Lindsay, if you need someone to listen, I'm here 24/7. Well... maybe not physically on here, but you get what I'm saying.

Hi Oliver! Every time I see your name I think of Oliver Twist and it warms my insides. :)

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*hugs Mark* How are you doing right now?

Struggling,

My Dream was that my Grandma (Who passed away the day before my last birthday) was alive and it was her and I watching an Aquarium/bird/reptile thing and she was beat up on one half of her face and we were looking and she died beside me , It gave me a shock.

Thanks Heidi. I spoke to someone from the crisis team who, again, told me that I 'just' have a personality disorder and I should be able to stop being unrealistic or something like that. I was just telling her that i'm suicidal and don't feel like a part of the world. Nobody's listening or taking me seriously.

That sounds like a really upsetting dream, Mark. *hugs*

Mark, I'm so terribly sorry. It sounds like an awful dream. *offers cookie* I hear cookies sometimes help things.

Lindsay, I'm listening. I'm so sorry that it seems like people are blowing you off but you did a great thing by actually calling. I believe in you.

*hugs Mark* I'm sorry you had such an upsetting dream.

*hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry the crisis team didn't listen to you, they really should be doing a better job.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Oliver*

Thanks y'all.
PM bow open for you guy , , going to my neighbours for a wee while

Take care, Mark.

As you all should know , PM me if you need,
(Night time hugs y'all)

*hugs Mark* night

*hugs Lindsay*

A pretty good day just went straight to hell. Ex walked into my life and played these stupid mind games about how he misses me and whatever. Turns out he is back with his ex before me. My "friend" knew and never told me.

I'm hurt, mad, angry and lonely. I give up.

*hugs Heidi* (if hugs are ok) I'm here if you want to talk.

*sits in a corner and hides*

I hate being made to feel that my life is not/was not "bad" enough for me to struggle with anything.

*hugs Oliver* I'm just so frustrated right now.

*hugs heidi* sorry you are feeling frustrated hun. I know ex-es can be confusing but try to not let them ruin your day. They dont deserve that power over you.

*hugs oliver* how r u doing?

*hugs Laura and Heidi*

I'm not doing great, had a pretty intense counselling session today, I told my counsellor about my near suicide attempt this past week and I told her I feel a sense of calm because my suicide plan date is getting closer. She said she is really ****ing scared and is seriously worried about me and of course she is going to have to tell my GP what I told her.

I'm ok now thanks. It was upsetting what happened but im not going to let it get to me. I just cant believe how nasty some people can be. They say they are genuine when they actually arnt. I'm listening to some calm music.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heidi* Hi im Ian :)

*hugs Ian* Hi there. I think you're lovely :)

Hey everyone,
Just wanted to let you all know I changed my username.. It's Laura (formerly- fallinstar).

*hugs ian* i'm sorry people were nasty to you hun. You don't deserve that.

*hugs heidi*

*hugs oliver* sounds like it was a hard session :-/ I'm proud of you for telling though. That takes real strength. i'm sure they are worried, but thats not necessarily a bad thing... maybe they will offer some options for extra support.

know how you feel laura =\ ergh

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Laura* ooooohhhhh New username , I like :)

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Heather*

*pops in and leaves hugs*
I'm on a train back to London :)

hugs everyone

*Hugs Felicia*<3

*Hugs Louise* what is that quoter in your signature Hun , I really like it :)

Hey everyone. I didn't go to my voluntary work today because I feel a sense of dread when I think about it. I will have to go next week though. I'm supposed to phone the crisis team soon but I don't know what to say to them. There is nothing much in my head and because of that they'll think that i'm ok.

*Squishes Lindsay*

*hugs everyone*

So today was going good, still is mostly, but my cell phone took a dive and encountered the blue screen of death. I nearly cried in the store. haha fml?

Is your phone working now?

I've had a confusing day. I feel more and more disconnected from the world. I have made a thread in GSA if anyone wants to know more detail. I'd appreciate some input.

Havent been in here before, hi everyone *waves*

*Sits with hotwater bottle*

Hi, how are you? I'm Lindsay.

The phone works! Well, more correctly, the phone has been replaced! Either way I'm glad that it's sorted out. 3 hours without a phone felt like torture.

Hi there, insidemyhead. I'm Heidi.

hug Louise

Hugs Lindsay

waves insidemyhead

Hugs Heidi

*hugs everyone* I've got my girlfriend's little brother (7) & mum's dog here tonight & I'm exhausted. Not feeling great, but trying to hang in there. Thinking of you guys. much love xx

*hugs all*

I'm going back home tomorrow.

Aww thank you so much, you have made my day and you made me smile :)

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mara*

*Waves to insidemyhead*

*hugs all*

*hides*

Hey Oliver :) *Gives Oliver a big hug* why you hiding? You ok?

*hugs Ian* I'm not so great, last night was hard, I walked to a bridge and nearly jumped off, but phoned the samaritans and was on the phone to them for over an hour. now I feel really low and really want to do something to end my life, but trying to wait until its time for my plan.

how are you Ian?

I'm sorry you felt like that and that your having a tough time. Oh thank god you didnt. Your a really nice person and you would be missed lots if anything happened to you. I mean that its a pleasure to have you as a member on ryl. I'm ok thanks. I got hurt the other day by someone and i was upset. Even though im still angry with this person im not letting it get to me.

I guess it will probably take time before i feel normal again. It just disgusts me how horrible some people are when they say they are genuine and then when something doesnt go how they want it to go they dont want to know you anymore. In this case they were very selfish because all they thought of were themselves and not both of us.

*hugs Ian* I'm really sorry that you got hurt *squishes*

im lonely :(

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Ian*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Oliver*
*waves to everyone else*

Hi darlings. Good day overall but I am exhausted beyond belief. Sweet dreams and well wishes to you all. <3

*crawls into bed and pulls covers over head*

Its been a painful evening/night for me..,

*gives all hugs and leaves some noms on the table*

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Matthew*

*hugs everyone*

Hi Heidi and everyone else who said hi, i'm Meg :)

How is everyone today? x

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you hun?

*Hugs Meg* Hey, I'm Mark :)

I spoke to my OT about feeling like I don't belong on this planet but she just shrugged it off. I'm going to have to set a date to kill myself to get away from this horrible feeling.

How are you, Mark?