I know I don't know you and, possibly you don't care, but... April I hope you feel better... I'm very sorry you want to die.

*leaves the tea tray out and heads back to her tent*

Thanks for the cuddles & concern...

I just... well, got my grades in. And spazzed out. Awfully. Ran to the bedroom crying. And I still really do want to die. I mean, my sister graduated with a GPA of 3.989/4.0 and now, thanks to this term, I have a 3.731 GPA. No grad school is going to want that. No one is going to want someone that stupid. There are so many people better than I am. I'm just a failure, I'm an EPIC FAIL, I'm full of fail......... there are so many different ways of saying what a FAILURE I AM.

:crying:

Sorry that was a rant, should've gone in my r/v thread........ am a pathetic bitch..... sorry.

*shuts up*

*sits and cuddles April* you are not stupid. you may not have gotten a 4.0 but you still got an A and you still finished.

April, please stay safe && you are DEFINITELY not a failure. You really struggled at times but got through it. So many people would have given up & never tried/repeated/whatever. But you kept going <3

same as yesterday on my phone so this may not work and i might not see ur replys till i get home

It worked again. Hope you're okay Julie.
I spy an April *cuddles tight*

*curls up rubbing my tummy*

You okay Julie??

*hides in the corner with a doona over him and quitely sleeps there*

blah, i hate those days

*hugs april, crimson, helen, julie, mark, JK, and everyone else i missed*

*finds Jetforce hiding and sits to keep him company* u okay?

I can't wait until tomorrow night... then i will be done! (and then i can catch up with all of you properly. Sorry)

*Hugs April Hugely* You are NOT pathetic :S You did really well at uni and you should not compare yourself to your sister . You are not your sister , you are a completely diferent person and you did great :)

*walks in and hugs everyone who want/needs and can accept hugs*



My mood is absolutely crap. And I'm freezing. Meh. . .

*frowns*i dun quite understand Kahlia
but it sounds like thatd suck?

*Hugs Kahlia and hands her a Blanket to keep her warm*

*Hugs Julie*

thanks for the hugs mark *hugs back*

*hugs Mark* - Thanks for the blanket. I'm sitting here with a jumper on, but I'm going to need some socks soon too!

Julie - In NZ you guys have an ISP filter, but in one point it's voluntary, and in the second point it only blocks or blacklists child pornography. The one they are trying to introduce here in Oz is mandatory, and kind of applies to all different sorts of sites that don't meet "classification standards". It was originally designed to be a sort of "Net Nanny" to protect the nations children, but realistically it's trying to protect the politicians from a scary place that they don't understand.

Sorry, I've been on my soap-box.

no no your soap box is very helpful

*sits in a corner facing the corner and colours*

gosh it's gotten cold

*sings like donkey* i'm all alone theres noone here beside me...

*sings with julie* my problems have all gone ...

It's pretty cold here too. We're having really strange weather. We had rain today ... That might just have been because my housemate washed his mother's car though. lol

It's a nice day but I can't go out until the Gas/electric man/woman comes to read my meters . They should be here by 1pm . I'm not used to getting up as early as I did lol , 4 coffees and 1 energy drink and I'm still tired . Sorry random ramblings.

*goes back sits in a corner facing the corner and colours*

Shuffles up next to Julie . Hi:)

hi u wanna colour

Sure :) Need to keep awake

*walks over to Julie and Mark* What are you colouring?

a teddy bear

Thxs, just having a **** day, that's all

*waves to Jetforce*

*Hugs Jetforce*

I spy a Mark!! *curls up in her usual spot next to him, trying to stay warm* It's FREEZING here again, heat's still off, and I am soo cold. :( And I am a failure... my GPA dropped from a 3.805/4.0 to a 3.731 and my term GPA was a 3.2. I have NEVER done that badly. EVER. :'( EPIC FAIL. FULL OF FAIL.

:crying:

*Hugs April with extra warm Hugs* and you are NOT a fail , you did better than most people could ever do , you should be proud of yourself ! You had many challenges but you overcame them and completed Uni , very few people do that.

*cuddles up with a blanket next to Mark and enjoys his warmth-giving hugs* Am bundled up as is... grrrr... stupid heat. And I don't see how you can say that I'm not a fail... I mean, I kind of can... but I don't want to use my mental illness(es) as an excuse to do poorly in uni. :'(

Oh, and just sent you an email. :)

*hides*

*sits outta the way and waits*

I gonna go for a walk to try and wake up properly , back in a bit :)

UGH . Just had an anxiety attack in Aldi's (Supermarket) . It got crowded around me and I had to leave the queue and go outside for air :( I've taken a Diaz so hopefully I'll be calm when my housing support worker visits in 20 minutes * Bites lip anxiously*

Hi Julie :) It's ok I just need to clear my head , need hugs ,(Feel kinda pathetic flat out asking for them though)

mark asking for them wen u need them is a good thing ok and
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i wish they looked better and more personal and less mass produced but for now in cybery space it's the best i can do sorry

Awww *Hugs Julie Back* Thankyou for all the hugs :) They mean a lot

so watcha doing? i should probably try sleep soon

I'm eating and waiting for my houseing support worker to show , he is 25 mins late hmmmm

*uses invisiblity powers to eat mark's food*

OH! Where did my food go !?

*still invisible giggles*

*curls up* must sleep now

Sweet dreams Julie :)

it's nearly midnight lol