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m0nk 02-08-2012 05:41 PM

if you wont delete that. and live in hope and dont die from me. i love you all. ashers or not. we live together. i will tell you my secret button url. ;(
do something thats full of energy. thats where the life lives. and will accept even the smallest of memories to slip away from your aching hearts.

midnightphoenix 02-08-2012 07:13 PM

It's getting harder and harder to fight *sits in corner rocking with tool* Someone kill me please so I don't have to live like this any more

ˈsäləˌterē 04-08-2012 02:13 AM

Feels selfish to say but, I'm feeling much the same way midnight. Feeling very unsafe n now alone. Want a _____ n my tool.

ˈsäləˌterē 04-08-2012 02:53 AM

Cant choose just one mood. I'm unsafe n sad n guilty n frustrated n crying n alone n several others.

risenfromperdition 04-08-2012 05:38 AM

=[. <3.

Gem-Louise 04-08-2012 12:53 PM

:'( im done i am seriously done ...cant stop the thoughts and feelings im just done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to kill myself so much ie never felt this bad before

midnightphoenix 04-08-2012 06:25 PM

*hugs Saphire*

ugh why an I so anxious today - I want to die so my anxiety goes away

Gem-Louise 04-08-2012 10:25 PM

really want to hurt myself cant stop the thoughts got my blade i cant take it anymore

midnightphoenix 05-08-2012 11:00 PM

Just passing through with some love and hugs for my wardies

ˈsäləˌterē 06-08-2012 06:08 AM

~takes Anna home n puts her to bed~

RootsbeforeBranches 08-08-2012 02:35 AM

I just want to disappear

risenfromperdition 08-08-2012 03:44 AM

*sits in corner staring at wall*

midnightphoenix 08-08-2012 08:44 AM

I don't feel well

sapphire hearts 10-08-2012 04:27 AM

Slip, you're not despicable hun *offers safe hugs* why do you think this?

Midnight - are you sick sweetie? *hugs* please take care of yourself

*hugs heather*

so tired. always alone. how many more time does this have to happen before someone finds the guts to just kill me? It's so much crueller to hurt me then leave me to try and salvage a life out of the broken pieces of myself...

midnightphoenix 10-08-2012 01:18 PM

*slinks into ward then pulls duvet over self* I don't exist I'm not a human I'm imaginary

Gem-Louise 10-08-2012 07:53 PM

i just dont care anymore:( i tried to kill myself yesturday and i FAILED like i fail at everything i just want to die so much i cant even tell anyone whats going on ....im so EVIL and i am done with everything :(....right now i just want to overdose and cut myself

midnightphoenix 11-08-2012 12:04 AM

Ugh I'm a failure I injured myself again after trying to help a suicidal friend (not on RYL)

Synthetisk 13-08-2012 11:36 AM

I'm back. I enroll at college tomorrow and I'm terrified. I don't think I'm capable. So I'm stressing out badly.

midnightphoenix 13-08-2012 05:02 PM

Save me from myself *hides in ward*

Gem-Louise 13-08-2012 07:11 PM

:( dont even care anymore...i have messed up so much what do i need to do about it now :( its all my fault i cant handle this ...i cant even look after myself

trechu 13-08-2012 07:36 PM

I don't feel safe, so I'm signing myself in here for a while...

YodaBearInterrupted 15-08-2012 04:12 AM

*gives all in here hugs and goodies/treats*

Really hurting right now... really painful. Make it all go away :(

midnightphoenix 15-08-2012 06:08 PM

I'm in severe pain - boyfriend dumped me through email yesterday (one line saying "I've found someone else so don't want you any more goodbye" :-(:crying::Emoticon(14):

YodaBearInterrupted 15-08-2012 06:19 PM

Wow, that's rude and hurtful *hugs midnight star* I am sorry to hear that

ˈsäləˌterē 16-08-2012 09:59 AM

I fix

YodaBearInterrupted 17-08-2012 08:39 AM

I hate these feelings, one moment I am fine, the next I am debating SH... make it stop

m0nk 18-08-2012 05:48 PM

sh last night. awful. think i went too far with across the wrist. but it wasnt too deep. just bled alot. i felt really good and bad afterwards. i wondered around my porch wondering if i was gonna die. but i didnt. so i called those people that brings my medicine and i told them to bring bandages. i had to wait an half hour before they came. and they put on vaseline bandages and some normal bandage around my arm and i gave them all my knives. i really thought i had crossed something serious cause i couldnt feel that i cut there.

risenfromperdition 18-08-2012 10:04 PM

*sits next to solo waving*

midnightphoenix 18-08-2012 10:42 PM

*sits next to m0nk and give m0nk a hug*

risenfromperdition 19-08-2012 03:00 AM

*curls up tight*

YodaBearInterrupted 19-08-2012 08:05 AM

*hugs risen* - hope that is okay

midnightphoenix 19-08-2012 01:54 PM

*sits next to risen and covers risen over with blanket*

happiness...its all a lie 19-08-2012 08:55 PM

Hides in the corner*sobs*

midnightphoenix 20-08-2012 12:58 AM

*hides* please make the world go away

risenfromperdition 20-08-2012 02:30 AM

yes. hugs ok. tankyou.

*curls up near midnight*

StardustedSky 20-08-2012 07:30 PM

Balancing act
 
I'm going from being fine to massive lows just now, everything seems to be getting a bit much. I have been admitted before and can't face going back, I got put in the dementia ward last time as its solitary and locked but the strain it's put on my relationship with my fiancé is unreal. I was with him and engaged before our accident and everything went wrong he now has to split his time between work and caring for me and although he says he doesn't mind I can see the strain on his face and I hate how much I ask of him. I don't want to tell him how bad things are cos it's just more on his shoulders but I'm not sure what is going to be best for him in the long run he doesn't need all this

midnightphoenix 29-08-2012 10:53 PM

hugs stardust

*curls up in corner* please made the bad things go away

WhisperingSiren 30-08-2012 09:12 AM

I've never been in a ward before... I would never have been able to afford one if somebody tried to send me. I've gone into the psych people emergency-like before... but I don't have money for that either, now. I wonder how I manage to turn off all of my issues long enough to help with others'... and then can't control them rushing back when I'm alone :( Nighttime is bad. I remember things. I imagine history repeating itself... and I realize exactly how far from true recovery from PTSD I am. During the day it's generally under control, but at night...

I don't want to be a jerk and wake anybody in my household up, they all have work so early in the morning. I feel so alone :'( I want to stop imagining these things, flashing back to those things... but it's like it's always there, in the back of my mind.

I could really use some hugs and hot cocoa. I have plenty of blankets, I make them... I have a few spare if anybody needs any...

WhisperingSiren 30-08-2012 02:20 PM

Well at least now I feel somewhat better with a shower, some food, and plenty of reading and time and such... but I still can't seem to go to sleep and it's 9am. I need to sleeeeeeeep....

On another note, *curls into sleepy ball with a cat* I do have quite a few extra blankets, tea and random stuff to share ;) Sorry the cat doesn't like other people, or I'd share him, too :P

risenfromperdition 30-08-2012 03:29 PM

*wave*

YodaBearInterrupted 30-08-2012 07:20 PM

*hugs and waves to all*

I give up. Make it stop. I want to give in, but I can't.

m0nk 30-08-2012 07:36 PM

close your eyes move your feet hear my voice fell the beat ley your mind on rozes just follow me into hypnosis

risenfromperdition 30-08-2012 11:35 PM

*stares at walll*

nonono. go aways :(
*curls up*

WhisperingSiren 31-08-2012 02:52 AM

How many people are in the Ward currently?

ˈsäləˌterē 02-09-2012 02:07 AM

Armed dangerous n alone

YodaBearInterrupted 02-09-2012 06:25 AM

*hugs Solo* -- I hope you are doing okay

ˈsäləˌterē 02-09-2012 07:47 AM

Thanks Matt ~hugs back~ A friend saw my post n stayed with me so I'd be safe. Hope you're ok too

risenfromperdition 02-09-2012 06:40 PM

*sits with solo :)*

StardustedSky 04-09-2012 08:46 PM

Whispering siren I have been in wards but nothin more than a few hours until someone would come a sign me out (often this has been after having a really tough concilling session where iv not been considered safe to be left on my own) I would not have the money nor would anyone in the family to go to private facilities so its been NHS for me all the say which is someway has been a blessing, the. Ouncillor I have is great and I see him every week to 3 weeks depending how hard a time I'm having I have been seeming him for 18 months and I daren't think what I would have done without him.

I can totally sympathise with your struggles at night I often scream out, shout, cry and kick when having nightmares and even once I wake it's hard to calm down. The problem is with something like PTSD is the nights are often your enemy (or they are mine) I cope by being busy and trying to distract my mind but at night when the darkness closes in and your so tired but your body won't turn off so you can sleep it feels like I will never break the cycle. Your not a jerk for waking people ultimately if you are going to be safer with them awake and there with you they would rather that than you have a destructive night. Try audio books, it sounds daft but I find them comforting especially when having nightmares as its a constant thing going on in the background which you can try to focus on when having a nightmare or flashback to help 'pull you back'.

*hugs* solo

ˈsäləˌterē 04-09-2012 09:48 PM

Thank you ~hugs back~


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