*hugs Pretty.Reckless*

my therapist and I were working on creating a safe place (mentally), (I think it's some kind of hypnosis). Instead of coming back at the end I went the wrong direction and was dissociated and I think I had some kind of flashback.
You can read about it in my thread http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...d.php?t=180885.

Laura, that sounds really distressing. *hugs*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Pretty Reckless*

*Hugs Lindsay*

How are you today, Mark?

Iffy , Could really use a drink but that'll solve nothing , Head vs Heart :/ How are you Lindsay?

It's good that you recognise that it won't solve anything, I hope you can find something that helps.

I'm feeling at a loss about how to move forward. I need some help with my anxiety but i've tried lots of anxiety management techniques and they don't work. I was going to ask my GP if there is some medication I can try but my OT is against it.

*Huge Hugs Lindsay* I'd be glad to share things I do to relax sometimes if you like , They may be a bit .... aalternative and / or new age , but I'm happy to share , they might help anxiety??

*hugs Lindsay* I would talk to your GP anyway, just to get a second opinion.
*hugs Mark*

*Hugs Laura*

hugs everyone

you say you wanna help
you swear you'll be right there
you promise you'll understand
you assure me that you'll care

but everytime I go to you, its all just in vain
you don't know how to help me
you can't take away my pain

you're only capable of love but love's not all I need
I need you to listen, to understand, these desperate words you should heed


I don't know whats wrong with me
how its all so damn @#%$ up
how last night I tried to take a knife
and make myself a cut

Another attempted scar upon my arm, blessed be for all to see
I need you to help me because
I fear I may drown in my own weakness and misery



maybe there is something wrong with me
put on display for all to see
but that's just fine
I'll sit and slit to pass the time
strip my sleeves and show my wounds
probably then you'd sing a different tune

months and years of strife and stress
repressing things that shouldnt be repressed
and all this @#%$ time you couldn't guess

didn't have a @#%$ clue
no idea what to do
sorry to say but that killed me too

can you even begin to comprehend
some of the things I keep locked within
safe and sound away so you dont do see
every little stab of inadequecy

when you go to bed at night do you dream like I
is the ceiling your sky
at which you gaze through translucent eyes
and realize with a soul charred by lies

your life is turning into a disguise

Disgusted, mistrusted, and all that jazz
smile and it wont seem so bad
yeah right.

you dont @#%$ know my plight
you can't understand "fight or flight"
fight a battle and surely lose
or run away to continue this exhausted ruse

Elsewhere.


im like at the far bottom where i can see my soul stearing at me ordering me to start again.
its so ****ed up i wanna be active again.
and my dads not making it any easier getting on the forth ground asking a ton of question with NO ****ING CLUE WHY just cause he wants to.
he has a vision i will break easily but i do.
and it still hurts to have eyes.
my mother never calls no one contacts me. should i break the contact indefinite?
no one wants my attention anymore even though dreams and hopes are all around me. twisting me like a pepsi twist. cant forget the taste cant forget the feelings cant do what i want to do.
i even feel the marijuana necklace burned in my skin watching over me in my dreams so that i always forget the bad side of how i met aliens the first and last time.
never getting lifted never getting appreciated
my "friends" are all tifted
my feelings are all sifted
to this twisted scar its a vision we need to heal

*hugs Mark*
*hugs monk*
*hugs Louise*

Hi guys. I just came to sit. Things are so crazyy.

*Huggles my wardies*

*hugs Pretty.Reckless* (sorry... don't know your name)
*hugs Mark* how are you today?

Freaking Out about my Benfits Medical Laura , How are you Hun ? *Hugs
*

Hi everyone. *hugs for all*

hugs everyone - how are you all

*hugs Mark* oh... I hate it when there is so much worry about money.
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Louise*

Do you know the feeling when everything is annoying? I'm so easily annoyed lately. I get annoyed of the way the blanket was touching my back. And I get annoyed when someone in the room is talking on the phone. I get annoyed when the page of my book makes a noise when I turn the page. I hate it when I'm getting annoyed so easily, it makes me want to sh because I'm getting annoyed with how easily I'm getting annoyed.