whats wrong with me. There must be something wrong, otherwise all the bad things would have been split between my siblings and me equally, right? He always 'only' yelled at them, but he did do other things to me.

*Hugs oliver*
*Hugs Angel*
*Hugs Laura*

*hugs angel* you could still use this account but only to communicate with your friends. and use the new account for serious things?

Hey I'm going out with my Parents today , Kind of anxious , Have taken Painkillers for my hip and a Diaz so far today , thats all the solids I've had so they should work .

Hi am Alexx * waves*

*waves to Alexx* Hi I'm Mark , How are you ?

Just a few more hours before I see the doctor again, struggling with whether or not to share the details of the past few weeks. Will she freak out or just ignore me. When I called in for help two weeks ago, she just ignored what I was telling her, will she listen now? I don't know what to think, this roller coaster ride has to stop somehow. I know that it is meds issue, but I am also fed up with it.

*Hugs and waves everybody*

Emergency Pysch appointment next Friday as I've been low and suicidal Fantasys and stupid injury . It will be the 3rd different Dr in 3 visits......Nervous :S

it is understandable that you are nervous mark *hugs*

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

*Hugs Mors Certa*

*Hugs Angel*

Not feeling so good at the moment ... i dont know what to do.
Listening to music to drown them out ...see if that works...
So unsafe right now .

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Sorry. I wonder if I could push a scalpel blade all the way through my hand ..?

*hugs all* I'm sorry so many of you are struggling, please all stay safe, you mean so much to me, every single one of you.

*safe cuddles for all who need them*

cuddles mark gently. no sweetie please try and keep yourself safe.

~hugs everyone~ - i am sorry that is people not feeling great - here if you want to talk.

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Lindsay, Louise and Jill* how are you all?

hugs oliver - i am so so. how are you

I feel out of it, like distant.