How are you today Owen?

Wanders in, reads 10 pages of posts and sits quietly to digest it all.

Seems a bunch of ward members are suffering right now, big hugs and strength to you all
JK

*jumps on JK and gives a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig cuddle* Are you okay sweetie? :(

*hugs/waves everyone else*

*Hugs JK*

*Hugs Helen*

*Spots Kat and hugs*

*hugs mark back* caught me lurking! Well done on keeping SI free for a day! I know you've really been struggling with it recently, so i'm proud of you! How are you?

Just attempted to read through all i've missed, but there must be about 12 pages there, and I just don't have the mental capacity to handle it right now. So, i'm going to be really lame and give everyone who has posted a great big cuddle

*runs around the ward and warren cuddling everyone who wants cuddles and waving at everyone else and giving out boxes of safe love and blessings*

phew. now i'm worn out.

I have a post to reply to, that was directed at me, but i've gotta go back and read it before replying because it's gone completely outta my head!

I wish I had never been born in the first place. *hides*

*Finds Lindsay and Huggles*

Kat I'm triggered , but trying to distract myself , the football is on in the background , I'll keep checking the F1 but I'm not overly intrested in either , darn lack of focus , I phoned my sister but no answer hmmm , I may plat WoW later , not played for days

*huggles lindsay* but then you couldn't have cuddles!

*hugs mark* I have no focus either, I went to the GP on thursday and couldn't focus on what she was asking me, I kept drifting off into thinking about what she was 'really' asking, you know? I'm getting intrigued in WoW, only because there's so much talk on here. What's it like to play? I must admit I tend to build plots on the sims or play theme hospital...sad I know.

*spots an april and hugs*

*hugs Kat back* WoW is... addicting. Haha. And you can really get lost in its world(s). It's pretty amazing... but of course I would say that as I'm a complete WoW nerd and have been playing it for almost a year and a half. I haven't played any other computer games/RPGs before though... just WoW. As Jarrod put it, "I got her straight into WoW-crack." Lol. I thought that was funny... that was at Hot Topic, talking to one of the staff who also plays WoW. :P

Anyway.

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry, I'm being kind of lazy on the replies right now. I'll see if I can remember everybody in the 2 pages I read...

*hugs Mark* 1 day is incredible given how much you've been struggling. I'm really proud of you :)

*finds & hugs Lindsay* The world would be a horrible place if you hadn't been bored.

*hugs April*

*hugs Laura*

*offers hugs to Julie/Owen*

*hugs JK*

*hugs Helen*

*hugs Hannah*

*hugs Kat*

*hugs Heather*

*hugs everyone else that I might have missed*

*squishes you lots*

I cut on my left leg , not bad , I ****ing hate myself this afternoon, I deserve to bl**d - are you ****ing happy now life? huh

Edit : Sorry if this upsets anyone I'll remove it

hugs doikers (sorry dont know your name) sorry you cut. please try and stay safe. huggles

Hi Shadowedsoul (I don't know your name either) I'm Mark , Thankyou for the huggles *Huggles back*

hey mark im jil, just read what i wrote sorry if that sounded shitty or something.you manging to keep yourself distrated (sp)

Didn't sound shitty at all Jill , I'm doing my best to keep distracted , it's hard when I've got no focus or concentration . how are you doing?

hmm okay i guess, better than yestarday. still feel numb dont see the point in all this, i feel im keeping alive to please other people. that im stopping cutting so people will stop worrying, so i wont see the dissapointment in my perents eyes.

I know it's hard to see the point in all this , especially when you are numb , I am numb a LOT of the time too *Hugs Ya* I'm a going to bed for 20 minutes only now , just to rest and be safe

*cuddles mark tight* I'm so sorry that you felt the need to cut sweetie. You sound like you're having a rough time right now and I really feel for you. I hope that you take good care of that injury. Lots of love and prayers coming your way.

*huggles Jill* Hi hun. How are you?

*hugs taz back* how are you doing?

I spy Sefka *hugs*

*hugs april* I think I might have to look into it..I quite enjoy RPG, and I certainly could do with somewhere to escape.

*huggles hels just because*

I'm tired. Haz is up every hour at night again. wasn't this supposed to have stopped by now? I mean she's nearly 9months old, what's going on!?

I've got child services coming round to check up on me on tuesday. I need to get some sleep so I can tidy up a bit. Yeah, I'm terrified they'll take her away.
Gp wants me to stop breastfeeding so I can take anti-depressants...i'm swings and roundabouts over wether I want to or not..
Oh, and I've been referred to the CPN..again..maybe this time we'll get somewhere.

hey, iam hmm got no idea, trying to keep myself busy so i wont do anything stuiped. how are you today katnovia