Thanks for the cuddles, guys.

Just arguments between my husband and me. :(

I feel like ****. It feels like it's all my fault. :'(

I'll give more details in my r/v thread later... :crying:

*gives everyone lots of hugs*

*cuddles Hels* How are you doing, love?

I really want to cry... :'(

*hugs jk* I hope that im only this down b/c im exhausted... idk tho.. How r u doing now?

*hugs nicole and mark*

*cuddles april* im sry that uve been having arguments with ur husband... If you want to talk at all feel free to PM me hun. Hope you are staying safe.. or as safe as u can be right now.

*hugs helen* how r u doing? u seemed pretty hyper earlier lol.

Im attempting to get things done now. hoping it'll distract me.. but its awfully slow going.

* cuddles you all then collapses in a heap in a corner*
what a day, full of mixed emotions. this morning was ok, up nice and early to leave on coaches which were an hour late, then off to london, rehearsal in venue which went on for ages because of concert being so crap last night, then it was the concert, it was AMAZING such a buzz after, nailed my solos again and played them even better and loads of people including conductor and several staff from the course said how amazing and beautiful they were and that they sounded like a pro.
then off to train station with my parents, mum is trying hard with my transition, was going on about me being a grown up girl and then said oh sorry person, which is better than nothing, then train back to manchester, not so good, felt really ill, then got anxious and then felt really faint and dizzy and was burning up, but a kind guy took me to a cooler area and we just sat and chatted about music which was cool and now I'm back in halls, absolutly knackered from walking from the station with 4 big heavy rucksacks.
anyway I'm gonna shut up because i am going on about my boring lifewhich no body wants to hear about.

*goes off into a quiet corner to watch Dr Who*

*sneaks in, hugs all, and disappears back into the darkness*

*cuddles everybody* I hope we're all doing better soon.

I'm still happy but yet I feel so sad. Haha, how pathetic?

Hels: I'd probably say "conflicted" instead of "pathetic" ... but each to their own, right? :p *big hugs*

*hugs everyone*

True it is conflicting emotions.....

BAH >_> I'll hopefully feel better tomorrow? I hate this.

*curls up in corner* feeling ill again

*hugs all my lovely ward friends*

Oliver, you have the most non-boring life I know! Performing is something I wish I could do. Keep telling us all about your very impressive talent and knowledge on all things cultured.

April, Helen, Laura, Kahlia...my dear wee buddies. Look after yourselves, its tough going right now but we are all going to be wonderful successes real soon. *cuddles, and cuddles some more*

I'm OK, supposed to be at work but couldn't do it today. Went to my doctor and changed my meds round a bit. She checked out my wound from the weekend and she got all teary when she saw it. Wow, made me feel real stink, but she obviously cares and I've promised not to do it that bad again.

*makes a nice tuppa tea and sits quietly*

*cuddles everyone*

I really don't feel well, maybe I am coming down with something after all :(

*checks in to see how Helen is feeling*

*leaves hugs*
*leaves rockmelon* nom nom nom

*huggles everyone*

I.want.to.disappear...
So.damn.sick.of.this....

*cuddles Kahlia* what's up hun?
*waves at Oliver*

*Hugs everyone* Good (Late) Morning , I've only just managed to get up , ugh , I feel so lazy , NO energy , NO Motivation , NO concentration.

OOOh JK I've never heard of rockmelon before , * grabs a slice *

*hugs Oliver* I'm glad that you nailed your solo yet again , you must be so talented :)
and it's good that your mum is trying to accept who you are :)
I'm sorry you are feeling ill though :(

*cuddles everyone*

Still not feeling too good, am really dizzy >.> Trying to get ready for my boyfriend to pick me up, but don't even know when he's coming. Be good to get stuff sorted today though...

*cuddles everyone*

Am feeling a bit better this morning but must admit that part of that is due to me having some Reese's Cups. :-X Chocolate + peanut butter = WIN... lol. But anyway...

Had therapy... it was okay, I guess. She couldn't believe all of the stuff that I have to do in the next 2 weeks. I can't even fully believe it myself. :-/ Saying it out loud made it sound like even MORE... :'(

*cuddles all* Sorry no individual replies... hope we all feel better soon. :'(

♥

*rubs head from where she knocked herself out with saucepan 13pages and 4days ago*.....hmmm.....

Please forgive me but my brain is not up to going through all of what has gone on in the past few days, so no individual replies. Sorry I've avoided here - I couldn't even cope with this as a form of socialising. You have all been in my thoughts and prayers though. My PMDD is starting to fade away and in just a few days I'll be able to enjoy my week of sanity and be able to be upbeat and supportive again...til next time. Its so draining, apparently I was the worst I've been yet and I thought I was coping quite well, I was completely oblivious to the fact that I was mega moody, a bitch and a hermit! Whoops.

Anyhoo, I'm tired and drained as had busy family day yesterday, so not sure how much I'll be on here and how much I'll be napping. But just wanted to let you know that I'm ok and around and giving you all lots of gentle hugs!

*group huggles fellow inmates!!!!!*