nor me! I tried watching Haunting in Connecticut once & I cried so much in the first half hour my gf had to switch it off - I didn't sleep for ages. Same when I tried to watch the ring & the girl was called Samara I freaked out & thought the TV was talking to me - it got messy.


*hugs everyone* hope you're all doing well? x

*waves to Kim Hey :)

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Emma if okay?*

*Hugs Mara*

Hi everyone.

I really need to cut my grass but I just can't get motivated. I'd rather stay on here with you lovely people.

*Hugs Lindsay*If you buy a goat it will eat the grass short :)

I am feeling pretty sodding triggered. Popped Diaz, they took the edge off ,sigh, I really want there to be no fresh injurys on me when Felicia and I meet in 5 days and 22 minutes .

You can do this, Mark.

I'm trying Lindsay hun :) *Hugs* How are you?

*Spots and hugs Heidi*

I'm desperate to get out of this world but know that I can't until my brother has settled down. I'm going to overdose soon to help me to have a break from the world.

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry you feel rough hun *Holds hand*

*hugs Lindsay* I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now.

*hugs Mark* I'm sad that you're hurting to. I wish I could make it all better. Just think, 5 more days!

Homework is stupid and I freaking hate it. I need it to be Thursday already so I will be completely and utterly done.

Thanks, Mark. How are you doing now?

Have you got a lot of homework to do, Heidi?

The crisis team phoned at a different time than I expected them to so I didn't have time to prepare something to say to them and just told them that I was ok. It's so hard to vocalise how I am feeling.

Not a lot, so much as I can't seem to find what should be right in front of my face. I get super frustrated. I'm ready to turn it in without doing anymore.

I'm happy to hear that you talked to them at least. Have you thought about trying to write your feelings out in a letter?

*Hugs Lindsay* Went out and bought alcohol, not going to drink it tonight , it's so weird but I feel better just having it in.....

*Hugs Heidi*

I finished my homework, so that's good news. I also wrote out my suicide note today. Still not sure on when, but the note is ready to go.

I wish the yelling would stop. It's always so loud. I don't know how much more I can take.

*hugs Mark* I guess that's kind of the same as having blades about but not using them.

*hugs Heidi* Does anyone know how you are feeling? Please don't be alone with this.

I write down my feelings and show them to my psychologist, who seems to be the only person who listens to me, but I only have one more appoitment with him before he leaves to work in another area.

I Do that with blades too Lindsay *Hugs*

*Hugs Heidi* You aren't alone in this hun , Is there anyone you can talk to? I will listen hun , and am pretty sure the whole ward will too.

*hugs Lindsay, Mark and Heidi*

I'm only a PM away if anyone wants to talk

*hugs Lindsay, Mark and Oliver* I feel like no one is listening. It doesn't matter though, cause I don't have anything to say anymore.

*shuffles in and sits in a corner to think*

hope everyone is doing well. I know I haven't been 'round in a long while. Been focusing on my marriage, which is doing better... makes it easier to resist the urge to SI. Tonight... really hard though...

*hugs everyone*

Sorry guys, didn't get time to make some foodage... been a really depressing evening into overnight :( I actually feel like crying.. haven't done that in a long time... I am trying to resist but its hard

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Matt*