Thx Mark!
*hugs Mark, Laura and Ian*

*Peers in*
Can I come back? I could really do with some support.

Heya :) *cuddles charlie* of course you can come back, your welcome here anytime. Are you ok?

Hey
*Cuddles* Thankyou.
I'm alrightish, just having a bit of a hard time. You?

I'm sorry your having a hard time :( do you want to talk about it? Its ok if you dont but we are here if you do want to talk about it. I'm so so.

*hugs Mark* I have so much faith in you for giving up alcohol. You can do this <3

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm just a PM away if you need me.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Claire*

*Hugs JK*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Crimson* Congrats on being moved in! :)

*Hugs Charlie* Welcome back! I'm sorry you're having a hard time. *cuddles*

*Hugs anyone I missed/anyone who may come in*


So... apparently, I have to give my uni rights to talk to my counselor so she can prove I need to be considered independent for financial aid.
In between my recent slip up and this... I am not happy.

Anyway.... Love you guys :)

think i need to check in

by the way its my first time in here

Hey ajrandom,
Welcome! I'm Felicia.

having a rough time atm
so am going to stay here for a while

*hugs shattered1* New people are always welcome!

Hi again guys,Thanks for the hugs.Hi to all the new people. I am terribly suicidal again,have been past few days....need to hide in here.I need you guys so much right now =/ I know I'm irrational atm,so please forgive me.

*hugs Claire* We're here for you. You can PM me if you'd like. I'm sorry you're struggling so much.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Glomps Charlie* Of course you can come back in :)

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs ajrandom if okay*Welcome :)

*Hugs Shattered1 if okay*Hey I'm Mark

*Hugs Claire*

*hugs all* wish I could make it better for all those that are struggling.

I'm going to try and keep dinner + meds down tonight. I'm so fvcking scared of the meds, because I always imagine meds (even pain killers) as millions of tiny germs (lack of a better word) floating around in my body that have a plan and their own will.
If I take it for a few weeks so it has an effect on me, will it get easier to take it?

*Hugs everyone* Thanks Misskitty(sorry don't know your real name) and Mark. I am a little better today,ended up ringing the smaritains at about 1am and cleared the air in my head a bit.I think I set myself of on a downward path when I got drunk last week (first time in about 3years) and I guess I should have known better.Alcohol is in eccess a form of self-harm and I react badly to being out of control but crave it.So so today....OCD ruling my head but thats better than suicidal...

*hugs everyone*

I'm so depressed today. My 21st went as well as could be expected on Tuesday. I have a chest/throat thing, so am not feeling great physically. Mentally, I'm just so down and just don't have the strength to fight any more. I got a letter today saying that they've put me in the Silver band for council housing. I'm so scared of moving - I won't be safe on my own. :-(

*hugs all*

Shattered1: sometimes I get physical sensations like my arms are starting to itch like crazy.

*cuddles Charlie* Of course you can come back! Your too Claire! *hugs*
*welcomes everyone new* I'm Crimson!
*huggles all around*

Sorry for not doing individuals but I can't think much past how bloody itchy I am right now. I did finally figure out why I was having an eczema outbreak though. I thought it was stress but it got worse with less stress so I looked at the only new thing I'd been using (my lotion) to see if it had anything to cause an allergic outbreak... One would not think cocoa butter with vitamin e would be bad right? Wrong! I am allergic to titanium. My new lotion has titanium dioxide in it. Who new they even put that in some lotions?! But I originally used more to help with the eczema so now I am splotchy and itchy all over rather than the smaller area I was itchy originally! And I am wearing a sweater in my toasty office because it looks awful and with Shingles going around lately I don't want to be sent home because they don't understand what my rash is. I feel like an itchy leper.
[/mini-rant-whinge moment]

K now that I got that out I can think a little more (less crowded in my head, ya know?) MJ, What housing are you in now and what is Silver band housing? (Sorry I know nothing of housing in Wales...)

You aren't a freak shattered, I get sensations and sometimes even see the damage I want to cause when it's bad...

Laura, it should get easier to take once you get accustomed to taking something, especially if it helps.

goes around and hugs everyone says hello - then goes and sits in the corner.

*hugs Louise* what's up?